AwesomeUsername
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As you might have guessed it, at one point in my life I was abusing psychedelics. I'm not really sure why either... Maybe for the fact that I had them on me all the time, or trying to just speed up the process of getting what I'm trying to reach? I don't know...
The definite thing I noticed is that after that period I feel quite different, almost schizophrenic... Is this neuro plasticity? I expected to stop feeling confused, sad and anxious but now I'm just confused and a lot.
A friend of mine who has had this period along-side with me feels the same. The rare occasions where he does go out he refuses a single hit of a joint just because he claimed his reality is already "drugged out" and that is exactly how I would describe it to.
I'm not sure if this feeling will fade over time, but it definitely isn't pleasant, feels very much as if I'm stuck tripping all the time but only just a little. I wouldn't mind feeling this way a day after a trip, but this just doesn't stop.
I can never be sure if I'll return to normal, after having all this insights and for the very fact that my view of "normal" switched drastically. The typical normal I see everywhere actually seems fucked up, bizarre and unnecessary and what's the strangest of everything is that very few see it too. Most are oblivious to it, if not they adapt anyway...
Is this a blessing or a curse? I really can't tell. I'm not even sad, or angry or anything similar to that just very confused about life.
The definite thing I noticed is that after that period I feel quite different, almost schizophrenic... Is this neuro plasticity? I expected to stop feeling confused, sad and anxious but now I'm just confused and a lot.
A friend of mine who has had this period along-side with me feels the same. The rare occasions where he does go out he refuses a single hit of a joint just because he claimed his reality is already "drugged out" and that is exactly how I would describe it to.
I'm not sure if this feeling will fade over time, but it definitely isn't pleasant, feels very much as if I'm stuck tripping all the time but only just a little. I wouldn't mind feeling this way a day after a trip, but this just doesn't stop.
I can never be sure if I'll return to normal, after having all this insights and for the very fact that my view of "normal" switched drastically. The typical normal I see everywhere actually seems fucked up, bizarre and unnecessary and what's the strangest of everything is that very few see it too. Most are oblivious to it, if not they adapt anyway...
Is this a blessing or a curse? I really can't tell. I'm not even sad, or angry or anything similar to that just very confused about life.