In some ways I agree, but aren't we also our own worst enemies? 

I do align however with being dismissive or skeptical of anything coming in that challenges the present view of myself. I've been learning that at some point after such has happened, usually in private, I try to verbally acknowledge said challenge to my self-conception and also say what I think about myself in some way, while calming my inner child, and giving back what's not mine to the source of many of my issues (as much as I tried to avoid being like my father, I became him to myself within myself). Really, it's parts work, but I'm just being outspoken about it which works in two-fold since I was also conditioned to have anxiety around speaking.

I think many people, in some instances, have some of the cues of ADHD, but may not have ADHD in a diagnosable way. It's an intricate constellation of symptoms and cues, while also being a "disorder" that exists on a spectrum. I think some people deal with ADHD while others may need to discipline their minds (I'm not saying that about you, I'm just reflecting). In my case, while undiagnosed, I am considering the possibility given the nature of my past experiences and difficulties. I always thought that I was dealing with my heightened sensitivity (sensory processing sensitivity) which has overlaps with autism and ADHD. 

Reminds me that I have some synthetic mescaline that I still need to try out. Maybe one of these Fridays in the coming weeks.

I'm happy to hear that the cactus and those you love served to help you refind your equilibrium.

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