DMT revealed that something isn't right..

[anonsurfer]

So I smoked DMT and it showed me something unsettling.

Let me start with saying that I have had these weird visions numerous times. It is a vision of a "man"with papers in his hands that comes from the right side of my head and "walks" in front of my face, there is another man the walks from the left sometimes too. This vision started for the first time about 2 years ago when I was on 2ce. This vision is accompanied by this extremely uneasy feeling of dread or something. It usually happens when I am in bed with my eyes closed, couple times coming down off of acid and couple times when I was really high on marijuana. I actually able to bring it up intentionally sometimes. It is impossible to describe how I can do it.

So I smoked DMT and as I was breaking through, I appeared in an empty dark void. The place you are right before you break through. I could see the window and inside the window was hyperspace. But before I could enter, the vision came on right in front of it, and instead something got my attention to the right of me in the void, almost seemed like something was trying to get me to look at it.

As I look over I remember seeing this "block" of energy. The block of energy was powerful. I felt like some sort of realization that there was something seriously wrong with me, like spiritually or something. It was just radiating this feeling of realizing that the flashback I have been having is something important and I need to realize it. I kept asking the question of what it was and I couldn't get an answer.

The rest of the trip and comedown I was left wondering how I could be happy and live my life normally now upon coming to this realization, even though I didn't know what it was still. As I fully came down I felt normal and happy again, but I still wonder what is going on with me.

Is it maybe a suppressed memory, flashback, or a vision of the future? What are your opinions? Should I be taking it seriously?

I apologize for my rambling, I am writing this in a hurry.

 

[Synkromystic]

We all have problems, MOST of us serious ones. We are humans after-all We think thoughts we shouldn't, have emotions that are destructive, attempt to destroy our planet for illusory things..... Kill animals, insects, plants. A lot of us are complicit in our support of torture. If one eats animals, generally they support torture and abuse whether they realize it or not. (due to factory farming which is so horrendous) I could go on and on, but the point is, we do have a lot wrong with us, and these impurities inside us cause us and our surroundings so much suffering.

Most of my smoked dmt experiences I don't take literally, but there is always something(s) to learn, especially when dealing with the unconscious parts of our-self. A lot of the lessons are very difficult to decipher, if even possible. But I found a very simple method that has helped me so much. Be kind, be grateful, be respectful to all life, stay determined, and make slow gradual progress to help end the suffering of oneself and others. Basically, cultivate Virtue and Compassion and everything falls into place.

 

[Chan]

Next time they show up, maybe ask them what they want?

 

[anonsurfer]

They say they just want a buddy.. Haha just kidding.

I have tried, I just don't know how to tell of the answer is a made up though or if it's an actual answer. I can't distinguish intuition from my thoughts.

 

[Chan]

Is it an 'acceptable' answer?

 

[stonedsam]

My friend had a similar experience. He had a bad trip on lsd and thought he was dying. He felt like he was in a hospital bed and felt like he had been in a coma for the last decade. Now he still has the feeling that he is dead or in a coma. He hears and notices certain things that he feels are his subconscious trying to get him to remember the accident that supposedly happened.

I am sure I am conscious. Maybe I am a conscious being created by his imagination, but I don't think so

I don't know if this helps, but if you don't believe that you are a part of his coma world, that would mean that these seemingly "true" experiences aren't necessarily true.

Otherwise I would try not to bother myself with it. If it really is something you are supposed to know, I think you will at some point.

Hope this all helps

 

[Metanoia]

I had something similar happen to me (a vision that persisted, no matter what substance was consumed) and it was repressed memories/emotions that I needed badly to resolve. So that would be my guess.

 

[syzygy]

Are you just smoking dmt without combining an maoi? I find that experiences are much harder to comprehend without a RIMA. Not that they are usually easy but many times you can have aya or rue explain these things to you while smoking dmt.

 

[el3ctr1c4l]

IMO the FIRST psychedelic experience drivers further the next ones, meaning that the rest of experiences are more likely to be a continuation from the first one, being a good one or a bad one, depending on a circumstances of the first one.

Not the best explanation but I guess you get the idea. So if your first time was hellish in its nature, the rest of them could be the same. Set and settings makes a hell of a difference, specially your state of mind in that particular time.

For example my first psychedelic trip was a heroic dose of shrooms which resulted in a combination of pure insanity with a sprinkle of happiness (90/10% ratio), so the rest of the DMT trips I've had were insane overall, so I blame the first trip of shrooms for that.