professor8
Rising Star
Trip Report Sept 11 2010
Professor8
Lately I have had anxiety related to the Egoloss experienced just before breakthrough. It usually goes something like this, I lie back and close my eyes just after exhaling and feel the enormous power of the carrier wave as it builds momentum unnaturally fast, my ears make a funny crackling sound as the pressure equalises inside my head to allow for the perceived change in altitude. The reversed gravity is both pushing and pulling as my face & being melts into a quicksilver pool in the room that was just a moment ago my head. It is now that I feel the effects of being torn into a million tiny screaming fractal pieces of what I used to call me. The resulting pure unattached consciousness is now shot out over millions years thru the worm hole and backflipped out into the territory better know as Hyperspace; my egoic self kicking and silently screaming in the vacuum of space.
.......................Good God, Man! (in the voice of an english colonial)
WTF!!!!
Get a hold of yourself!! Relax! Relax... Relax.
…You’ve arrived. Whew…
And invariably the journey is warm and rewarding.
You see, once you get there the whole idea of ego death and self becomes clear and you wonder what you were afraid of in the first place. I believe that the symbolic death I go through to get to Hyperspace or the Angelic Realms is REAL! Well real enough to scare the shit out of the egoic self so much that it uses every one of its clever tricks to keep you from killing it! It is programmed to fear death of any kind.
But that is exactly what needs to be done if you are going to get any work worth doing done.
I will get past this fear. I will keep at it until the fear goes away; until I am so comfortably in the egoless state that it becomes second nature. Yes I can do this…. Yes, I have done it.
….Are you still with me?
Good, I will continue…
I made a batch of changa with only 20mg of spice in 80mg of 11x caapi and took a few trips around the local solar system to get comfortable in the sub breakthrough realm. Why didn’t I try this moons ago? These musical & colourful mini trips were wonderful; I was confident because I assumed 20mg wouldn’t launch me into oblivion on a bumpy ego bruising ride.
After a couple of these I was ready to try a bit more spice, still not going for full breakthrough. So I took 40mg of 11xCaapi & 30mg of spice and put in my VG. I slipped under the covers and made my ritual prayer of asking my guides for protection and took 10 deep breaths.
I Vaped the entire load in one go with breath to spare and felt an incredible wave of relaxing warmth overtake me when I finally exhaled. Everything was moving at a slow & managable pace that I attributed to using less spice;
........NOT
I HAD ingested enough spice for a breakthrough, it was my mindset that had changed...
I felt warm and liquid and noticed I was watching myself from a new perspective that was not my ordinary spiced observer, in other words I was able to watch the whole process of going into hyperspace from a detached behind-the-scenes-perspective.
WOW this was something else altogether, a slow and gentle transition from egoic-me to transcendental-I.
And my fearful everyday egoic commentator was quietly sitting in his corner like a good little boy, no tantrums or screaming.
I am not feeling the usual sluggishness and slow feeling I usually get when travelling so I open my eyes to see how deep I may or may not be.
As I open the eyes of the body I am currently in yet oddly removed from, the room is lit by a tiny night light but it is enough to see the diamond reflections of the pixie dust sparkling in the ether.
Yebo I am in the Zone!!!!! But I feel perfectly sober and my judgement is razor sharp.
This is wonderful!!!
I take a few breaths and realise that as I take more breaths the oxygen that floods my brain increases the visions of seeing the space between the space and the colours of the molecules in the room. Far freaking out!! This is amazing!!! New vistas to investigate right before my very eyes!!!!
I slowly sense a feminine presence manifest as a gossamer veil of white light begins to flow into the room. A warm white mist of angelic energy is materialising right in front of me, My heart starts glowing and begins expanding in my chest as she descends closer to me, I am enveloped in the presence of her love and she slides into my being and wraps her delicate wings of curved white light around my heart. Tears of love and joy stream down my face as I hold space for this magnificent being of light and for an infinite moment we are one in hyperspace.
There is no great revelation or cosmic speed download just a gentle introduction and confirmation that the angelic realms are real and their energetic occupants care about us human beings. They love us and are always there to help. All you have to do is ask. Waves of love vroofed through me as She began to withdrew herself and the white mist of sparkling cosmic light reverse spiralled into a point near the ceiling and snapped quietly out of sight. I was thoughtless and filled with the Love of the Universe as I felt the familiar gravitic effects of reentry begin.
The journey was over and gone was my fear.
I have never been big on Angels, in fact I always thought they were constructs of the Abrihamic religions and therefore bullshit. But I can honestly say that I was wrong. I have seen and felt these beings of light and they are as real as the keyboard I am typing this report on… perhaps more so.
And to make sure I got the message the very next night I dreamt I was lying in bed in the same position as the night before during the encounter and opened my eyes to see an Angel hovering before me above my bed. A dream within a dream or a trip within a dream, whatever you call it, it was confirmation of the experience.
I have never been more confident to travel and can say that the fear of ego death is behind me. I am writing this in the hopes that my experience and process may help you and illuminate some of the darkness and shed more light on the collective highways and wormholes we use on our journeys.
Travel in Love my friends
Peace Professor8
Professor8
Lately I have had anxiety related to the Egoloss experienced just before breakthrough. It usually goes something like this, I lie back and close my eyes just after exhaling and feel the enormous power of the carrier wave as it builds momentum unnaturally fast, my ears make a funny crackling sound as the pressure equalises inside my head to allow for the perceived change in altitude. The reversed gravity is both pushing and pulling as my face & being melts into a quicksilver pool in the room that was just a moment ago my head. It is now that I feel the effects of being torn into a million tiny screaming fractal pieces of what I used to call me. The resulting pure unattached consciousness is now shot out over millions years thru the worm hole and backflipped out into the territory better know as Hyperspace; my egoic self kicking and silently screaming in the vacuum of space.
.......................Good God, Man! (in the voice of an english colonial)
WTF!!!!
Get a hold of yourself!! Relax! Relax... Relax.
…You’ve arrived. Whew…
And invariably the journey is warm and rewarding.
You see, once you get there the whole idea of ego death and self becomes clear and you wonder what you were afraid of in the first place. I believe that the symbolic death I go through to get to Hyperspace or the Angelic Realms is REAL! Well real enough to scare the shit out of the egoic self so much that it uses every one of its clever tricks to keep you from killing it! It is programmed to fear death of any kind.
But that is exactly what needs to be done if you are going to get any work worth doing done.
I will get past this fear. I will keep at it until the fear goes away; until I am so comfortably in the egoless state that it becomes second nature. Yes I can do this…. Yes, I have done it.
….Are you still with me?
Good, I will continue…
I made a batch of changa with only 20mg of spice in 80mg of 11x caapi and took a few trips around the local solar system to get comfortable in the sub breakthrough realm. Why didn’t I try this moons ago? These musical & colourful mini trips were wonderful; I was confident because I assumed 20mg wouldn’t launch me into oblivion on a bumpy ego bruising ride.
After a couple of these I was ready to try a bit more spice, still not going for full breakthrough. So I took 40mg of 11xCaapi & 30mg of spice and put in my VG. I slipped under the covers and made my ritual prayer of asking my guides for protection and took 10 deep breaths.
I Vaped the entire load in one go with breath to spare and felt an incredible wave of relaxing warmth overtake me when I finally exhaled. Everything was moving at a slow & managable pace that I attributed to using less spice;
........NOT
I HAD ingested enough spice for a breakthrough, it was my mindset that had changed...
I felt warm and liquid and noticed I was watching myself from a new perspective that was not my ordinary spiced observer, in other words I was able to watch the whole process of going into hyperspace from a detached behind-the-scenes-perspective.
WOW this was something else altogether, a slow and gentle transition from egoic-me to transcendental-I.
And my fearful everyday egoic commentator was quietly sitting in his corner like a good little boy, no tantrums or screaming.
I am not feeling the usual sluggishness and slow feeling I usually get when travelling so I open my eyes to see how deep I may or may not be.
As I open the eyes of the body I am currently in yet oddly removed from, the room is lit by a tiny night light but it is enough to see the diamond reflections of the pixie dust sparkling in the ether.
Yebo I am in the Zone!!!!! But I feel perfectly sober and my judgement is razor sharp.
This is wonderful!!!
I take a few breaths and realise that as I take more breaths the oxygen that floods my brain increases the visions of seeing the space between the space and the colours of the molecules in the room. Far freaking out!! This is amazing!!! New vistas to investigate right before my very eyes!!!!
I slowly sense a feminine presence manifest as a gossamer veil of white light begins to flow into the room. A warm white mist of angelic energy is materialising right in front of me, My heart starts glowing and begins expanding in my chest as she descends closer to me, I am enveloped in the presence of her love and she slides into my being and wraps her delicate wings of curved white light around my heart. Tears of love and joy stream down my face as I hold space for this magnificent being of light and for an infinite moment we are one in hyperspace.
There is no great revelation or cosmic speed download just a gentle introduction and confirmation that the angelic realms are real and their energetic occupants care about us human beings. They love us and are always there to help. All you have to do is ask. Waves of love vroofed through me as She began to withdrew herself and the white mist of sparkling cosmic light reverse spiralled into a point near the ceiling and snapped quietly out of sight. I was thoughtless and filled with the Love of the Universe as I felt the familiar gravitic effects of reentry begin.
The journey was over and gone was my fear.
I have never been big on Angels, in fact I always thought they were constructs of the Abrihamic religions and therefore bullshit. But I can honestly say that I was wrong. I have seen and felt these beings of light and they are as real as the keyboard I am typing this report on… perhaps more so.
And to make sure I got the message the very next night I dreamt I was lying in bed in the same position as the night before during the encounter and opened my eyes to see an Angel hovering before me above my bed. A dream within a dream or a trip within a dream, whatever you call it, it was confirmation of the experience.
I have never been more confident to travel and can say that the fear of ego death is behind me. I am writing this in the hopes that my experience and process may help you and illuminate some of the darkness and shed more light on the collective highways and wormholes we use on our journeys.
Travel in Love my friends
Peace Professor8
