First Experience

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Had my first go with DMT just about an hour ago. Felt as though the time was right, just came over me that I should try it now, after a few weeks of waiting with some spice in my possession.

There's not much that can describe it, but I'll do my best. It's unlike any other entheogen I've experienced, or anything I've experienced in my life, period.

The visuals immediately were insane, and then they started fanning out all over my vision, bleeding out and expanding. So I closed my eyes and was completely taken by the visuals. I didn't breakthrough, but I was very clearly shown a 4-d object, which was my self. My being in it's entirety up until this point, including past lives, and up until now, probably in the future as well. Basically making time irrelevant, as it was a direct experience of it all at once. I wasn't shown it scene by scene, but as an object.

I perceived direct contact to a spirit, and she spoke to me telepathically. Not the source, but a being like myself that was the source, but had a conscious of it's own, possibly God but this really wasn't made clear to me. It was most definitely feminine in nature. I also perceived other beings in this space, most indifferent or somewhat amused by me being there, almost like "whys this little human here?"

I didn't retain much from the spirit after those first two hits. I took another rip and got a decent amount and this time I could more clearly understand the spirit, as the first lift had taught me how to converse a bit better, so I relaxed my mind and she asked me why I was back so soon. I said I didn't really know, it wasn't me thinking before I took the hit. And she told me "that's good, just going with the flow," essentially (certainly in different words though) not letting my ego get in the way. She told me I was welcome anytime. I came down, cleared my pipe and thought.

It was a good way to test the waters, and I believe this trip was intended to be just that. I need to be able to clear my mind better, before I attempt a breakthrough. But as astounding as the experience was, it's comforting to know that DMT too isn't "the answer," in any way shape or form but yet another part of the path. I'm left with a great sense of peace and well-being.

Much Love Guys.

 

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Today, (the following day for future reference) I decided to take a tiny, tiny hit of the spice and then meditate. What I found was more insight into the female spirit I had communicated the night before.

All and all it was somewhat easier to reach more profound effects of meditation, but harder to keep my mind clear.

At first the spirit began speaking to me. She clearly said at first that I shouldn't use spice simply to enhance my meditation, but that it would be an entirely different experience then reaching deeper states of sober meditation.

Then I felt a stream of energy being pulled out of my third eye. And at the end of the stream was the spirit, drawing energy from there. It was definitely drawing from me. So I opened up my root chakra and let it pour forth, showing love for the "angel" for lack of a better word, and thus creating an endless supply.

I lost focus on this for a bit, and cleared my mind more successfully, and experienced some things that have been becoming more clear in my daily meditation. First the feeling of moving through a mlti-colored tunnel, although it's not very clear. Then when the motion stops feeling as though a large white light surrounds me stimulates my energy.

Then I began to focus on the third eye again, but this time I got pulled along the stream and did so willingly. When I collided with the angel at the end we began something like "cosmic" love making. Felt strong bursts of sexual energy near my root, and the angel enveloped me. And I perceived the distinct concept of her "kissing me" although I felt like she did this in a playful manner, not that angels would do this often, just a way for me to relate. This experience was real love and the source, beyond what we can experience in meditation, and what we see a glimpse of when we make love.

I really feel as though these first two trips together, were giving me faith in my future spice journeys. A sort of comfort knowing that things would be alright, because I was fairly nervous approaching my first experience, but now I'm ready to face both the beautiful, and my own demons should they arise.

 

[HermeticShaman]

Sounds like you're having some valuable experiences so far...

Be aware that when you do break through, you will be astounded. When I break through, it's kind of like "Okay, little man. Sit your ass down. You're in our world now, and we will show you what we choose to." I meet all different kind of beings.

I know what you mean with the "telepathic communication". The feeling of presence is so strong and this connection happens. I meet a similar entity that I think functions as my hyperspace "travel guide", in a manner. It's the only entity I repeatedly meet up with when I go.