(First day)
Set: Hold the substance a week earlier in my hands then expected.
Planned circumstances for next week were no more important and
I was too excited in a bad way because of the lack of preparation
but also happy to have again a sympthatic, healing substance.
My stomach was hurting, my body was hot and I didn't felt fearful
but just to overwhelmed by all the excitement. I'm used to this.
What was helpful and is unusual for me is that I ate two steaks
as breakfast which gave me enough power for the trip.
Setting: At home in my room, my cat at the end of my bed. She decided
to stay there and kept sleeping. Nobody would disctract me for several
hours.
Dosage:4mg, 8mg, 4mg, 4mg, 4mg, 4mg, 8mg, 8mg with an intervall
of 10-20 minutes. It is important to know that one hit is never the full
dose.
A dose of 4mg was really easy to inhale and to enjoy but
low. To add 4mg pushes the high into the moderate zone,
is more difficult to handle and is next to 4mg only
more psychedelic in terms of ego solution, mindtrip.
The line between average and strong is difficult tocom
draw and for me depends on how long the smoke is kept
inside + how much is actually uptaken from the amount.
If already on the trip with noticable effects 8mg can
be considered strong, pushing the body load, the prickling
feeling combined with extreme sense of touch of the psychedelic
experience affordlessly into egoloss.
From there many options open up to choose from where the trip
should be going. Also to leave it how it is, is possible of course
so the session can smoothly fade out.
The most exciting was how the trip got stronger but without
more side effects. The view was so hallucinogenic including
sharp visual distortions, fading of objects (this is what
helps me to difference between peak and comedown), a compression
of reality and somehow the mind was visually expanding literally
showing how new synapses connected. Inside and outside did get
wired together. Indeed the reality compression was super
impressive. Hard to say if there were colours, there were but
instead of being saturated they looked like if you stand up to
fast and your visual field distorts. To describe it best
reality was tweaked to the point where 100x more gets processed
by the mind.
Some words about synesthesia what is on my top of the ocurrring
mind altering changes. It is such a valueable way to impare
perception far beyond tasting colours and seeing emotions.
Well, "far beyond" might be wrong, synesthesia as combined senses
offers a whole field of unknown sensations to explore where tasting
colours is a none the less pretty exciting starting point. Of
course really subjective too, as we enter into a topic each
individual can feel different, interprete different and
discribe the feeling different. Instead of having a feeling/sense of
wrong or right this dualistic opposite view disappears and even more,
it opens the opportunity to discover seemingly endless combinations
and additions of senses.
Imagine a colour you never saw before. My try to describe some is to think of
colours which are changing colour from the point of view like oil or change the
presence of colours for example changing the shape and imagine a colour
like a relief. Art is none of my best talents so a real artist may be
more innovative.
In my opinion the next step would be a new emotion. There are no suggestions
I discovered for now.
This are thoughts building on the fundament of synesthesia in my
opinion or will be influenced by it in a positive, creative manner.
5-Meo-DMT sharpens the senses with intensity never felt before. This
plus the extremely stimulating visuals just let's a drug be outstanding
and without knowing tryptamines, be incomparable.
After all the repetitions the day reached a point were it was
good to stop. The comedown took about 40min and the influence of
the drug got weaker proportionally. 3 hours from the first dose
I took a walk outside along a river into the city. During the way
back I bought a lemonade and at home again a packaging olives were less
in the bag while this report was made.
(This should be tuesday)
From 0.5g there are 75mg left. The amount was divided into 8
equally parts to avoid the same mistake like last time. The first
day 75mg were smoked, the second day double the amount and the
third day triple the amount.
The first day (friday, see "First day") was the best with including effects like flat reality, highly
intensed sharp touching (breathing, overall bodyload, looking around).
The smoothest breakthrough and my favourite start with prickling
increasing feelings of objects. Aluminium foil just splitteres into tiny
pieces resulting in a feeling with every edge noticing. Like billions of
small particles. Everything gets ultrafast and ten minutes are
stretching alot. The visual field is like cut and there instead of
looking around it is more like beaming with the eyes to different
places and surroundings. Sometimes I'm so excited and I try to get out
as fast as possible. Walking is so funny at the start but all the
trippy stuff is obviously short lived. Expensive cars look totally
futuristic and I like seeing their shiny carosserie driving next to me.
This first day was the best and the most important part is I ate and
drink enough before. Because after the first day my stomach starts to
hurt and it was really difficult to find the right moment to eat.
The second day was cool too, like every session, and the day was
started with Mozarella. My stomach just craved for food. After
8 ratios of 4mg I took one 8mg to push beyond known experiences
into lovely hardcore mindblowing world and end up figuring out
this is little bit too much. To be exactly it is too much for my
body, making it rough for my mind inside my body and it was average
over strong. Still, the hallucinations are so crazy while the world
is dissolving but my stomach started to empty itself and my mind started to
talking:" Why again? "Purge" "This is so awful and really unsatisfying."
Voices and/or myself:" We are sorry. Sorry, sorry sorry. It is okey."
This status quo was already learned, nothing new. Really
important for me is to stay calm or even more important to know it
will be over soon. Doesn't matter 10 or 20 minutes but it will be
over. Only one reaction happening all over again. This is what dead
feels like. End of life, feeling really bad, taste and smells bad.
Really mystical if there is violet, green and blue. No start
or end of death, just existing death taking the body, letting it suffer
and waiting for life taking the body back. Even less dark then this
description but more powerful.
There are so many mg left, which were gone smoking that day. The
breakthrough signs started to shift. Instead of sharp sensations
the whole visual field started to look like a bubble. Instead of fast,
big describes it better. There appeared the same colour green, blue, red
forming some optics like strings clueing together and separating slowly.
On the other hand the breakthrough did get on another level. The first
person "mechanic" disappeared and controlling of breathing, swallowing,
heart beat, orientation were controlled from the outside. It was dark
and difficult to handle. An extreme dose on the edge of what the body
can endure. There is no static reality, well there is, but every
static thing is somehow existing next to empty space which can be
filled up and is not static at all. In this empty space there are
colours, moving pulses, there is a part of yourself being what is
controlling you or letting you be aware of what you are doing in
a multidimensional way. It is the closest to the dynamics behind
of consciousness to describe it spaced up. To be aware of one owns
body and the mind was really important to feel safe and not lost and
of course to observe this way to crazy transformation of reality and
fusion of consciousness with the own mind. Scary is a completely wrong
word, this is to encounter psychedelic space.
So far all this happened the second day.
The third day, sunday, was just about lowering each dose to 4mg and next day to 2mg. My body was too hungry and
to weak to go through more. My mind and my psyche and will too.
4mg for ideal trip. What was figuered out best to avoid overdose
Keep the DMT in the body and try to remember to breath regularly is written down because I
measured counting four numbers with the result there were thought in about half a second.
The math behind is counting to twenty in second is just a quarter of that.
Burning the 5-Meo-DMT completely is important. Instead of vaporating with too low temperature.
This is important for the RoA on foil because smoke hits harder. But at this point there might be
tolerance build up. Four days consuming in a row are reasonable. The effect did get less and
my body started to weaken. This is a good moment to give my body what he calls for, enough healthy
food and relaxation to integrate.
This report was difficult to shape into a readable form for everybody. But to write it down is a lot of fun for me.
Set: Hold the substance a week earlier in my hands then expected.
Planned circumstances for next week were no more important and
I was too excited in a bad way because of the lack of preparation
but also happy to have again a sympthatic, healing substance.
My stomach was hurting, my body was hot and I didn't felt fearful
but just to overwhelmed by all the excitement. I'm used to this.
What was helpful and is unusual for me is that I ate two steaks
as breakfast which gave me enough power for the trip.
Setting: At home in my room, my cat at the end of my bed. She decided
to stay there and kept sleeping. Nobody would disctract me for several
hours.
Dosage:4mg, 8mg, 4mg, 4mg, 4mg, 4mg, 8mg, 8mg with an intervall
of 10-20 minutes. It is important to know that one hit is never the full
dose.
A dose of 4mg was really easy to inhale and to enjoy but
low. To add 4mg pushes the high into the moderate zone,
is more difficult to handle and is next to 4mg only
more psychedelic in terms of ego solution, mindtrip.
The line between average and strong is difficult tocom
draw and for me depends on how long the smoke is kept
inside + how much is actually uptaken from the amount.
If already on the trip with noticable effects 8mg can
be considered strong, pushing the body load, the prickling
feeling combined with extreme sense of touch of the psychedelic
experience affordlessly into egoloss.
From there many options open up to choose from where the trip
should be going. Also to leave it how it is, is possible of course
so the session can smoothly fade out.
The most exciting was how the trip got stronger but without
more side effects. The view was so hallucinogenic including
sharp visual distortions, fading of objects (this is what
helps me to difference between peak and comedown), a compression
of reality and somehow the mind was visually expanding literally
showing how new synapses connected. Inside and outside did get
wired together. Indeed the reality compression was super
impressive. Hard to say if there were colours, there were but
instead of being saturated they looked like if you stand up to
fast and your visual field distorts. To describe it best
reality was tweaked to the point where 100x more gets processed
by the mind.
Some words about synesthesia what is on my top of the ocurrring
mind altering changes. It is such a valueable way to impare
perception far beyond tasting colours and seeing emotions.
Well, "far beyond" might be wrong, synesthesia as combined senses
offers a whole field of unknown sensations to explore where tasting
colours is a none the less pretty exciting starting point. Of
course really subjective too, as we enter into a topic each
individual can feel different, interprete different and
discribe the feeling different. Instead of having a feeling/sense of
wrong or right this dualistic opposite view disappears and even more,
it opens the opportunity to discover seemingly endless combinations
and additions of senses.
Imagine a colour you never saw before. My try to describe some is to think of
colours which are changing colour from the point of view like oil or change the
presence of colours for example changing the shape and imagine a colour
like a relief. Art is none of my best talents so a real artist may be
more innovative.
In my opinion the next step would be a new emotion. There are no suggestions
I discovered for now.
This are thoughts building on the fundament of synesthesia in my
opinion or will be influenced by it in a positive, creative manner.
5-Meo-DMT sharpens the senses with intensity never felt before. This
plus the extremely stimulating visuals just let's a drug be outstanding
and without knowing tryptamines, be incomparable.
After all the repetitions the day reached a point were it was
good to stop. The comedown took about 40min and the influence of
the drug got weaker proportionally. 3 hours from the first dose
I took a walk outside along a river into the city. During the way
back I bought a lemonade and at home again a packaging olives were less
in the bag while this report was made.
(This should be tuesday)
From 0.5g there are 75mg left. The amount was divided into 8
equally parts to avoid the same mistake like last time. The first
day 75mg were smoked, the second day double the amount and the
third day triple the amount.
The first day (friday, see "First day") was the best with including effects like flat reality, highly
intensed sharp touching (breathing, overall bodyload, looking around).
The smoothest breakthrough and my favourite start with prickling
increasing feelings of objects. Aluminium foil just splitteres into tiny
pieces resulting in a feeling with every edge noticing. Like billions of
small particles. Everything gets ultrafast and ten minutes are
stretching alot. The visual field is like cut and there instead of
looking around it is more like beaming with the eyes to different
places and surroundings. Sometimes I'm so excited and I try to get out
as fast as possible. Walking is so funny at the start but all the
trippy stuff is obviously short lived. Expensive cars look totally
futuristic and I like seeing their shiny carosserie driving next to me.
This first day was the best and the most important part is I ate and
drink enough before. Because after the first day my stomach starts to
hurt and it was really difficult to find the right moment to eat.
The second day was cool too, like every session, and the day was
started with Mozarella. My stomach just craved for food. After
8 ratios of 4mg I took one 8mg to push beyond known experiences
into lovely hardcore mindblowing world and end up figuring out
this is little bit too much. To be exactly it is too much for my
body, making it rough for my mind inside my body and it was average
over strong. Still, the hallucinations are so crazy while the world
is dissolving but my stomach started to empty itself and my mind started to
talking:" Why again? "Purge" "This is so awful and really unsatisfying."
Voices and/or myself:" We are sorry. Sorry, sorry sorry. It is okey."
This status quo was already learned, nothing new. Really
important for me is to stay calm or even more important to know it
will be over soon. Doesn't matter 10 or 20 minutes but it will be
over. Only one reaction happening all over again. This is what dead
feels like. End of life, feeling really bad, taste and smells bad.
Really mystical if there is violet, green and blue. No start
or end of death, just existing death taking the body, letting it suffer
and waiting for life taking the body back. Even less dark then this
description but more powerful.
There are so many mg left, which were gone smoking that day. The
breakthrough signs started to shift. Instead of sharp sensations
the whole visual field started to look like a bubble. Instead of fast,
big describes it better. There appeared the same colour green, blue, red
forming some optics like strings clueing together and separating slowly.
On the other hand the breakthrough did get on another level. The first
person "mechanic" disappeared and controlling of breathing, swallowing,
heart beat, orientation were controlled from the outside. It was dark
and difficult to handle. An extreme dose on the edge of what the body
can endure. There is no static reality, well there is, but every
static thing is somehow existing next to empty space which can be
filled up and is not static at all. In this empty space there are
colours, moving pulses, there is a part of yourself being what is
controlling you or letting you be aware of what you are doing in
a multidimensional way. It is the closest to the dynamics behind
of consciousness to describe it spaced up. To be aware of one owns
body and the mind was really important to feel safe and not lost and
of course to observe this way to crazy transformation of reality and
fusion of consciousness with the own mind. Scary is a completely wrong
word, this is to encounter psychedelic space.
So far all this happened the second day.
The third day, sunday, was just about lowering each dose to 4mg and next day to 2mg. My body was too hungry and
to weak to go through more. My mind and my psyche and will too.
4mg for ideal trip. What was figuered out best to avoid overdose
Keep the DMT in the body and try to remember to breath regularly is written down because I
measured counting four numbers with the result there were thought in about half a second.
The math behind is counting to twenty in second is just a quarter of that.
Burning the 5-Meo-DMT completely is important. Instead of vaporating with too low temperature.
This is important for the RoA on foil because smoke hits harder. But at this point there might be
tolerance build up. Four days consuming in a row are reasonable. The effect did get less and
my body started to weaken. This is a good moment to give my body what he calls for, enough healthy
food and relaxation to integrate.
This report was difficult to shape into a readable form for everybody. But to write it down is a lot of fun for me.