I had accidentally dosed around 50mg's a little over a year ago. It was all in one hit and nothing was left over in the GVG. By far the fastest onset of anything I have ever experienced. As well as the most intense thing I could never imagine possible, I still can't imagine the intensity today even though I went through it. I was merging with the everything, becoming one with it all, connecting and in control of. Feeling like you have actually left, and are somewhere else, is a very alien experience. It threw me off, as I panicked because I didnt want to leave my earth body behind for ever, which was my assumption of what was happening. It felt so alone out there.

Integration... that took quite awhile, and I am not so sure that I am finished. Are we ever really done integrating anything? The integration part was interesting this time. Most of it was automatic, I didnt really have a choice. A lot of stuff was permanently ingrained in me. I just had to hold on to my sanity for several months. The first few months I was going through a sort of PTSD period. I continued on with my life and mostly set psychedelics aside. The first few months I wasnt even sure if I would even dose DMT ever again.

I took up new hobbies, enjoyed my life. I'm a bit of an observer, I observe deeply my thoughts and emotions on a day to day basis. This was interesting as I could see the integration process happening as it unfolded. I dosed very low doses of DMT about 4 times or so since then, and I wasnt ready so thats where I currently stand.

I have a hard time explaining exactly what I do to integrate my experiences so I apologize for that. I just kind of do it. Life is experience, so experience LIFE.