Ghost_Titties
Rising Star
Hello everybody! This is my first time ever joining a forum style website so please forgive me if I make any rookie mistakes lol.
I mostly joined this group because of my first (and only) experience with DMT.
A little bit about myself first, I'm experienced with a few different psychedelics including 25-I NBOME, a research chem which I believe based off personal research was 5-meo-AMT, LSD-25 and slight DXM. Because of the intensity of the 25-I and the research chem, I figured I'd be able to handle myself on DMT. I handled myself fine, but boy did it blow my mind haha.
It was me, my SO, and a couple friends (one friend was experienced with DMT, the other was a sitter). Good setting, comfortable place I had been to and partied at before, so I felt pretty relaxed aside from the nervousness of taking a new drug.
We smoked it out of a bong and used the sandwich method with Blue Lotus.
As soon as I exhaled the hit (which he said was roughly 50mg) it was as though reality broke right before my eyes. Similar to a computer screen when it crashes, I was seeing 4 broken versions of my friend's face. I also heard an extremely loud sort of frequency ringing that went over every other sound in the room and got louder and louder. I also felt an intense feeling of familiarity. Like the strongest Deja vu you could ever feel. I swore I had been there before. Not in the room, but the feeling I had on the DMT. I had felt this exact feeling before, I just couldn't recall where. I felt... home.
A few seconds later I was overcome with a heavy sort of sleepiness, my friend took the bong out of my hands and I leaned back and shut my eyes. I remember hearing a sharp inhale, and the visuals kicked in.
These were the most intense visuals I have ever seen. It was lines and circles changing, morphing into and out of each other, dancing with eachother. They were constantly changing, moving. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen,even though it sounds so simple. I saw at one point a black and white checker patter that was rippling and flowing, like a flag in the wind.
I also felt like my body, or more so my spirit(?) Was being folded and flipped over and over. Like a taffy machine, and I was the taffy. I could still slightly feel my body because I could feel myself arching my back, and I had to remind myself I still have a body I'm attached to and I'm going to hurt myself if I keep bending backwards. I also felt a sort of warm liquid running through me, which i thought was me having to go pee.
I also felt like I was going to die, but not in a scary way. More of a peaceful sort of feeling. I mean i was a little freaked out because I truly believed if I didn't "hold on" I might die, but I also remember thinking that if this is what death is really like, it's not so bad.
My friend really wanted me to breakthrough, and I heard him say "She needs one more hit." I got scared at the idea of consuming more with how intense this dose already was, and that's where things sort of went wrong (a little).
I opened my eyes, which ripped away that world I was in and put me right back in my body. Suddenly it was as if I had a slight sensory overload, and my mind was having a hard time comprehending the room around me. I think what happened was me opening my eyes prematurely snapped me back into reality so suddenly my brain couldn't process it.
I went to the bathroom to try to go pee, only to find that I couldn't. I then felt my pants and they felt wet to me, which led me to conclude that i had peed myself while out of it. This led to me panicking even more, thinking i soiled myself in front of friends and on their couch. The bathroom began to terrify me, it was a small space and looked absolutely filthy (it wasn't really, but the Psychedelics made it seem like it). I panicked and nearly ran out of the bathroom, just barely having pulled my pants up and still trying to buckle my belt when I made it out. I told them I thought I peed my pants and they were super nice about it, telling me it's okay and that this is some strong stuff. I'm feeling the couch and it feels wet too, only further confirming the idea and making me feel more embarrassed. I nearly broke into tears out of embarrassment and they continued to reassure me that I was fine.
At that point I felt like I had been tripping for hours and like it was never going to end. I was so embarrassed and just wanted to go home. I asked how long it had been since my hit and they told me, about 20 minutes.
I was shocked and actually laughed a little, saying "are you serious?? It feels like it's been hours!" He then told me I would start coming down soon because DMT only lasts about 30 minutes. I don't know if it was a placebo or if I really did start coming down right then, but I immediately felt calmed and the visuals dropped drastically in intensity. Instead of a broken computer screen, it was pixels. Everything, it seemed, was pixelated and was gaining more detail and texture by the minute.
Once I had calmed down (and come down lol) I realized I had not peed my pants and embarrassed myself in front of my friends. The reason my pants felt wet when I touched them, and the couch felt wet, was because of my hands. EVERYTHING felt wet, my clothes, the table, the couch, the carpet, it all felt soaking wet. I experienced a similar "wetness" feeling when I did LSD again, a couple weeks after the DMT, and I now call this effect "wet hands" lol
About 5 or so minutes later I was mostly back to normal, other than having my mind blown and struggling to speak a little bit (did I mention my voice sounded extremely far away on the DMT as well?). I was able to drive home within an hour or so afterwards and had no residual effects.
This experience was really life changing for me. I know that there's no solid evidence that DMT has anything to do with death or after death, but based on how I felt, I'd *like* to believe that's what my death will feel like. Death doesn't seem so scary to me now.
I also feel like I have a deeper understanding of balance in the universe. I feel like I've learned there is no "all good" or "all evil", only different perspectives who've experienced different lives.
I lost a lot of anger I had towards a particular person who traumatized me in my past. I can't explain why, I just, I'm not as angry anymore.
I feel like this experience has made me want to do nothing but be good to people and put good, positive energy into the world around me.
It was truly an incredible experience.
... I'm not sure how to wrap this up haha. Like I said first time on a forum.
Um.. thanks for reading!
I mostly joined this group because of my first (and only) experience with DMT.
A little bit about myself first, I'm experienced with a few different psychedelics including 25-I NBOME, a research chem which I believe based off personal research was 5-meo-AMT, LSD-25 and slight DXM. Because of the intensity of the 25-I and the research chem, I figured I'd be able to handle myself on DMT. I handled myself fine, but boy did it blow my mind haha.
It was me, my SO, and a couple friends (one friend was experienced with DMT, the other was a sitter). Good setting, comfortable place I had been to and partied at before, so I felt pretty relaxed aside from the nervousness of taking a new drug.
We smoked it out of a bong and used the sandwich method with Blue Lotus.
As soon as I exhaled the hit (which he said was roughly 50mg) it was as though reality broke right before my eyes. Similar to a computer screen when it crashes, I was seeing 4 broken versions of my friend's face. I also heard an extremely loud sort of frequency ringing that went over every other sound in the room and got louder and louder. I also felt an intense feeling of familiarity. Like the strongest Deja vu you could ever feel. I swore I had been there before. Not in the room, but the feeling I had on the DMT. I had felt this exact feeling before, I just couldn't recall where. I felt... home.
A few seconds later I was overcome with a heavy sort of sleepiness, my friend took the bong out of my hands and I leaned back and shut my eyes. I remember hearing a sharp inhale, and the visuals kicked in.
These were the most intense visuals I have ever seen. It was lines and circles changing, morphing into and out of each other, dancing with eachother. They were constantly changing, moving. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen,even though it sounds so simple. I saw at one point a black and white checker patter that was rippling and flowing, like a flag in the wind.
I also felt like my body, or more so my spirit(?) Was being folded and flipped over and over. Like a taffy machine, and I was the taffy. I could still slightly feel my body because I could feel myself arching my back, and I had to remind myself I still have a body I'm attached to and I'm going to hurt myself if I keep bending backwards. I also felt a sort of warm liquid running through me, which i thought was me having to go pee.
I also felt like I was going to die, but not in a scary way. More of a peaceful sort of feeling. I mean i was a little freaked out because I truly believed if I didn't "hold on" I might die, but I also remember thinking that if this is what death is really like, it's not so bad.
My friend really wanted me to breakthrough, and I heard him say "She needs one more hit." I got scared at the idea of consuming more with how intense this dose already was, and that's where things sort of went wrong (a little).
I opened my eyes, which ripped away that world I was in and put me right back in my body. Suddenly it was as if I had a slight sensory overload, and my mind was having a hard time comprehending the room around me. I think what happened was me opening my eyes prematurely snapped me back into reality so suddenly my brain couldn't process it.
I went to the bathroom to try to go pee, only to find that I couldn't. I then felt my pants and they felt wet to me, which led me to conclude that i had peed myself while out of it. This led to me panicking even more, thinking i soiled myself in front of friends and on their couch. The bathroom began to terrify me, it was a small space and looked absolutely filthy (it wasn't really, but the Psychedelics made it seem like it). I panicked and nearly ran out of the bathroom, just barely having pulled my pants up and still trying to buckle my belt when I made it out. I told them I thought I peed my pants and they were super nice about it, telling me it's okay and that this is some strong stuff. I'm feeling the couch and it feels wet too, only further confirming the idea and making me feel more embarrassed. I nearly broke into tears out of embarrassment and they continued to reassure me that I was fine.
At that point I felt like I had been tripping for hours and like it was never going to end. I was so embarrassed and just wanted to go home. I asked how long it had been since my hit and they told me, about 20 minutes.
I was shocked and actually laughed a little, saying "are you serious?? It feels like it's been hours!" He then told me I would start coming down soon because DMT only lasts about 30 minutes. I don't know if it was a placebo or if I really did start coming down right then, but I immediately felt calmed and the visuals dropped drastically in intensity. Instead of a broken computer screen, it was pixels. Everything, it seemed, was pixelated and was gaining more detail and texture by the minute.
Once I had calmed down (and come down lol) I realized I had not peed my pants and embarrassed myself in front of my friends. The reason my pants felt wet when I touched them, and the couch felt wet, was because of my hands. EVERYTHING felt wet, my clothes, the table, the couch, the carpet, it all felt soaking wet. I experienced a similar "wetness" feeling when I did LSD again, a couple weeks after the DMT, and I now call this effect "wet hands" lol
About 5 or so minutes later I was mostly back to normal, other than having my mind blown and struggling to speak a little bit (did I mention my voice sounded extremely far away on the DMT as well?). I was able to drive home within an hour or so afterwards and had no residual effects.
This experience was really life changing for me. I know that there's no solid evidence that DMT has anything to do with death or after death, but based on how I felt, I'd *like* to believe that's what my death will feel like. Death doesn't seem so scary to me now.
I also feel like I have a deeper understanding of balance in the universe. I feel like I've learned there is no "all good" or "all evil", only different perspectives who've experienced different lives.
I lost a lot of anger I had towards a particular person who traumatized me in my past. I can't explain why, I just, I'm not as angry anymore.
I feel like this experience has made me want to do nothing but be good to people and put good, positive energy into the world around me.
It was truly an incredible experience.
... I'm not sure how to wrap this up haha. Like I said first time on a forum.
Um.. thanks for reading!
