Welcome to the Nexus!

Glad to hear you're doing better and overcoming the pain.

You can extract your own DMT without the need to 'meet anybody'.  Or you can take brews with plants like ayahuasca. IME, ayahuasca serves greatly for that self-reflection and development you are talking about, you should give that a go. Check out our suppliers section for plant sources.

Keep us informed of your own development! Be well!