Fear of the unknown vistas of psychedelics.

[Tsuchinoko]

I think I fear the potential fear more than anything. I want to see beauty through substances like a DMT, LSD and Shrooms. I actually have done DMT, in non-breakthrough doses (my first psychedelic ever) and it was immensely beatiful and brought me to tears. Now I fear that whole hyperspace aspect... my chirping doubts say "what if you go insane from a cataclysmic, universal gangbang."

But for all my enthusiasm, there is this pronounced feeling I can only compare to how I imagine first-time bungee jumpers feel.


I want to leap into the unknown, but a part of me wants to avoid fear and discomfort even though I full well know that comes with the territory.

I guess that says something about my personality... seek pleasure, avoid discomfort.

I only want to do these substances to gain insight into myself and life, much of which I am sure is dark and shadowy. For all the light, there is darkness also...

I am predisposed to anxiety, but if I can perhaps maintain mindfulness in the midst of these crazy expetiences, perhaps I will be able to compose my psyche. It has been working in sober reality...


I want to be a fear devourer. Transmute fear into wisdom and understanding, and to bring that into the world.

 

[obliguhl]

Now I fear that whole hyperspace aspect..

Keep smoking smaller doses, or even don'T smoke at all. Hyperspace visits are not a requirement to be a decent human.

I want to leap into the unknown, but a part of me wants to avoid fear and discomfort even though I full well know that comes with the territory.

That, noone can help you with. Fear is part of the experience, if it wouldn't be for you, you'd quickly know what fear really feels like.

People on here might be able to support you emotionaly afterwards, but coaching someone into taking larger and larger doses is probably pretty foolish. It is a personal decision and nothing is a "must".

 

[Parshvik Chintan]

well, i will say that a low dose tends to relieve some of the pre-flight anxiety, so if you want, you can try a small dose while you have a large dose measured and at the ready should you decide to go ahead with it.

best of luck in your travels :thumb_up:

 

[۩]

Fear eats the soul.
Souba souba.

 

[hug46]

well, i will say that a low dose tends to relieve some of the pre-flight anxiety

I agree. And the longer i leave a trip the more nervous i get (even when i had a wonderful time the trip before). Fear is a double edged sword where you can be crippled by it , but also use it for survival and personal insight. If i can"t overcome a fear i will try and make friends with it. (but it don"t always work!)

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Try practicing meditation such as simple breathwork, for about 20 minutes or so. Close your eyes with no external distractions, breathe in deep, breathe out, focus on the stream of your consciousness, like passivly watching the clouds. After awhile you will start to become really relaxed, very lite in feeling, thoughts will be few n' far between due to you focusing on your breath. After you 'feel' this immense relaxation, open your eyes and light the pipe like there's no tommorow.


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