fredyjenkins
Rising Star
Well, i had dmt waiting for me for a while. The only thing is that i was too anxious to try it. I had been confronted to overwhelmingly bad psylo. experiences in the last 6 months and i didnt know if i was ready or not. I had tried the Dmt once or twice before but only a little bit not even a dose, i only got a racing hearbeat and almost no visuals. My smoking technique was really poor. So i build a DMT pipe with a lightbulb, 2 straw and a pepsi bottle cap. It works really well i tell you. So on the 11 of july, i loaded the pipe with not even a pencil eraser amount. It was tiny. Then, with the aid of a candle, i vaporized almost all of the DMT in my getho pipe. The smoke was really dense, yet no smoke was finding it<s way out of my pipe. I inhaled all the smoke at once. I used to be a pot and tobacco smoker so the harsness was not so terrible. I only had the time to put the pipe on the bedside desk. I knew that this was going to be somehow strong. Within seconds, i had really strong psychedelic visual/mind eye distortion everywhere in my room. I didnt even see the smoke coming out of my mouth because the '' visuals '' were too much overwhelming. I then closed my eyes and laid on my bed. I felt that i was kind of expanding. I was kinda scared but not too much. I retained self awareness. I had no breakthrough. It was just STRONG energy fields visuals swirling everywhere. That was beatuyfull. On the coming up, ( more or less 1 minute who knows? ) my heart was racing, i told myself '' hu hu never again '', '' what the fuck am i doing to me '', '' please, no entity contact this time''. But at the same time, having done lots of trips before, i said to myslef '' i'll emerge of this fine, i have to pay attention NOW, i'm doing this for a purpose. '' After this coming up, expendaing, ultra-intense period, I felt the greatest ectsasy i have ever felt. Visuals swirling eveywhre like a landscape. Things were getting less and less intense. But still, less and less intense means, like a strong acid trip haha! I then opened my eyes but stayed in bed. I could have talked, walked and anything, but i have confused in a psychedelic way and having color visuals and space distortions again ( [u:a19dc449d4]STRONG[/u:a19dc449d4] distortion and colors ). for about half an hour i felt kind of depressed that life was kind of unreal?! And that i was not doing what i am supposed to do in life - weird toughts, but very insightful. I felt like i was coming back from the place of origin and that i was amnesic of this place again. This is so weird. But it is great. I now feel like i know everything about the psychedelic oneness ultimate reality and that i belong there. I used to investigate these states, now i investigate physical life from the perspective of the ultimate ' truth reality ''. Physical life is just so much stranger than hyperspace. héhé. Definitivly, i'll have to try it again, but a proper amount for a breakthrough. I know that it can be alot stronger and that i will be just fine 10 minutes after smoking. I had breakthough with mushrooms at very high dose with the setting of silent darkness, laying on a bed, eyes closed. So it cant be that different with DMT, i kind of feel that it's very much alike. Only, smoked DMT is rapid in it's action and feels like the upper peak of an insane amount of psylocibin. héhé!
Anxiety torture and............. just bad shit 