Hello New member welcome to the nexus.

Is there anything you can say about yourself, life growing up, have you had any experience with any other psychedelics, if so which ones? And any experiences that you would like to share that you had.

There is no doubt that Spice is the best instrument on this planet, Yes you will find each journey to be different and amazing every time, as for the hesitation, this is normal, if you are not it the right mood or mind set, than it is definitely not a good time to smoke it. So i would say you did the right thing you really dont need to abuse spice i any way, i do not see it as a recreational drug at all, more therapeutic like you said, i have already read many cases were people who drank alcohol and smoked spice, they then felt no need to drink anymore.

I wish you luck on your next journey, don't be shy, look around the nexus you will find a lot of usefully information, and lots of documentation from experienced hyperspace travelers.

Any questions feel free to ask.

But good luck in your travels be safe