PureMan
Rising Star
The day started nicely..
The previous day I made a tea of 50g Peruvian Torch for me and my girlfriend to share.
We start by drinking some ginger tea to ease the nausea. We started drinking our cactus tea at around noon and watched a disc of the second season of Dexter while we were waiting for the torch to kick in.. enjoyable.
The first effects were felt about 20-30 minutes later. It was a feeling of sedation/relaxation and generally a content feeling. It definitely would have been a chore to go for a walk at this point.
At around the 2/2.5 hour mark we notice that Dexter was starting to get unusually intense, and the trip is starting to progress, so we decide to move to the bedroom to lay back and listen to some music.. Now this is where it theoretically should have gotten better.. but there were a few things that were brought to the surface that made it difficult to relax at this point.
My girlfriend has been struggling for quite a while with issues regarding self esteem and self confidence. Every time we have a psychedelic experience together it gets to a point where she starts calling herself crazy and second guesses every action she takes. When I look her in the eyes she avoids eye contact for too long. It is as if she is afraid to let herself go.. This ends up reflecting back on me, and then things get strange for hours at a time.
I thought this experience would be different because of the "candy flip" nature of the substance. We have taken MDMA numerous times without any problems, but I know that MDMA is rather easy. When it comes to psychedelics (even pot) things always end up getting weird.. In retrospect, I should have seen what happened coming.
At one point, me and her were lying next to each other, and it felt like her negative energy was flowing through me.. My muscles felt like they were spazzing out for a while, and there were moments were my hands or my feet would shake uncontrollably.. I didn't know how to release this energy. This went on for about an hour or so.
The torch was kicking in full force and my head felt like it was going to pop. It had a lot of resemblance to a candy flip mixed with some dissociation (a combination of MDMA + LSD + MXE might have a similar effect).. It wasn't a highly visual dose, but I did notice that the visuals were very reminiscent of acid. The body high felt very close to MDMA, but more intense. I had no noticeable nausea.
A few hours pass in the madness with no real progress. I decide that a change in scenery would do us good, so we decide to go for a walk. As soon as we step outside it feels as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Everything was beautiful. It was a perfect winter day.
We spend the next few hours walking around town drinking coffee, smoking a cigar, and conversing with one another. My girlfriend is noticeably more comfortable at this point. We spent some time talking out some of her problems. It felt as though she made some real progress.. It was a beautiful walk.
After the walk we decide to cuddle and listen to music again.. Which is much more comfortable at this point.
We spend the last stage of the trip relaxing and watch another disc of Dexter.
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All in all, it was a good first experience. It felt a little taxing on the body, and there was some mental difficulty for a while, but the majority of the trip was very positive and healing.. I look forward to future encounters with my new ally.
The previous day I made a tea of 50g Peruvian Torch for me and my girlfriend to share.
We start by drinking some ginger tea to ease the nausea. We started drinking our cactus tea at around noon and watched a disc of the second season of Dexter while we were waiting for the torch to kick in.. enjoyable.
The first effects were felt about 20-30 minutes later. It was a feeling of sedation/relaxation and generally a content feeling. It definitely would have been a chore to go for a walk at this point.
At around the 2/2.5 hour mark we notice that Dexter was starting to get unusually intense, and the trip is starting to progress, so we decide to move to the bedroom to lay back and listen to some music.. Now this is where it theoretically should have gotten better.. but there were a few things that were brought to the surface that made it difficult to relax at this point.
My girlfriend has been struggling for quite a while with issues regarding self esteem and self confidence. Every time we have a psychedelic experience together it gets to a point where she starts calling herself crazy and second guesses every action she takes. When I look her in the eyes she avoids eye contact for too long. It is as if she is afraid to let herself go.. This ends up reflecting back on me, and then things get strange for hours at a time.
I thought this experience would be different because of the "candy flip" nature of the substance. We have taken MDMA numerous times without any problems, but I know that MDMA is rather easy. When it comes to psychedelics (even pot) things always end up getting weird.. In retrospect, I should have seen what happened coming.
At one point, me and her were lying next to each other, and it felt like her negative energy was flowing through me.. My muscles felt like they were spazzing out for a while, and there were moments were my hands or my feet would shake uncontrollably.. I didn't know how to release this energy. This went on for about an hour or so.
The torch was kicking in full force and my head felt like it was going to pop. It had a lot of resemblance to a candy flip mixed with some dissociation (a combination of MDMA + LSD + MXE might have a similar effect).. It wasn't a highly visual dose, but I did notice that the visuals were very reminiscent of acid. The body high felt very close to MDMA, but more intense. I had no noticeable nausea.
A few hours pass in the madness with no real progress. I decide that a change in scenery would do us good, so we decide to go for a walk. As soon as we step outside it feels as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Everything was beautiful. It was a perfect winter day.
We spend the next few hours walking around town drinking coffee, smoking a cigar, and conversing with one another. My girlfriend is noticeably more comfortable at this point. We spent some time talking out some of her problems. It felt as though she made some real progress.. It was a beautiful walk.
After the walk we decide to cuddle and listen to music again.. Which is much more comfortable at this point.
We spend the last stage of the trip relaxing and watch another disc of Dexter.
----
All in all, it was a good first experience. It felt a little taxing on the body, and there was some mental difficulty for a while, but the majority of the trip was very positive and healing.. I look forward to future encounters with my new ally.
