cranialcandy
Rising Star
I had my second experience yesterday, I thought the first one was intense, wow-o was I wrong.
Instead of seeing objects, such as entities, I was in a place of infinite vastness/blankness, just being. Being nothing, seeing nothing, hearing only the sounds that were flowing from my body, beyond my control. Later my trip buddy, who was waiting for me outside of the room, told me that I sounded like I was on a roller coaster, yelling and laughing when I caught a breath. He also said that I was sustaining tones with consistency over full breaths, he said it sounded alien. It wasn't until I was in the level of the "spaghetti" people that I felt more in my head space, not until I witnessed the very distorted room I was a human, not until I felt the bong in my hand that an outside chemical was involved.
Making sound was crucial to this trip, as it was for my first one. Once I began to reclaim a form of ego, I remember thinking keep making noise! After I had come back from the blank space, and was surrounded by entities I was confused but was able to regain enough power to sing with them, and boy it felt awesome.
The nothing space was eerie but felt natural at the same time. It was a space of complete equilibrium. My lesson from this trip has been the idea of achieving that balance every day. Of course this seems to be the general theme of psychs, but actually experiencing nothing, was an experience unlike any other.
Today I told a secret to a friend that I have been holding for years. It was difficult and I will need to work to achieve trust again, but a weight on my spirit has already been lifted, now I'm just worried that I've placed that weight on my friend. I know with patience our relationship is strong enough to re-build.
I want to clarify that I'm not thinking the spice has the power to instantly change me. But after that experience I feel as though a lot of things in my life need to be different for me to go healthily further into that mind space. It was a big step in the quest to live in balance, I am facing my demons and I thank the nexus and spice for aiding me in my journey.
Instead of seeing objects, such as entities, I was in a place of infinite vastness/blankness, just being. Being nothing, seeing nothing, hearing only the sounds that were flowing from my body, beyond my control. Later my trip buddy, who was waiting for me outside of the room, told me that I sounded like I was on a roller coaster, yelling and laughing when I caught a breath. He also said that I was sustaining tones with consistency over full breaths, he said it sounded alien. It wasn't until I was in the level of the "spaghetti" people that I felt more in my head space, not until I witnessed the very distorted room I was a human, not until I felt the bong in my hand that an outside chemical was involved.
Making sound was crucial to this trip, as it was for my first one. Once I began to reclaim a form of ego, I remember thinking keep making noise! After I had come back from the blank space, and was surrounded by entities I was confused but was able to regain enough power to sing with them, and boy it felt awesome.
The nothing space was eerie but felt natural at the same time. It was a space of complete equilibrium. My lesson from this trip has been the idea of achieving that balance every day. Of course this seems to be the general theme of psychs, but actually experiencing nothing, was an experience unlike any other.
Today I told a secret to a friend that I have been holding for years. It was difficult and I will need to work to achieve trust again, but a weight on my spirit has already been lifted, now I'm just worried that I've placed that weight on my friend. I know with patience our relationship is strong enough to re-build.
I want to clarify that I'm not thinking the spice has the power to instantly change me. But after that experience I feel as though a lot of things in my life need to be different for me to go healthily further into that mind space. It was a big step in the quest to live in balance, I am facing my demons and I thank the nexus and spice for aiding me in my journey.
