That's kind of interesting... The mindset necessary for the military lifestyle is so polar opposite from the mindset that psychedelic use will engender. Really two different worlds. And if you believe in fate, you may have just been rescued from a lifestyle that would have been wildly inappropriate for you.

And it's true, just about every DMT experience will leave you with a variety of feelings to process. It's a heavy experience, and although some parts can be amazingly enjoyable there can be other aspects that are quite challenging, and can leave you with questions. It's all part of the package when you begin exploring yourself at that kind of deep level.

Anyway... Heal well, and welcome to the Nexus!