Im curious, how do you think a horrible experience would feel like?
Why do you do DMT?
Im curious, how do you think a horrible experience would feel like?
I think that a horrible experience could be deduced, in part, from my own dream experiences.
My worst nightmares are nightmares of being powerless, incapable, or being persecuted. Monsters or people chase and attack me in a Kafkaesque world where I'm guilty but I don't know why.
There is a variation of this nightmare that alternates between dream and nightmare, very strange, where I jump very high and while I'm up, I feel safe and well (it's a good experience), however, as gravity inevitably exerts influence on me, I'm falling and I know when I'm on the ground I'll be available to those who are chasing me, I'll have to jump again to protect myself from above.
After using DMT a few times, I saw that a risk for me would be having too much information. It's a little hard to explain, but it seems to be getting too strong for me to bear. It is also strange to me that so many forms and experiences occur without my being able to stop them. The no-return aspect of the experience scares me a bit. Other than that, I've heard some reports of bad trips that freaked me out.
Why do you do DMT?
I started using DMT because I was first curious to enter such a fantastic world. I had some pleasant sensations with it at low doses (a particular desire to eat fruit was even noticed after the return of some experiences in which I started to enter an orange and warm ocean).
However, I was curious to use this type of tool due to the fact that I am researching and gathering ideas to write a book on philosophy of mind (I'm a philosophy professor), which concerns a tautology (a logical arrangement where all sentences are true) about the transcendental status of repeatability of deep self. Let me explain: we've thought over the centuries about what the mind is, or even how it works. I would like to re-situate this investigation object with 2 fundamental and classic questions in the history of philosophy: is the mind material or is the mind immaterial?
If we assume that the mind is material, what we mean by that is that it emanates from a specific combination of materiality that separates me from you, for example (since if we had the same material identity we would be the same person). We are, therefore, similar enough to be human beings, but different enough to be distinct. This means that if our mind emanates from the material configuration and, ultimately, our "self", it is enough for the materiality to organize itself again in the same way for this "self" to manifest itself again. Therefore, the materialist tendency of the mind seems to share a possible survival of the self (not our memories or personality or mind, just the "self" the pure conscience that can inhabit a cow, a three , a human or anything else, not in the beyond, but in its ideal material identity (as a DNA of the self).
In a second possibility, if the mind is not material and by that we mean that the elements that make it exist are not material, then the cessation of mental material support (body) does not cause it to end, since it is not material. . Thus, we arrive at a possible tautology, in which all logical possibilities seem to endorse the possibility that the "self" is not a unique event, but at least repeatable. So the question for the mind is no longer whether it is material or not, but whether it is repeatable. I am writing a philosophy book with such ideas and therefore seek knowledge with DMT insofar as it can break the notion of SELF for my research. So I would say that the reasons I use DMT are: curiosity and a sense of adventure plus a need to seek out knowledge.
I'm gathering strength to really breakthrough
