zonedn2it
Rising Star
Newbie here researching...
Some very quick background: Starting right around my late teens (I'm now 34), when life really starting getting challenging, I starting having a mixture of terrible nightmares mixed with normal or positive oriented dreams, about 1 bad for 4 - 5 neutral or good... this was sporadic. The nightmares weren't usually too bad, but about 3 - 4 times a year at times, could be so terrifying, that at first as a grown man I would be afraid to move, breathe, get up, turn on the light, etc... for at least a half hour. (A few times I even called siblings at 3 or 4am just to help snap me out of it and mentally rejoin normal existence. The embarrassment was far less than the fear.) Eventually i grew fully accustomed to nightmares that would scare the shit out of anyone and literally would be like, "meh", and rollover and go back to sleep. Scounds crazy, but that's what it came to be. I could get stalked and murdered one second waking up with a semi-paralyzed grunt which should have been a scream, then be asleep a minute later pretty much unnerved. They only happened maybe 3 - 4 times a year... no apparent reasoning behind them... life's been pretty fair overall. My dreams have never made sense to me in the slightest.
K now to the present: I've practiced meditation for about 3 years now which has developed a near permanent condition of amazing and lasting inner peace (beyond lucky i know). Starting about 6 - 12 months ago, i started having lucid dreams... the kind where not only am i 100% aware that i am asleep in "real life" and am currently dreaming, but any time a dream turns remotely unpleasant, I can simipily choose to wake up, and immediately do so. During pleasant dreams I can consciously decide to keep dreaming.
For instance, last week I drempt I was shooting 3 pointers with my bros/dad and decided to keep shooting around because i hadnt in a while irl, until i got bored with it after about a half hour, and decided to wake up. Also, I recently drempt that i started to get in a fight with a sibling (literally never happens irl) and thought, "f this, im waking up" and did.
I'm wanting to see if I'll hear from others who experience this, and specifically how they feel it may or may not affect their consciousness expanding attempts through DMT. I've read that it is difficult to remember most of what the DMT experience is like afterwards... kindof like a dream, but my goal is to retain and record as much as possible, possibly during to some degree. I also have a concern (not a worry) that while I will try my best to accept whatever happens whether perceived as positive or negative during use, the control I have enjoyed while dreaming will go right out the window and that shock may interfere negatively.
Overall, no worries, and I cant wait to try, but ya any comments out there?
Some very quick background: Starting right around my late teens (I'm now 34), when life really starting getting challenging, I starting having a mixture of terrible nightmares mixed with normal or positive oriented dreams, about 1 bad for 4 - 5 neutral or good... this was sporadic. The nightmares weren't usually too bad, but about 3 - 4 times a year at times, could be so terrifying, that at first as a grown man I would be afraid to move, breathe, get up, turn on the light, etc... for at least a half hour. (A few times I even called siblings at 3 or 4am just to help snap me out of it and mentally rejoin normal existence. The embarrassment was far less than the fear.) Eventually i grew fully accustomed to nightmares that would scare the shit out of anyone and literally would be like, "meh", and rollover and go back to sleep. Scounds crazy, but that's what it came to be. I could get stalked and murdered one second waking up with a semi-paralyzed grunt which should have been a scream, then be asleep a minute later pretty much unnerved. They only happened maybe 3 - 4 times a year... no apparent reasoning behind them... life's been pretty fair overall. My dreams have never made sense to me in the slightest.
K now to the present: I've practiced meditation for about 3 years now which has developed a near permanent condition of amazing and lasting inner peace (beyond lucky i know). Starting about 6 - 12 months ago, i started having lucid dreams... the kind where not only am i 100% aware that i am asleep in "real life" and am currently dreaming, but any time a dream turns remotely unpleasant, I can simipily choose to wake up, and immediately do so. During pleasant dreams I can consciously decide to keep dreaming.
For instance, last week I drempt I was shooting 3 pointers with my bros/dad and decided to keep shooting around because i hadnt in a while irl, until i got bored with it after about a half hour, and decided to wake up. Also, I recently drempt that i started to get in a fight with a sibling (literally never happens irl) and thought, "f this, im waking up" and did.
I'm wanting to see if I'll hear from others who experience this, and specifically how they feel it may or may not affect their consciousness expanding attempts through DMT. I've read that it is difficult to remember most of what the DMT experience is like afterwards... kindof like a dream, but my goal is to retain and record as much as possible, possibly during to some degree. I also have a concern (not a worry) that while I will try my best to accept whatever happens whether perceived as positive or negative during use, the control I have enjoyed while dreaming will go right out the window and that shock may interfere negatively.
Overall, no worries, and I cant wait to try, but ya any comments out there?