Hello "Ivebeenused131",

and welcome to the DMT-Nexus forum!

A question: why do you think you have a "mixed feelings" about your DMT-trip? I am asking because I have a feeling that lots of people think that DMT is, or must be, "fun"... However, I personally believe that DMT offers much deeper experience, than mere "fun"... or experience beyond "fun"...

(I personally always have "mixed" feelings about my DMT experience...  )

I hope your health will get better soon - not to force you back into the army service again, but I wish you could enjoy your life fully again....