Tonight has been the most important time I've had with the deems.

     I have just experienced the most beautiful, amazing, euphoric part of my life to date. Ever since I woke up this morning I had an urge to breakthrough. The only thing was that I was to nervous, to scared, to even give it a try. Through out the day I would pack small bowls and smoke them slowly being very very careful on how much I put in. Personally I never thought that a dmt trip could be so euphoric. Near the end of the day I was tired and emotionally down, my best friend wasn't answering his phone and I basically stayed home all day. I was tired of being scared and tired of the small doses. The fear of breaking through was so intense that I shook every time I hit the bowls. I knew that I had to over come this. When I finally made it to beds I watched a south park episode, putting the smoking off until later. When I went for it I had all the lights off and I only packed a little more than I usually do. This did not provide anything spectacular and I was only slightly buzzed. Something really strange that I never experienced before was the feeling of not knowing if I was tripping or not this was such a strong feeling that I decided that I wasn't going to be such a pussy any more and go for it.

     I packed the bowl with more than I've ever packed before. I was nervous and had to really concentrate on relaxing. I brought the dmt to a boil, the smoke started rolling and twisting inside my little dmt light bulb. As it grew thicker I inhaled fast and it cleared. The smoke didnt even fill the bulb any more it went strait into the tube. I cannot recall how many hits I took but I know that it was hitting me harder than it ever has before after the first hit. To my supprise I did not have the "OH SHIT" feeling. Even when it was first coming on it was welcoming me I could feel it. The feeling was so warm. The hallucinations that I saw engulfed the entire room. I don't really remember what happend. But I do remember the feeling of total euphoria. One of the coolest things about the trip was all the different entities that I came in contact with. I saw people, aliens, animals, and uknown creatures. These creatures and beings were so welcoming and happy I was smiling the whole way through. I really wish that the trip wasn't so fast paced and full of confusion. I just want to be able to have an experience centered around one entity or one scene or one anything. I want to be able to have some kind of enlightenment from a trip but I am content with what I received. The most funny thing about this trip is when I was smoking my lighter died. I don't believe that this was an accident I think the spirit of dmt planned this. The trip was not too intense and wasn't too weak It was perfect.

I just want to say thank you to everybody at dmt nexus. I love this forum. I love every last bit of it. Thank you so very much

Darkbb.

PS. how many people here really enjoy the picture section of this website?