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DMT trip "worries" or "issues"

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papataq

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Hey all,
New to here and new to DMT (three months of use) and I'd appreciate any help I can get.

Some key information before I explain my concern:
*I've only used gram vape carts
*Never broken through completely
*My mindset/emotions are consistent then and now (I think)

I've been having relatively negative trips recently pretty consistently. The first hand-full of times were great and cathartic but coming into this last cart that I've picked up, things have gotten weird and not enjoyable at all. I don't want to give it up because it's helped me stop drinking alcohol and helped with the grieving of my friend that passed away.

Recently my trips have been very taunting and it truly feels like the trip is bullying me for reasons I don't understand. I'll take two big vape hits and I'll feel a decent amount of electricity somehow then something like a book on my table would vanish, be put back, then moved a couple feet away, a hand would wave from the top right corner of my vision but when I look it's gone, I look down and something is holding my hand while taunting me, a table would flat out look like a cartoonish thing with sharp teeth then move something else somewhere out of view then back in view, etc etc.

The best way to describe how I feel in the moment is like a kid in school getting randomly bullied by a group of older kids that were my friends a week ago.

I end up really frustrated because I went from enjoyable and enlightening trips to these last ones feeling like something's trying to undo everything.

Thanks to anybody reading this, I just really appreciate any advice because I do find this to be medicine for me.
 
My fairly inexperienced thought is, do you always do this with open eyes?
I've had 2 sorts of experiences, utter beauty, calm with all the love, and confused swirling dark slightly snake-like with hints of faces with teeth, I put this second experience down to not cleaning the glass pipe between uses. Though I have read that vaping can overheat the spice in a Vape and make for a bad trip.

But first off, if you haven't tried it get an eye mask to help keeping your eyes shut and pull the curtains to make the room darker, then lay back and watch. Ask why you are being shown what you see when in the experience.
 
it can be easier said than done, but try to keep your emotions in check. something that seems bad on the surface might not necessarily be bad, but because we perceive it that way it ends up becoming a bad experience.
crude example is a dog barking to some people is something to be afraid of, but to others it is something to be excited about.
with that in mind you can accept what has happened and be okay with it. the book doesn't really matter, it is just a book. the hands can be thought of as playful, same for the table moving. the sharp teeth don't necessarily mean scary, as with the dog example above, dogs have sharp teeth too, but they are usually very friendly.
obviously you won't have the same experience next time, but be prepared to be okay with whatever happens. you will not die or be hurt. nothing over there can hurt you, you are the powerful one, they rely on you to manifest, you hold the power and they know it, you just have to know it too. but really they are not evil, just sometimes playful in an annoying way :)
this is part of set and setting. it is one thing to prepare a good set and setting before going in, but you need to keep it while tripping too.

another thing to think about is maybe there is something you are supposed to be taking from this. integration is important in my opinion. maybe you are missing something. transistorbass makes a great suggestion too about asking why you are being shown these things.
the toughest lessons we learn in life are usually the ones that make us the strongest.

just remember, you are safe and the molecule loves you <3
 
It helps to integrate a meditative breath and soft gaze into the experience. Try staring at a tree or plant, and not analyzing or interpreting anything that comes up. Music and/or a quartz singing bowl helps a lot too, as does just letting your body move on its own. Equanimity comes with practice and relaxation
 
Close your eyes, my friend. There's something waiting for you.

This is a jestery and trickster kind of substance, and I don't say that in a new-agey or flippant way. My first intuition while reading what you stated in the OP was "close your eyes, that's probably what they want right now." At the same time, it's not all fun and games, and you may be seeing some other parts of its nature. As I'll keep saying, at some point it gets real. For some it takes a while or they stop before it ever happens, for others it gets real immediately, and then there's the spectrum in between. This can also be an aspect or indication of more personal and depth work for yourself personally. While fascinating, this substance does become work over time. The last thing I'll say is, this medicine seems to read you, so if you are in anyway trying to use it as an escape, it will gladly do it's damnedest to try and check you on that and "bully" you. You may want to research the hyperslap phenomenon.

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