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First attempt with this genie

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DMT Psychonaut

DMT Psychonaut

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I was so close! I sat there, with my new gvg. Lighting it with a normal lighter. First attempt I inhaled a decent amount not even noticing. I was watching the chamber to see if I could see it vape up. Before I even realized it the whole tube was clouded. I held in for around 15 seconds. Next hit. Still uncertain about how much was inhaled as I wasn't noticing the pipe fill. Then finally the third hit. Things were moving, my mind filled with colors and racing thoughts. Tool's Lateralus was the only sounds I heard. Then I coughed and expelled the smoke too soon. I felt great though and without any warning I started to vomit. I didn't feel sick, but I think this may have beena mental reaction to almost breaking through. I feel I have a strong ego that is resisting this kind of release from reality. It is the kind that fears death. The kind that fears the unknown. I want it so bad but a part of me still fights that feeling! Soon it won't have a choice.
 
Don't be afraid to take baby steps. Get used to the [hyper]space. Spend some time getting to know what you're working with, "learn to swim" first and then you'll find that jumping off the high dive won't be as scary


[edit]: the nexus automatically capitalized s-w-i-m above, but I think it's obvious what I meant 😉
 
Well I am certainly not afraid of taking baby steps, just that big leap gets me. I'm just impatient to see the beauty I suppose.
 
DMT Psychonaut said:
Well I am certainly not afraid of taking baby steps, just that big leap gets me. I'm just impatient to see the beauty I suppose.
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I guess the beauty can turn into uglyness, if you don't give yourself the time you need.
Be patient. You got all the time in the world to get there. No hurry...

Peace
 
I used to have a strong ego too but through the use of psychedelics I've become a much more peaceful, open person.
Glad to see someone else on a similar road.
Create your own reality my friend, find yourself :)
 
I was listening to Lateralus today too while I was smoking Spice. Just keep hittin the pipe my friend, you'll break through. It's all about letting go of your fear. This morning was my first breakthrough. Another good song to listen to is Jambi and Thomas by A Perfect Circle. Very spiritual songs. TOOL + Spice = awesome
 
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