Dog died

[pantostao]

Hello nexians,

I'm pretty sad, and I kinda need to post about this, even if this is definitely not on topic.

My dog died yesterday. He was diagnosed with leukemia around 15 days ago, and he slowly faded from this plane.

He was my best friend. A loyal partner, loving and affectionate. He was polite, smart and quiet. He was beautiful.

I had two dogs. The elder one died in January, due to a long illness. We all were devastated, but we were expecting it. She lived a whole good life, and died peacefully in the arms of my mother. She is missed, but when she passed I only thought that this was a good thing, that was the end of the road for her, and it had been a good road to walk in.

But in this case, I feel like I can't stand it. He was younger, healthy, bright. He was always walking besides me, at every step I've taken in the last 10 years. Two weeks ago we were enjoying life and the spring sun, and suddenly he's gone. I have lots of good friends and a good family, but I feel very lonely now. I don't know how to keep walking in the streets without him.

We buried him in one of his favourite places, in nature. We're planting a rosebush over his grave, and hope to see those roses in every spring.

I'm gonna miss him forever.

Go chase some birds in heaven, friend. I hope we can reunite again.

 

[bIRD_]

Hi pantostao,

sorry about your loss. Life often takes a different direction than the one we want it to move towards. I sincerely wish you the best to overcome your grief. Every downfall creates new opportunities, and i believe even this sad situation might open you new doors, no matter what they will look like. Please feel free to tell me if youre stuck in a loop. Maybe you could describe some special memories you had with your dog to me =)

Your dog is in a better place now. I wish you will be reunited with him in a glorious fashion.

 

[Transform]

Ah, how sad. Even though loss touches us all, it is never any easier when it is our turn, especially with something so sudden.

How fitting to place his mortal remains to rest as you have done - living flowers are a perfect way of showing the beauty and the ephemeral nature of life. While planting my newly-sprouted acacia seeds one will receive my dedications to your late pup, if that's OK with you.

 

[pantostao]

Thank you for your support

I'm not very optimistic right now about new opportunities. Honestly, I think I have a pretty good life, full of love and opportunities. But this felt like those opportunities don't mean much right now, they can be truncated at any moment. Plan for the future, but the future may not come.

I have lots of good memories with him. He used to love donkeys and horses. I never knew why, but he was amazed by donkeys, he could stay still while looking at them for hours on end. I live in a small town, so he was kinda free to come and go as he pleased. If we weren't able to find him for any reason, I would go to a place where there are some donkeys, and he would be there, standing, looking at them with awe in his face.

Thank you Transform for dedicating one of your acacia sprouts, I'd love that. I was also thinking about flowers representing both ephemeral, but eternal, cyclical life. He's now in all the birds, and the flowers, and the rains. He's dead, but he's all life now.

 

[The Traveler]

So sorry for your loss, the feeling of losing your companion that was always there for you and by your side is always heartbreaking.

With time the wounds will heal and the font memories will remain.


Kind regards,

The Traveler

 

[Nachooo1]

Sorry for your loss. !Lo siento mucho Pantostao, Mucho animo y a salir adelante!

 

[acacian]

Im sorry to hear of your loss @pantostao it sounds like you two were really close .. grief is a funny one. At the time it’s something you don’t think you’ll ever shed.. and I suppose it never really leaves you but becomes part of who you are and your understanding of life - and you learn to live with it.

That’s a lovely gesture indeed @Transform .. if I may add on that note that the acacia tree is a symbol of the immortality of the soul in some traditions. A very fitting plant in these circumstances.

 

[SkunK]

So sorry for your loss @pantostao it sounds like you two were very close. It's never easy losing such a close and loyal member of the family. I regard dogs higher than people for their loyalty and devotion to the ones they love.

It sounds like he had a wonderful partner through his life. Dogs leave some heavy footprints on our hearts and leave far too soon.

I've been through it a few times and I've got two senior doggos who are nearing the rainbow bridge ..

I love the memorial you did for your Doggo, something I'll keep in mind when the time comes for me.

My condolences to you and your family.

 

[_Trip_]

Sorry to hear @pantostao, to us they are a small part of our lives and to them we are their whole life. I'm sure your companion understood this and he knew it was a life well spent with you.

I nearly lost my mate of 9 years today after I found him choking on a piece of bone, he was making tonic clonic movements and foaming perfusely at the mouth. He was quite hypoxic and in serious respirstory distress. I managed to dislodge the bone but not retrieve it right before I got him to a Vet. He still has some potential complications ahead, including GI obstructions, potential aspiration/ respiratory infection issues as well as potential of something torn or left behind in his esophagus. I hope he will be fine moving forward, but it made me really appreciate him even more than I already do. I couldn't imagine losing him or the pain you must be feeling right now. My thoughts are with you.

 

[pantostao]

Thank you all for your support, seriously.

it never really leaves you but becomes part of who you are and your understanding of life - and you learn to live with it.

It is like this, indeed. Right now, I can't even think I'll learn to live with it, but I know I'll do when the time is right.

the acacia tree is a symbol of the immortality of the soul

I didn't expect that, but that's amazing, very very appropriate. I've kept thinking about @Transform offer, and I believe it's a beautiful gesture. I'd love to know that there is a tree in the other side of the world that's dedicated to his memory in some way, and in 20 years from now will keep growing bigger and stronger.

Dogs leave some heavy footprints on our hearts and leave far too soon.

Beautiful. I cried to that statement. I'll keep the memory alive.

And @_Trip_, I hope your mate is doing alright now. I hope he knows too that this is a life well spent with you.

 

[Voidmatrix]

Sending you so much love my friend.

Have you thought about maybe getting a commemorative tattoo in his memory?

One love

 

[pantostao]

I hadn't thought about a tattoo. I'm certainly thinking about it now. It would be my first.

edit: And thanks

 

[SkunK]

I've got quite a few paw prints with dates and names Tatted over my chest and heart,

A reminder for me daily when I wake up and do my morning routines; That while the time we spent together was far too short the left paw prints on my heart . It let's you carry a piece of their memory around with you and is a daily reminder of how they have blessed you

I'm surprised I never mentioned that @Voidmatrix. As that's duch a great memorial

While the pain of a recent loss is hard to cope with. Over time that will lesson, and you will find yourself reminiscing about all the special moments you have spent together. It takes time, but those moments will begin to shine through and ease the pain of the loss.

 

[Subtlevibrations]

It’s always difficult saying goodbye to our animal family members. I’m sure your pooch had the happiest of lives as your companion. Sending you some softness

 

[Voidmatrix]

I hadn't thought about a tattoo. I'm certainly thinking about it now. It would be my first.

edit: And thanks

Sounds like a good reason for a first! Please do share if you decide to go that route.

@SkunK I take it you have some yourself? If you have any psychedelic ones you should share em here. Whatchu Got?! DMT and psychedelic tattoo thread.

One love

 

[psychonuaghty]

I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. The rose bush will be a beautiful memorial.

 

[Nydex]

I'm so sorry for your loss...dogs are amazing, I can't imagine what it feels like to lose one that has been by your side for so long. Stay strong. Time will heal the wound and leave behind only good memories.

 

[Transform]

Thank you for your support

I'm not very optimistic right now about new opportunities. Honestly, I think I have a pretty good life, full of love and opportunities. But this felt like those opportunities don't mean much right now, they can be truncated at any moment. Plan for the future, but the future may not come.

I have lots of good memories with him. He used to love donkeys and horses. I never knew why, but he was amazed by donkeys, he could stay still while looking at them for hours on end. I live in a small town, so he was kinda free to come and go as he pleased. If we weren't able to find him for any reason, I would go to a place where there are some donkeys, and he would be there, standing, looking at them with awe in his face.

Thank you Transform for dedicating one of your acacia sprouts, I'd love that. I was also thinking about flowers representing both ephemeral, but eternal, cyclical life. He's now in all the birds, and the flowers, and the rains. He's dead, but he's all life now.

Love the donkey story - I find donkeys rather awesome myself, tbh.

It reminds me of a tale, either here or at the shroomery (ptuii!!) where someone borrowed a friend's donkey to graze their lawn as a method of introducing mushrooms to it (liberty caps, I think) - and it was successful! This leaves part me looking forward to your forthcoming tales of adventure with your newfound donkey chums

Meanwhile, I have (finally) managed to plant the acacia seedlings. The seventh one (of thirteen) was dedicated to you dearly departed pup, where I said a brief few words to an audience of plants and shed a couple of tears in the process. I'll endeavour to add a few photos around here somewhere, soon.

 

[pantostao]

Thank you very much @Transform
This is beautiful , I don't know what else to say.

I added a couple of photos to the original post so you can visualize him.

 

[Transform]

Thank you very much @Transform
This is beautiful , I don't know what else to say.

I added a couple of photos to the original post so you can visualize him.

This is great, it will add a special context to the plant once these details can be added - it would be nice to render his picture into an engraving form for a little plaque. What a gorgeous creature he was!

Edit: link to the pictorial here: Botany - The Acacia Grow Thread
[Obviously, it would be prudent to hold out for a wee while until the plant becomes established before getting too fancy with the labels. Meanwhile, he gets a special green stick with an antique copper nail at the top in contrast to the toothpicks for the others.]