tangerine14
Rising Star
My friends call me M so I guess I'll go by that on here. I visit the nexus often but just decided to start contributing and making more connection with the deems community. I'm in school awaiting my bachelors in anthropology, which I plan to use to further study psychoactive plants and ethnobotany in South America. It's a big leap but absolutely possible depending on my future ambition. Psychedelic plants don't consume my life and daily thoughts but have taught me to be free in ways I never would have discovered without them. I think states of consciousness achieved on entheogenic plants cannot be completely achieved by any other means. Not to say that other practices can't induce high states of mind, they absolutely can. But they don't take you to the unspeakable realms of the tryptamines. Since the 60's and the internet, since the entire world has learned about these psychedelic ideas, I believe its a new inspiring territory to study in the interest of all mankind, and we're living in that age of discovery right now. So here it is, these compounds obviously do amazing things to us, so how can we use it personally and globally, what does it mean for the future, and where else can it take us collectively? So that's my stance and why I wish to become a full nexus member. I've got a lot to say and a lot to read. Enough about me for now, and a little more on DMT.
It's authenticity comes to me because its nature approved use. I trust age old shamanism more than I do any religious institution or ideology. And by experience I to myself personally verify its profound realness. The first few times experiencing it were confusing, not a full breakthrough at first. I would be privileged to try it every now and then, and each time intrigued me more. I felt as if it cleansed my mind, like a debugging, but then there was the question "what the hell is this?!". It clearly wasn't like any psychedelic states I'd had before from psilcybin or LSD. (Psilocbyin for another discussion lol)
There were several times that I feel like I witnessed the wholly other side but was unable to comprehend of even bring back the memory of after I was back. As time passed and more deems was smoked I began to have reallllly bizarre rides that I began to remember. It's as if it had to filter into me before I could begin to take little by little more of it in. Finally when the big daddy come on me I thought "I've done it this time, I've really put myself somewhere that I'll never come out of, schizophrenic and confused for the rest of my life. But what I ended up experiencing was truly felt like death. I knew nothing but I was everything, I had broken everything and saw the full circuitry of my life and universe which I was. And in this place I end up being thrown to are the beings that I'm sure a lot of you know about (another reason why the nexus is beautiful and useful, because we have some very strange and life changing experiences and I feel like if we didn't share them it could cause confusion and self questioning in ourselves, this stuff is personal, yes, but collective). To know others have my general same experiences assures me that its real.
Trying not to make this too long but one more aspect of deems, these others that await. I've smoked one large hit before, held in until gone, and didn't fully merge to the other side (which I felt was there and what these little others assured me was there also), and watched countless tiny, cheerful, bubbly, jolly, colorful characters flying around in space, like a swarm of a hundred birds. However, I felt as if none of them acknowledged my presence. I had had other experiences with full encounters and communication with these gods (or whatever), very powerful intelligent things prior. So this time I kind of selfishly thought "Well I'm here goddammit, show me something". I instantly felt the selfishness of feeling that way, I knew that whatever was given to me should be cherished and not questioned. But instead of the DMT reacting negatively, a smiling gumdrop shaped tyke flew up before my eyes, as if he were on a little hyperspace motorcylce, I could hear him buzz by, while he just smiled and waved. Meanwhile shapes and designs are just going nuts and morphing around me. I've seen really archaic faces and images that weave in and orbit each other. So hard to describe.
So basically after having this handful of really unique experiences, I decided to be an advocate of this ancient sacred wisdom, discretely and respectfully. DMT is something else people!!
It's authenticity comes to me because its nature approved use. I trust age old shamanism more than I do any religious institution or ideology. And by experience I to myself personally verify its profound realness. The first few times experiencing it were confusing, not a full breakthrough at first. I would be privileged to try it every now and then, and each time intrigued me more. I felt as if it cleansed my mind, like a debugging, but then there was the question "what the hell is this?!". It clearly wasn't like any psychedelic states I'd had before from psilcybin or LSD. (Psilocbyin for another discussion lol)
There were several times that I feel like I witnessed the wholly other side but was unable to comprehend of even bring back the memory of after I was back. As time passed and more deems was smoked I began to have reallllly bizarre rides that I began to remember. It's as if it had to filter into me before I could begin to take little by little more of it in. Finally when the big daddy come on me I thought "I've done it this time, I've really put myself somewhere that I'll never come out of, schizophrenic and confused for the rest of my life. But what I ended up experiencing was truly felt like death. I knew nothing but I was everything, I had broken everything and saw the full circuitry of my life and universe which I was. And in this place I end up being thrown to are the beings that I'm sure a lot of you know about (another reason why the nexus is beautiful and useful, because we have some very strange and life changing experiences and I feel like if we didn't share them it could cause confusion and self questioning in ourselves, this stuff is personal, yes, but collective). To know others have my general same experiences assures me that its real.
Trying not to make this too long but one more aspect of deems, these others that await. I've smoked one large hit before, held in until gone, and didn't fully merge to the other side (which I felt was there and what these little others assured me was there also), and watched countless tiny, cheerful, bubbly, jolly, colorful characters flying around in space, like a swarm of a hundred birds. However, I felt as if none of them acknowledged my presence. I had had other experiences with full encounters and communication with these gods (or whatever), very powerful intelligent things prior. So this time I kind of selfishly thought "Well I'm here goddammit, show me something". I instantly felt the selfishness of feeling that way, I knew that whatever was given to me should be cherished and not questioned. But instead of the DMT reacting negatively, a smiling gumdrop shaped tyke flew up before my eyes, as if he were on a little hyperspace motorcylce, I could hear him buzz by, while he just smiled and waved. Meanwhile shapes and designs are just going nuts and morphing around me. I've seen really archaic faces and images that weave in and orbit each other. So hard to describe.
So basically after having this handful of really unique experiences, I decided to be an advocate of this ancient sacred wisdom, discretely and respectfully. DMT is something else people!!
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