Hello All,
I write to tell of my first experience with DMT. Just from poking around the site a little bit, and from reading reports given by others, it seems like everyone agrees that DMT is one heluva crazy time. It was no less with me.
Let me tell you of some of the preconditions. SWIM has been telling me about DMT for quite some time, and of SWIM's experiences with it. I decided that I was at a point that I too wanted to have such a crazy experience, one of the main reasons being that I wanted to have contact with otherworldly beings, and hopefully learn some cool stuff from them. My friend and I are on a spiritual path, and I was hoping to get a little help from some enlightened beings.
I'm 22 years old, a college drop-out, living with my non-college drop-out brother(currently in school). I work at a restaurant, and am living the life of a young adult; trying to figure out what life is all about. I was hoping DMT would give me a clue
Night of the trip: Tuesday, August 9th, 2011. Approximate time: 8:00pm
Location: my friend's room in my house( I live with 3 other house mates besides my brother) on the third floor.
It was my friend, his girlfriend, and me. We all did it.
The setup was this: me on the floor on a bean bag, sitting cross-legged leaning up against his door. SWIM and his girlfriend were on the bed, leaning up against the wall.
I'm not gonna lie, I was kinda nervous. My heart was beating pretty fast. I was excited, of course. I was about to launch into outer space, thanks to a drug resembling an orangy version of Sugar in the Raw. Also I think the cigarette I had recently smoked added to this kinda jumpy state.
We each had a pipe, a bowl, usually used for smoking weed (mine was brand new, bought just for this occasion). We put a small amount of weed in the bottom of the bowl, and poured the crystals on top of the weed.
We meditated to try and calm ourselves down a bit, and to get in the mood. After a while we lit up:
I lit up the spice and kept the flame to it until it started melting and burning. I inhaled, a long deep breath, I kept sucking until I couldn't suck anymore, then held it.
Zhoom. I was gone. Couldn't even put the bowl down before it took me. It seemed like everything in front of me was coming towards me. I shut my eyes and the weirdest sensation came over me. This is where my skills as a writer will be tested, because I even had a hard time describing it to my friends.
The way I've been describing it is that I felt like I was melting and being turned inside-out, at the same time. I guess the vapor was still in my lungs, so I was coughing it out. But it didn't feel like I was coughing up smoke, it felt like I was coughing up blood and bones, caused by being turned inside out/melting. Basically, I was dying.
This went on for some time, and all I could do was let it happen. I want to impress to you that it wasn't really all that bad, because I knew there wasn't anything I could do about it. I just let it happen. I can't tell you for how long it went on, not short, not long, but stopped eventually.
Now at this point I'm not sure exactly what happens, because after this point, I forget everthing. I forgot what just happened, I forgot what I was doing, what drug I was doing, why I was doing it, what I was supposed to be doing. Everything. It all went away. I couldn't remember things about myself which everyone should remember about themselves. So I freaked out. Not super freaky, just like, what the fuck is going on.
I turn to my friend and his girlfriend, both really blurry, on the bed and try to articulate: "I don't even know what's going on". It comes out like: "I I I dhahon't eveeeeen knnnnnoooooowwwwww, I doooon't eeeeeeven knnnnnnoooooowww whaaaahttt'ssss goooooiiiiiinnngggg oonnnnnn." It was really hard for me to get that out. But basically I was trying to ask them for help, because I really had no clue what was happening.
This caused my friend's girlfriend to want to leave, to go sit on the roof, so as to be alone and unbothered. I was still on the beanbag in front of the door, out of it. She and my friend were asking me to move, repeatedly, because I wasn't really hearing them. Eventually it got through to me, so I look up at his girlfriend, and see her, golden and glowing. I proclaimed, "You are beautiful". And she really was. She thanked me. I moved and she left the room.
I think after this I get up, also a challenge. My friend also gets up and is telling me that I should sit down again. I was having none of it. As I was looking at him, his eyes were criss-crossing back and forth, and I could see swirls and lines around his head. I begin to get a little bit of myself back together, and realize I wasn't really in that room, but a part of the universe. The feeling was amazing. I felt like I could go anywhere, do anything. I felt like I had become a superhuman, an alien, a being in another dimension. But at the same time I was physically in the room, in my body.
I was talking to my friend, not sure about what, but for some reason I knew I could go through him, physically. I tried. Didn't work. Didn't stop me from trying more though. I was talking really fast, and making weird noises, kinda like singing, but just playing with what I thought was a super-control of my vocal cords not previously known by me. Excitement, happiness, hyper-ness, wonder; all were running through me. I still had a hard time remembering things, so I was telling my friend to teach me about things. He tried, but I couldn't keep my concentration on what he was saying, random thoughts kept distracting me.
Sometime during this I remember the DMT trying to seduce me, to put me into a trance I think. I resisted. I'm not sure why but at this point things from my past came into my mind. "This is the serpent, the snake from the garden from adam and eve, and it is tempting me with knowledge." I asked my friend if he was good or evil, because he was the one that gave me the spice. This seduction also took the form of wild energy raging through my body. As I focused on it, I felt like I could control it, to harness the energy. It was a good feeling.
We wanted to check on my friend's girlfriend, for she had been absent this whole time. We went outside the room, and my other roommate down the hall opened his door and asked us to keep our voices down. I went up to him and said, "I can explain everything." I proceeded into his room, yelling, "I'm on DMT!" and jumped onto his bed, did a quick half circle, jumped back off, and left.
When I got back to the room, my friend said he was going to go check on his girlfriend, and left me to my self, saying that I could take another hit of the DMT, and just let it take me. I didn't. I sat there and thought about all that had happened so far, and sobered up. I was on his bed but decided to sit cross-legged on the floor. Eventually he and his girl came back and we talked about each of our experiences. A little while later I went to bed.
So that's pretty much what happened. Exact order of events might be wrong, as it all was a little bit blurry afterwards. One of the best things about it was the sense of oneness with the universe. Like I said, I didn't feel like I was in the room anymore, but just a point in a very very large space.
What I'd like to know about this experience is if the melting/dying part of the trip is usual, and also the same of the forgetting part.
There's also another thing that I'd like to mention about what happened afterwards. As I was trying to fall asleep, I experienced mini trips of melting again, but not dying. I think it happened a couple of times, maybe 2 or three. Also, after falling asleep the next night, waking up in the morning worried about oversleeping, only to see I woke up way before my alarm, and going back to sleep again, I dreamed. I dreamed of music and of a music stand. The music stand started waving around, and when it did, the melting happened again. This again happened the next night. As I was sleeping, and dreaming, I melted again, and woke up. I decided to meditate. I meditated a awhile, and started to dream again/see images, except I was awake. Is that a form of lucid dreaming? During this I melted again, except just in my feet. I tried to let it take me again, but nothing more happened. Has any of this happened to anyone else?
I write to tell of my first experience with DMT. Just from poking around the site a little bit, and from reading reports given by others, it seems like everyone agrees that DMT is one heluva crazy time. It was no less with me.
Let me tell you of some of the preconditions. SWIM has been telling me about DMT for quite some time, and of SWIM's experiences with it. I decided that I was at a point that I too wanted to have such a crazy experience, one of the main reasons being that I wanted to have contact with otherworldly beings, and hopefully learn some cool stuff from them. My friend and I are on a spiritual path, and I was hoping to get a little help from some enlightened beings.
I'm 22 years old, a college drop-out, living with my non-college drop-out brother(currently in school). I work at a restaurant, and am living the life of a young adult; trying to figure out what life is all about. I was hoping DMT would give me a clue
Night of the trip: Tuesday, August 9th, 2011. Approximate time: 8:00pm
Location: my friend's room in my house( I live with 3 other house mates besides my brother) on the third floor.
It was my friend, his girlfriend, and me. We all did it.
The setup was this: me on the floor on a bean bag, sitting cross-legged leaning up against his door. SWIM and his girlfriend were on the bed, leaning up against the wall.
I'm not gonna lie, I was kinda nervous. My heart was beating pretty fast. I was excited, of course. I was about to launch into outer space, thanks to a drug resembling an orangy version of Sugar in the Raw. Also I think the cigarette I had recently smoked added to this kinda jumpy state.
We each had a pipe, a bowl, usually used for smoking weed (mine was brand new, bought just for this occasion). We put a small amount of weed in the bottom of the bowl, and poured the crystals on top of the weed.
We meditated to try and calm ourselves down a bit, and to get in the mood. After a while we lit up:
I lit up the spice and kept the flame to it until it started melting and burning. I inhaled, a long deep breath, I kept sucking until I couldn't suck anymore, then held it.
Zhoom. I was gone. Couldn't even put the bowl down before it took me. It seemed like everything in front of me was coming towards me. I shut my eyes and the weirdest sensation came over me. This is where my skills as a writer will be tested, because I even had a hard time describing it to my friends.
The way I've been describing it is that I felt like I was melting and being turned inside-out, at the same time. I guess the vapor was still in my lungs, so I was coughing it out. But it didn't feel like I was coughing up smoke, it felt like I was coughing up blood and bones, caused by being turned inside out/melting. Basically, I was dying.
This went on for some time, and all I could do was let it happen. I want to impress to you that it wasn't really all that bad, because I knew there wasn't anything I could do about it. I just let it happen. I can't tell you for how long it went on, not short, not long, but stopped eventually.
Now at this point I'm not sure exactly what happens, because after this point, I forget everthing. I forgot what just happened, I forgot what I was doing, what drug I was doing, why I was doing it, what I was supposed to be doing. Everything. It all went away. I couldn't remember things about myself which everyone should remember about themselves. So I freaked out. Not super freaky, just like, what the fuck is going on.
I turn to my friend and his girlfriend, both really blurry, on the bed and try to articulate: "I don't even know what's going on". It comes out like: "I I I dhahon't eveeeeen knnnnnoooooowwwwww, I doooon't eeeeeeven knnnnnnoooooowww whaaaahttt'ssss goooooiiiiiinnngggg oonnnnnn." It was really hard for me to get that out. But basically I was trying to ask them for help, because I really had no clue what was happening.
This caused my friend's girlfriend to want to leave, to go sit on the roof, so as to be alone and unbothered. I was still on the beanbag in front of the door, out of it. She and my friend were asking me to move, repeatedly, because I wasn't really hearing them. Eventually it got through to me, so I look up at his girlfriend, and see her, golden and glowing. I proclaimed, "You are beautiful". And she really was. She thanked me. I moved and she left the room.
I think after this I get up, also a challenge. My friend also gets up and is telling me that I should sit down again. I was having none of it. As I was looking at him, his eyes were criss-crossing back and forth, and I could see swirls and lines around his head. I begin to get a little bit of myself back together, and realize I wasn't really in that room, but a part of the universe. The feeling was amazing. I felt like I could go anywhere, do anything. I felt like I had become a superhuman, an alien, a being in another dimension. But at the same time I was physically in the room, in my body.
I was talking to my friend, not sure about what, but for some reason I knew I could go through him, physically. I tried. Didn't work. Didn't stop me from trying more though. I was talking really fast, and making weird noises, kinda like singing, but just playing with what I thought was a super-control of my vocal cords not previously known by me. Excitement, happiness, hyper-ness, wonder; all were running through me. I still had a hard time remembering things, so I was telling my friend to teach me about things. He tried, but I couldn't keep my concentration on what he was saying, random thoughts kept distracting me.
Sometime during this I remember the DMT trying to seduce me, to put me into a trance I think. I resisted. I'm not sure why but at this point things from my past came into my mind. "This is the serpent, the snake from the garden from adam and eve, and it is tempting me with knowledge." I asked my friend if he was good or evil, because he was the one that gave me the spice. This seduction also took the form of wild energy raging through my body. As I focused on it, I felt like I could control it, to harness the energy. It was a good feeling.
We wanted to check on my friend's girlfriend, for she had been absent this whole time. We went outside the room, and my other roommate down the hall opened his door and asked us to keep our voices down. I went up to him and said, "I can explain everything." I proceeded into his room, yelling, "I'm on DMT!" and jumped onto his bed, did a quick half circle, jumped back off, and left.
When I got back to the room, my friend said he was going to go check on his girlfriend, and left me to my self, saying that I could take another hit of the DMT, and just let it take me. I didn't. I sat there and thought about all that had happened so far, and sobered up. I was on his bed but decided to sit cross-legged on the floor. Eventually he and his girl came back and we talked about each of our experiences. A little while later I went to bed.
So that's pretty much what happened. Exact order of events might be wrong, as it all was a little bit blurry afterwards. One of the best things about it was the sense of oneness with the universe. Like I said, I didn't feel like I was in the room anymore, but just a point in a very very large space.
What I'd like to know about this experience is if the melting/dying part of the trip is usual, and also the same of the forgetting part.
There's also another thing that I'd like to mention about what happened afterwards. As I was trying to fall asleep, I experienced mini trips of melting again, but not dying. I think it happened a couple of times, maybe 2 or three. Also, after falling asleep the next night, waking up in the morning worried about oversleeping, only to see I woke up way before my alarm, and going back to sleep again, I dreamed. I dreamed of music and of a music stand. The music stand started waving around, and when it did, the melting happened again. This again happened the next night. As I was sleeping, and dreaming, I melted again, and woke up. I decided to meditate. I meditated a awhile, and started to dream again/see images, except I was awake. Is that a form of lucid dreaming? During this I melted again, except just in my feet. I tried to let it take me again, but nothing more happened. Has any of this happened to anyone else?
