Obliteration
Don't be affraid of what you don't understand, und
Hi Nexus,
So, I'm not entirely sure what I want to cram into the first post but I'll throw tid bits from my recent activities. So this all started with a friend of mine, we always had crazy talks about paranormal/spiritual/psychadellic/anythingunderthesun that normally wouldn't come up in conversation. He had been researching DMT for some time now and started talking to me about doing it. I can't say I was extremely open to trying some foreign "drug" as I don't have much experience with anything besides pot. So the idea was extremely intimidating, at the same time there's always been something about the other "realms" that I felt I could sense or have a connection to in some way but I never fully understood what it meant. So the time came, DMT has been something we don't ever come across out here but he tells me one day that a friend of his stumbled upon some and will be coming up for a visit with us. I was scared, to say the least, I ended up not actually partaking with them at the time but his friend had given him some to keep for himself... well, a week or two goes by and another opportunity had presented itself to me. At this time I had been thinking of how I pussed out and reflecting on how I was inhibiting my own wants, I was curious and I wanted answers so why would I hold myself back? So this time when he told me it was happening and set up times to meet, I decided this is the time I have to do it, If I don't now I'm pretty sure I will just continue to do this to myself, NOW OR NEVER.
The setting was actually alot better than I had thought it would have been. The others in the room with us I had worried about previously, wondering how they would handle it, would the be respectful about it or just think they're here to get way messed up. Well they ended up being slightly knowledgeable about it as well, once the time came, we all got comfy so as to not make any noise or move while the partakers were "in" a friend of ours burned some sage in the room to cleanse it before every dose, he had this crazy tribal flute sounding music playing very very softly in the background, I felt this was the time. Sweaty palms and all I dove in...
The first time was a 27mg dose, just to get my feet wet I guess you could say. It was like nothing else I have witnessed before, I don't even have experience with hallucinogens that much but the patterns and the colore that were being showed to me were just phenomenal. Words can't describe. So that evening was a good way of easing myself into this world. I didn't have that much of an experience besides some crazy CEV's mostly just shapes and shapes and shapes, lines of energies, the most intense colors ever, I thought I saw the crysanthium but wasn't entirely sure, it wasn't horribly clear. I felt nothing but comfort and love it was almost a life changing experience just right there. I had a smile on my face for a week and couldn't stop thingking about it.
The part I really want to talk about is from last night though. I went back to my friend last night and planned on taking a bigger dose, my goal was to have a breakthrough, meet beings, confirm some of my theories I've had throughout my life. Well I accomplished that to say the least lol. We all gathered in a darker room that was lit with a blacklight, my buddy goes in and has a crazy journey, meets some faries but has some trouble letting go to his earthly being. I was up next, so I had him weigh out my dose, he knows much more about this than I do so it's like he's teaching me the way this all plays out all the while he's just right there learning about it like me, I now know I'm just an infant in this galaxy and what I DO know, isn't shit. So we set it up, he's got this bong with a vaporizing thingy coming out of it, he serves it up to me so I don't have to physically fumble as I'm blasting away. I take it, lay back, pull a beanie over my eyes and finally release my breathe after trying too hard to hold it in and by the time that process had even occured I was gone....
This time was much faster, it almost gave me anxiety becuase of it but before I had been almost eased into this light show that was very entertaining, not this time. As soon as I could sense something was coming on I was practically thrown into a different room. The cool thing is I did confirm that was the crysanthium I saw because I saw it again, but this time it was so brief that I almost forgot when I came back. As it entered my body, I felt my body change, I heard the carrier wave, and I saw the chrysanthium but this time I moved through it, striaght through it and fast. After that I landed in the strangest room I've ever seen. There was blocks everywhere, connected but not in a sense? SO vibrant, always changing and some covered with symbols I can't describe. I spent alot of time looking around my surrounding, taking in this always changing chaotic yet beautiful environment. The blocks that made up this room where all different, and set up in different level. Like stairs in a way except they were all different lengths and sizes between that and the size before it. and the levels they created were extended throughout the entire room, it ran the length of the room. Now it was getting intense, there were beings there that I still have trouble describing and I wish my memory was still as detailed as the experience was but I'll try, alright now from the beginning of this trip I could feel an almost unbearable seriousness to the trip, and TRIBAL which I don't understand. Then the beings appeared and it got even more serious. they were made of light and energy, I can remember it was intimidating looking at them, they reminded me of real, old school shamans. Their "wardrobe" was made of light, even though I wouldn't consider it wardrobe that's the only thing I can think of calling it. They were doing something to me, One in particular who I had payed almost all my attention to, he was shaking something at me, globish? also pure energy, and almost moving in and out towards me, there heads were weird, bulbish like almost did look like glass for a second, see-through, but had things going on inside. Within the see through head was something redish? that moved and swirled so it was like they had no faces but they did...it was just an energy being or something I don't even know, but the rest of their body wasn't so unfamiliar, fairly humanlike just very tall lanky and strange. they kept doing this to me the entire time I was there. I could feel that there were other things going on than this tribal being session going on to my left and right, but I couldn't manage to go explore what they were, it was like I was meant to be there, to let them do whatever they did to me, and I wasn't supposed to get distracted. At one point another being so far to my right that my peripheral almost didn't even see it had touched my face. That was the craziest part of the experience to me, I felt it and I didn't think that was possible. It was the strangest thing that I've ever done but I'm very happy I did it. I had a sense at first that that was supposed to mean something, like they were showing me something, but what, I still have alot of thinking to do about it.
I have so many questions for you nexians and theories to run by you but for now I'm slightly rushed for time. If anyone has had a similar meeting with these beings I would love to hear more.
Love how you guys are handling this by the way, seems like this site is full of intelligent, respectful people and I dig that. Thanks nexus! see you guys around
So, I'm not entirely sure what I want to cram into the first post but I'll throw tid bits from my recent activities. So this all started with a friend of mine, we always had crazy talks about paranormal/spiritual/psychadellic/anythingunderthesun that normally wouldn't come up in conversation. He had been researching DMT for some time now and started talking to me about doing it. I can't say I was extremely open to trying some foreign "drug" as I don't have much experience with anything besides pot. So the idea was extremely intimidating, at the same time there's always been something about the other "realms" that I felt I could sense or have a connection to in some way but I never fully understood what it meant. So the time came, DMT has been something we don't ever come across out here but he tells me one day that a friend of his stumbled upon some and will be coming up for a visit with us. I was scared, to say the least, I ended up not actually partaking with them at the time but his friend had given him some to keep for himself... well, a week or two goes by and another opportunity had presented itself to me. At this time I had been thinking of how I pussed out and reflecting on how I was inhibiting my own wants, I was curious and I wanted answers so why would I hold myself back? So this time when he told me it was happening and set up times to meet, I decided this is the time I have to do it, If I don't now I'm pretty sure I will just continue to do this to myself, NOW OR NEVER.
The setting was actually alot better than I had thought it would have been. The others in the room with us I had worried about previously, wondering how they would handle it, would the be respectful about it or just think they're here to get way messed up. Well they ended up being slightly knowledgeable about it as well, once the time came, we all got comfy so as to not make any noise or move while the partakers were "in" a friend of ours burned some sage in the room to cleanse it before every dose, he had this crazy tribal flute sounding music playing very very softly in the background, I felt this was the time. Sweaty palms and all I dove in...
The first time was a 27mg dose, just to get my feet wet I guess you could say. It was like nothing else I have witnessed before, I don't even have experience with hallucinogens that much but the patterns and the colore that were being showed to me were just phenomenal. Words can't describe. So that evening was a good way of easing myself into this world. I didn't have that much of an experience besides some crazy CEV's mostly just shapes and shapes and shapes, lines of energies, the most intense colors ever, I thought I saw the crysanthium but wasn't entirely sure, it wasn't horribly clear. I felt nothing but comfort and love it was almost a life changing experience just right there. I had a smile on my face for a week and couldn't stop thingking about it.
The part I really want to talk about is from last night though. I went back to my friend last night and planned on taking a bigger dose, my goal was to have a breakthrough, meet beings, confirm some of my theories I've had throughout my life. Well I accomplished that to say the least lol. We all gathered in a darker room that was lit with a blacklight, my buddy goes in and has a crazy journey, meets some faries but has some trouble letting go to his earthly being. I was up next, so I had him weigh out my dose, he knows much more about this than I do so it's like he's teaching me the way this all plays out all the while he's just right there learning about it like me, I now know I'm just an infant in this galaxy and what I DO know, isn't shit. So we set it up, he's got this bong with a vaporizing thingy coming out of it, he serves it up to me so I don't have to physically fumble as I'm blasting away. I take it, lay back, pull a beanie over my eyes and finally release my breathe after trying too hard to hold it in and by the time that process had even occured I was gone....
This time was much faster, it almost gave me anxiety becuase of it but before I had been almost eased into this light show that was very entertaining, not this time. As soon as I could sense something was coming on I was practically thrown into a different room. The cool thing is I did confirm that was the crysanthium I saw because I saw it again, but this time it was so brief that I almost forgot when I came back. As it entered my body, I felt my body change, I heard the carrier wave, and I saw the chrysanthium but this time I moved through it, striaght through it and fast. After that I landed in the strangest room I've ever seen. There was blocks everywhere, connected but not in a sense? SO vibrant, always changing and some covered with symbols I can't describe. I spent alot of time looking around my surrounding, taking in this always changing chaotic yet beautiful environment. The blocks that made up this room where all different, and set up in different level. Like stairs in a way except they were all different lengths and sizes between that and the size before it. and the levels they created were extended throughout the entire room, it ran the length of the room. Now it was getting intense, there were beings there that I still have trouble describing and I wish my memory was still as detailed as the experience was but I'll try, alright now from the beginning of this trip I could feel an almost unbearable seriousness to the trip, and TRIBAL which I don't understand. Then the beings appeared and it got even more serious. they were made of light and energy, I can remember it was intimidating looking at them, they reminded me of real, old school shamans. Their "wardrobe" was made of light, even though I wouldn't consider it wardrobe that's the only thing I can think of calling it. They were doing something to me, One in particular who I had payed almost all my attention to, he was shaking something at me, globish? also pure energy, and almost moving in and out towards me, there heads were weird, bulbish like almost did look like glass for a second, see-through, but had things going on inside. Within the see through head was something redish? that moved and swirled so it was like they had no faces but they did...it was just an energy being or something I don't even know, but the rest of their body wasn't so unfamiliar, fairly humanlike just very tall lanky and strange. they kept doing this to me the entire time I was there. I could feel that there were other things going on than this tribal being session going on to my left and right, but I couldn't manage to go explore what they were, it was like I was meant to be there, to let them do whatever they did to me, and I wasn't supposed to get distracted. At one point another being so far to my right that my peripheral almost didn't even see it had touched my face. That was the craziest part of the experience to me, I felt it and I didn't think that was possible. It was the strangest thing that I've ever done but I'm very happy I did it. I had a sense at first that that was supposed to mean something, like they were showing me something, but what, I still have alot of thinking to do about it.
I have so many questions for you nexians and theories to run by you but for now I'm slightly rushed for time. If anyone has had a similar meeting with these beings I would love to hear more.
Love how you guys are handling this by the way, seems like this site is full of intelligent, respectful people and I dig that. Thanks nexus! see you guys around
