Finally

[Ivebeenused131]

Hello everyone, my name is Keith. I've been on the forum before merely as a spectator. Just as I had spectated the "world" of DMT from those who have done it. I found out about DMT when I had been on Netflix one night and found DMT: The Spirit Molecule. I was instantly drawn. Knowing that this may very well be what I have been looking for my whole life.

Unfortunately I found out about it a few months before I was to leave for Navy basic training. After about a month into training I was separated because of a shoulder injury. It was a blessing in disguise. I never believed in fate until I got home and realized truly that the military really probably wasn't for me, and although I must go through the trouble of being in pain and trying to recover I would prefer to do it on my own time rather than on the gov/mil time. I now have a new appreciation for the life that I have than I would have otherwise obtained just by living the way I had(not that I didn't have an appreciation before or anything).

Well I decided to join the site because I'm no longer a spectator. SWIM's friend who had talked with him about it before he left decided it was time he tried it. He extracted it and last week we smoked it with another friend of ours. I'm very intrigued and eager to try it again even though I had sort of a mixed trip. I didn't "breakthrough" the whole way, but I had several breakthroughs indirectly. I even encountered three different kinds of beings. All of which I feel had specific purposes to my experience.

Thank you for reading and I hope to talk and share with many of you.

 

[Michal_R]

Hello "Ivebeenused131",

and welcome to the DMT-Nexus forum!

A question: why do you think you have a "mixed feelings" about your DMT-trip? I am asking because I have a feeling that lots of people think that DMT is, or must be, "fun"... However, I personally believe that DMT offers much deeper experience, than mere "fun"... or experience beyond "fun"...

(I personally always have "mixed" feelings about my DMT experience... )

I hope your health will get better soon - not to force you back into the army service again, but I wish you could enjoy your life fully again....

 

[endlessness]

Welcome to the Nexus!

Im glad the injury served for something good Im not sure how long I would have lasted with someone shouting at me and giving me orders in the army, lol

Im wondering, what smoking method are you guys using? Also, are you also interested in oral DMT / ayahuasca?

Be sure to check the health and safety section and the FAQ if you haven't yet, there's tons of good info there.

 

[Guyomech]

That's kind of interesting... The mindset necessary for the military lifestyle is so polar opposite from the mindset that psychedelic use will engender. Really two different worlds. And if you believe in fate, you may have just been rescued from a lifestyle that would have been wildly inappropriate for you.

And it's true, just about every DMT experience will leave you with a variety of feelings to process. It's a heavy experience, and although some parts can be amazingly enjoyable there can be other aspects that are quite challenging, and can leave you with questions. It's all part of the package when you begin exploring yourself at that kind of deep level.

Anyway... Heal well, and welcome to the Nexus!

 

[Ivebeenused131]

Thanks everyone :] I really appreciate the "so you can fully enjoy life again", I'm really looking forward to doing so.

I said I had a mixed trip because it was very intense, and I feel that I may have had a bit of a bad trip. Since I've done it I think the 'bad' part of it served for something more complex than just the panicked frightened feeling that I had gotten at one point.
I didn't ever have the intentions of having "fun" while under the influence of DMT. I have been a thinker/intellectual my whole life, and DMT was the first substantial thing that offered a possible explanation to things higher than man.

I figured I could do the military even though I knew I was quite opposite of most people who go into the military. I'm glad I did it though, I still am regretful for not being able to finish and serve, but I'm moving on. The military is an entirely different world, kind of like DMT, but let's be honest. Everything is a joke almost after DMT :b

 

[Guyomech]

You got that right brotha!

As for that panicked feeling: very normal. Some get it even before vaping. It's a part of the experience- think of it as a gateway to hyperspace. Learning to let go and surrender is a necessary part of getting the most put of the experience.