I had a bag which i estimated had ~70 mg of substance in it, so i eyeballed roughly half of it and took it as an oral dose, it was probably about 40mg.
I felt it kicking in in about 10 minutes, which was surprising to me. I had planned on waiting for the effects and then going outside for a walk, but it quickly became obvious to me that i could not. I lay down and it dawned on me that I'm about to have a really bad time.
The next 5 hours of laying on my bed are what i can only describe as hell. Every "constant" that i normally would hold on to during my trips was ripped away from me. I was alone, naked, laying in a sea of insanity begging for mercy. I found myself repeating "please help me god" for a good duration of the experience, and I'm not religious. What i was searching for was some kind of idea or what i call a "constant" that i could use as some sort of reference point to how deep i was in, but i couldn't find anything. For a while i could open my eyes and look around the room to make sure i was still there, but after some time this became impossible. Ego, time, memories, sanity, everything was up for grabs.
I saw the universe as a cycle of birth, death, happiness, and sadness. I felt being reborn probably a dozen times. I got the odd feeling that there were forces out there that were doing this to me, toying with me, plucking each string in my brain triggering either extreme fear or extreme happyness. Rational thought was out the window, i felt like i would spend an eternity in this chaotic hyper-dimensional universe.
After what seemed like an eternity i felt like i was coming down. I had no idea how long i lay there, but it could have been days. Was actually only a few hour. After a while i was able to stand up and go take a piss.
An incredibly humbling experience. I didn't gain much of anything besides the obvious "don't do that again". It's difficult for me to put this in the right context because i defiantly wasn't expecting what had occurred. I had taken ~15 mg doses before and i was fine. I didn't expect anything nearly as chaotic. Not sure what to make of anything right now.
I felt it kicking in in about 10 minutes, which was surprising to me. I had planned on waiting for the effects and then going outside for a walk, but it quickly became obvious to me that i could not. I lay down and it dawned on me that I'm about to have a really bad time.
The next 5 hours of laying on my bed are what i can only describe as hell. Every "constant" that i normally would hold on to during my trips was ripped away from me. I was alone, naked, laying in a sea of insanity begging for mercy. I found myself repeating "please help me god" for a good duration of the experience, and I'm not religious. What i was searching for was some kind of idea or what i call a "constant" that i could use as some sort of reference point to how deep i was in, but i couldn't find anything. For a while i could open my eyes and look around the room to make sure i was still there, but after some time this became impossible. Ego, time, memories, sanity, everything was up for grabs.
I saw the universe as a cycle of birth, death, happiness, and sadness. I felt being reborn probably a dozen times. I got the odd feeling that there were forces out there that were doing this to me, toying with me, plucking each string in my brain triggering either extreme fear or extreme happyness. Rational thought was out the window, i felt like i would spend an eternity in this chaotic hyper-dimensional universe.
After what seemed like an eternity i felt like i was coming down. I had no idea how long i lay there, but it could have been days. Was actually only a few hour. After a while i was able to stand up and go take a piss.
An incredibly humbling experience. I didn't gain much of anything besides the obvious "don't do that again". It's difficult for me to put this in the right context because i defiantly wasn't expecting what had occurred. I had taken ~15 mg doses before and i was fine. I didn't expect anything nearly as chaotic. Not sure what to make of anything right now.
