Good call on posting some Alan watts.
All of our subjective existences and perceptions formulate the objective existence/over soul. but an objective state cannot be aware of it's self if it has no "other" or state of separation to compare with. this doesn't mean it's already the end credits but rather a free for all of potentiality influenced by inevabilities and probabilities. Checkpoints of refinement and cascading thresholds of perceptual awareness. In truth much of it is inneffable as words and language are dualistic in their very nature.
A good cure for any " existentialist anxiety" is remembering the compassionate side of existing. We all live and learn within companionship , social interaction , on biological and metaphysical levels. It's through out inseparable interaction with the "external" that we begin to grasp the layers of the internal and it's intrinsic relation to the outer. Microcosm -macrocosm etc
To exist within a vibrational state or density is to acknowledge ever denser states and ever increasing frequencies of light. (less dense) We're continually surfing the flux and space between the inbetween. expanding upon what we have learnt.
In short, the rationalists within us can only perceive as far as we can order and verbalize our thoughts ,but there are layers of intuituve understsnding and unbound awareness far beyond what we can currently communicate with words,pictures, formulas etc
I have gradually come to realize that more peace can be found in accepting and embracing the mystery as apposed to trying to nail down the precise blueprint of it. Remember that rationality is an entirely irrational concept to begin with.
And if that isn't enough , what better way to spend your time of existence than helping "others" realize the true depth and scope of their own existence. You either see them as bots , or untapped memories,emotions and experiences of your /our
collectively higher self.
Important for us to not let the obsessive ,logic-dependent rationalist suck the experimentalist side of existence.beyond the shapeshifting paradox , lays higher ground and uncharted fertility of potentiality. Some rules/laws are set in place but many are yet to be identified let alond utilized.
Helping others will always be the humblest way to honour the realization we're all reflections of each other.