wiglo
Rising Star
This should be in the DMT Experience sub forum, but I have not yet ascended.
Winter 2005
This was my 3rd DMT. It had been at least 3 years since the last time I went in. At least by smoking it. Two years earlier, I had my first ayahuasca experience.
This time I went in deep. I smoked it in a wood pipe along with some bud. My friend sprinkled some on top so I have no indication of how much he actually sprinkled. I can imagine it was quite a bit. (I want to stress that he had pre-measured the sprinkle, I just did not see how much. He took me into my last 2 experiences and countless friends' experiences. I trusted him wholeheartedly. Please be careful with your dosages and refer to the wiki and faq for any questions you might have.) I remember inhaling twice. It was much more pleasant than freebasing. Immediately I laid back and shot deep into a pleasantly profound experience.
I was on some sort of vehicle spinning through space with two humanoid entities. They were my guides. Everything around me I perceived in three colors. Red, white and black. I felt as if I was on a roller coaster. The reality around me was mostly white in exterior and red in interior. Objects were textured like an Aidan Hughes KMFDM record cover. The vehicle stopped at a level and I was instructed by the humanoid woman that this was where we were getting off. She was tall, towering over me. She was dressed in black and had very pale, thin and long features. Her face had almond shaped eyes, sharp nose, thin lips and a pointy chin. Her face was in the shape of a typical gray alien, except she had short dark hair covering her ears.
We began a conversation. She welcomed me back and said "There is a lot to teach you, are you ready?" She took me to a large white room with a giant red circle in the middle of it. She stood in front of it and said the following to me:
"You create reality with your mind. As you think it, it appears. You have complete control of your reality. You are not random, you are not the puppet you suppose yourself to be. Let me show you." And with that she showed me her hands. Her fingers grew to fine and long needle points. She walked over to me and inserted her fingers into the top of my head, essentially opening up my cranium. She said "Now think about anything you want to see." And I started thinking. Some memories, others wishes and as I did, those realities flowed completely from my exposed cranium. This experience was not painful at all, but I felt pressure in the middle of my brain. As I watched my thoughts take physical form, the more I thought, the more valid they became. Past, present and future were there all at once, formed by my consciousness and immediately experienced at once.
This continued for a few moments. After I was satisfied with what I was experiencing, she removed her fingers from my mind. She began to speak again while she walked me to another white room that had a large black rectangle in the middle. A she guided me to the rectangle, I quickly realized it was a large door that lead to a dark place. She said the following to me:
"There is infinite love. You invent good and evil to help you understand your physical reality, but those things do not exist. Here you cannot be compromised as you think you can be in your physical reality. Step through this door to see what awaits you." And with those words I stepped through the door into darkness.
As I stood in the darkness alone, a faint glow appeared in the distance. The silhouette of a large demon appeared and came towards me. He shot black flame from his extremities at me which knocked me off my feet. As I lay on the ground, the demon laughed at me and sprayed me with dark flame. I quickly realized the absurdity of the situation and started laughing. My fears were not made of substance that could harm me in any way unless I believed it could. The idea of the demon being my creation allowed me to cease its attack. The demon said "And now you understand." As it walked away, it seemed jovial. The room became bright in an intense light and I started floating.
A male voice began to speak and said "Now what do you want to learn? We have some time. Tell me."
"Can you show me the serpents I hear so much about? Is there wisdom I can gain from them?"
The bright light faded and I found myself on a 16th century Spanish ship in the middle of the ocean. The colors became brilliant and numerous. The texture was very much like a Van Gogh painting. The ship was it's usual wood color, the sky was yellow, the ocean blue. The sun was white but not blindingly bright. As I looked at it, the sun formed into a yin yang of two serpents, one red and the other blue. They circled around each other a few times and slithered from the sun and into the ocean. Together the swam side by side until the reached my ship head on. They swam across the port and starboard sides.
The giant serpents swam and left, eventually forming the entire ocean itself. The male voice spoke again and asked, "Did you get what you wanted?" I felt I had not. Where was the wisdom? I saw the serpents, but they seemingly ignored me. I was confused. To this he responded "You asked your questions, but they were not answered because you did not need them. Your answers will come to you when you are in need them, not when you ask questions of which answers you do not need." This seemed very cryptic and not as obvious as the previous two conversations. My interpretation of this is you may be looking for answers to questions you simply can't understand yet.
As he spoke, I started flying up from the ship, into space above... being rushed back to my body. I opened my eyes and was back in my room. I felt another pull and I went straight back in, the voice was still speaking to me. He continued, "Do not forget these lessons. You can share them if you'd like." I opened my eyes and sat back up. I felt absolutely invigorated.
The idea that I manifested my realities based on my conscious thought, my will, really touched me in a beneficial way. I ceased to believe that I was some puppet that flowed in the wind like a leaf, falling where it may. In fact, I was in complete control of my reality at a conscious level and if I wanted this reality to treat me like a leaf in the wind, then it would. If I wanted pain and suffering, that is what I got. If I wanted peace and happiness, it awaited me with a though. I decided I would take control of my life and I did. I made it happen. This reality concept was further explored and touched upon in my 2nd ayahuasca experience. I will add a link to that later when I post it.
In the last few months, an old friend pointed me to Jane Roberts - Seth. Many of the things Seth speaks about I came across throughout my DMT and ayahuasca experiences. I am not sure what the correlation means if anything, but I found it surprising that I had come up with intelligible ideas and concepts about the nature of reality with only limited mathematical and scientific knowledge and that multiple sources had the same ideas. At this time in my life, my pursuits were very heavily career based. I did not read about science and things and had no TV because I was too busy being a designer. Soon after these sessions is when I picked up the books. So there you have it!
Much love and respect.
Winter 2005
This was my 3rd DMT. It had been at least 3 years since the last time I went in. At least by smoking it. Two years earlier, I had my first ayahuasca experience.
This time I went in deep. I smoked it in a wood pipe along with some bud. My friend sprinkled some on top so I have no indication of how much he actually sprinkled. I can imagine it was quite a bit. (I want to stress that he had pre-measured the sprinkle, I just did not see how much. He took me into my last 2 experiences and countless friends' experiences. I trusted him wholeheartedly. Please be careful with your dosages and refer to the wiki and faq for any questions you might have.) I remember inhaling twice. It was much more pleasant than freebasing. Immediately I laid back and shot deep into a pleasantly profound experience.
I was on some sort of vehicle spinning through space with two humanoid entities. They were my guides. Everything around me I perceived in three colors. Red, white and black. I felt as if I was on a roller coaster. The reality around me was mostly white in exterior and red in interior. Objects were textured like an Aidan Hughes KMFDM record cover. The vehicle stopped at a level and I was instructed by the humanoid woman that this was where we were getting off. She was tall, towering over me. She was dressed in black and had very pale, thin and long features. Her face had almond shaped eyes, sharp nose, thin lips and a pointy chin. Her face was in the shape of a typical gray alien, except she had short dark hair covering her ears.
We began a conversation. She welcomed me back and said "There is a lot to teach you, are you ready?" She took me to a large white room with a giant red circle in the middle of it. She stood in front of it and said the following to me:
"You create reality with your mind. As you think it, it appears. You have complete control of your reality. You are not random, you are not the puppet you suppose yourself to be. Let me show you." And with that she showed me her hands. Her fingers grew to fine and long needle points. She walked over to me and inserted her fingers into the top of my head, essentially opening up my cranium. She said "Now think about anything you want to see." And I started thinking. Some memories, others wishes and as I did, those realities flowed completely from my exposed cranium. This experience was not painful at all, but I felt pressure in the middle of my brain. As I watched my thoughts take physical form, the more I thought, the more valid they became. Past, present and future were there all at once, formed by my consciousness and immediately experienced at once.
This continued for a few moments. After I was satisfied with what I was experiencing, she removed her fingers from my mind. She began to speak again while she walked me to another white room that had a large black rectangle in the middle. A she guided me to the rectangle, I quickly realized it was a large door that lead to a dark place. She said the following to me:
"There is infinite love. You invent good and evil to help you understand your physical reality, but those things do not exist. Here you cannot be compromised as you think you can be in your physical reality. Step through this door to see what awaits you." And with those words I stepped through the door into darkness.
As I stood in the darkness alone, a faint glow appeared in the distance. The silhouette of a large demon appeared and came towards me. He shot black flame from his extremities at me which knocked me off my feet. As I lay on the ground, the demon laughed at me and sprayed me with dark flame. I quickly realized the absurdity of the situation and started laughing. My fears were not made of substance that could harm me in any way unless I believed it could. The idea of the demon being my creation allowed me to cease its attack. The demon said "And now you understand." As it walked away, it seemed jovial. The room became bright in an intense light and I started floating.
A male voice began to speak and said "Now what do you want to learn? We have some time. Tell me."
"Can you show me the serpents I hear so much about? Is there wisdom I can gain from them?"
The bright light faded and I found myself on a 16th century Spanish ship in the middle of the ocean. The colors became brilliant and numerous. The texture was very much like a Van Gogh painting. The ship was it's usual wood color, the sky was yellow, the ocean blue. The sun was white but not blindingly bright. As I looked at it, the sun formed into a yin yang of two serpents, one red and the other blue. They circled around each other a few times and slithered from the sun and into the ocean. Together the swam side by side until the reached my ship head on. They swam across the port and starboard sides.
The giant serpents swam and left, eventually forming the entire ocean itself. The male voice spoke again and asked, "Did you get what you wanted?" I felt I had not. Where was the wisdom? I saw the serpents, but they seemingly ignored me. I was confused. To this he responded "You asked your questions, but they were not answered because you did not need them. Your answers will come to you when you are in need them, not when you ask questions of which answers you do not need." This seemed very cryptic and not as obvious as the previous two conversations. My interpretation of this is you may be looking for answers to questions you simply can't understand yet.
As he spoke, I started flying up from the ship, into space above... being rushed back to my body. I opened my eyes and was back in my room. I felt another pull and I went straight back in, the voice was still speaking to me. He continued, "Do not forget these lessons. You can share them if you'd like." I opened my eyes and sat back up. I felt absolutely invigorated.
The idea that I manifested my realities based on my conscious thought, my will, really touched me in a beneficial way. I ceased to believe that I was some puppet that flowed in the wind like a leaf, falling where it may. In fact, I was in complete control of my reality at a conscious level and if I wanted this reality to treat me like a leaf in the wind, then it would. If I wanted pain and suffering, that is what I got. If I wanted peace and happiness, it awaited me with a though. I decided I would take control of my life and I did. I made it happen. This reality concept was further explored and touched upon in my 2nd ayahuasca experience. I will add a link to that later when I post it.
In the last few months, an old friend pointed me to Jane Roberts - Seth. Many of the things Seth speaks about I came across throughout my DMT and ayahuasca experiences. I am not sure what the correlation means if anything, but I found it surprising that I had come up with intelligible ideas and concepts about the nature of reality with only limited mathematical and scientific knowledge and that multiple sources had the same ideas. At this time in my life, my pursuits were very heavily career based. I did not read about science and things and had no TV because I was too busy being a designer. Soon after these sessions is when I picked up the books. So there you have it!
Much love and respect.