Blackstatis
Johnny Noone
i just got back from what may be one of my most incredible experiences. i loaded up 50mg into my "oil burner" and ingested the dose in one hit. i usually try to hold it in as long as i can, but usually get overwhelmed by the onset and blow it out so i can get on last breath of air before diving deep. as i was blowing out my hit i leaned back in my chair and was looking at the ceiling. the smoke was being absorbed by the ceiling and all i saw for a moment was the off white pattern of my textured ceiling. everything around me was gone and then i broke through that veil of what was my ceiling.
enter new world. i am not a complete noob to the hyperspacial dimension. i've been roughly 20-30 times. however, i have lost count at this point. i don't want to focus on how many times i've been as a score card, but rather remember the experience and what i can gain from it. but anyway, this was my first time being shown all of the secrets of the world. i remember seeing the inner workings of everything and i could have or be anything i wanted with these secrets. it all made perfect sense too, there was a pattern to everything and it has been what people have followed since day one. the patterns don't change, just the people and mediums by which achieved change. it was truly an information overload, i saw the information for everything, however happening so fast, i am not able to retain that much knowledge at such a fast rate. that showed me that thats why we work lifetimes to only become good at one or a couple things. in the midst of all of this knowledge flooding, i was broken down. my self image and every description that makes up who i am was dissolved one at a time. i believe that i experienced the true nature of the ever so popular "ego death". all of the verbal descriptions that us "intelligent" beings use to describe us; man, brown hair, worker, white, etc... all started to have no meaning and fade away from who i ACTUALLY am. which is the most incredible and simultaneously frightening thing i have ever experienced. who are you really, what are you really. underneath all of the descriptions and labels of what makes a person a person, who are you? if you take away everything you have and everything you know and dissolve it, what does that leave you with. what is the true nature of existence. not the "why are we here" question, but rather, what does it mean to be you. am i just a thought or an actual creation of physical existence. i was never able to get to that point. there was alot of breaking down/dissolving to do. i hope more people can have the experience i just had. good luck to all in your travels.
enter new world. i am not a complete noob to the hyperspacial dimension. i've been roughly 20-30 times. however, i have lost count at this point. i don't want to focus on how many times i've been as a score card, but rather remember the experience and what i can gain from it. but anyway, this was my first time being shown all of the secrets of the world. i remember seeing the inner workings of everything and i could have or be anything i wanted with these secrets. it all made perfect sense too, there was a pattern to everything and it has been what people have followed since day one. the patterns don't change, just the people and mediums by which achieved change. it was truly an information overload, i saw the information for everything, however happening so fast, i am not able to retain that much knowledge at such a fast rate. that showed me that thats why we work lifetimes to only become good at one or a couple things. in the midst of all of this knowledge flooding, i was broken down. my self image and every description that makes up who i am was dissolved one at a time. i believe that i experienced the true nature of the ever so popular "ego death". all of the verbal descriptions that us "intelligent" beings use to describe us; man, brown hair, worker, white, etc... all started to have no meaning and fade away from who i ACTUALLY am. which is the most incredible and simultaneously frightening thing i have ever experienced. who are you really, what are you really. underneath all of the descriptions and labels of what makes a person a person, who are you? if you take away everything you have and everything you know and dissolve it, what does that leave you with. what is the true nature of existence. not the "why are we here" question, but rather, what does it mean to be you. am i just a thought or an actual creation of physical existence. i was never able to get to that point. there was alot of breaking down/dissolving to do. i hope more people can have the experience i just had. good luck to all in your travels.
