Japansage
Rising Star
My method was 70mg of DMT in a dry bong sandwiched between ash, and indirect flame applied.
Go in for the 3rd bong hit which i managed to take, nearly coughed the last one but managed to hold it in for as long as i could – reckon this time it was shorter than I wanted tho (maybe 7seconds) as i was getting the urge to close my eyes. The sitter must have taken the bong back and sat down on the couch to roll a joint for himself as i sat cross legged on the floor - and as soon as i closed my eyes intense psychedelic shapes and patterns started appearing, i remember exhaling that last hit – i think the onset of the shapes made me exhale sooner than i wanted.
Pretty much immediately the shapes intensified to the point where i thought i was traveling forward, fast. I heard a noise in my ears, like they were popping at altitude and it stretched on for a while as i was being uplifted through this space.
The next few things happened really fast:I stopped moving forward, and was aware of a great expanse. The colour pink was everywhere, and there was a huge black ball swirling in the centre of the space. The very second I laid eyes on the black ball I started to forget I was a person. I went through all these strong feeling of not being human, I remember almost Jovially saying(/thinking) my full name one last time because I knew I was letting it go, I was nothing. I then went through a series of feeling and emotions about not being me, or being dead even. I knew I wasnt dead, but I was very accepting of this new state of nothing. Again like i said all this happened really fast, It seems longer now that Im writing about it but at the time It was just like a full speed train of thoughts/emotions & feelings.
I then was aware of a noise, a rustling, it made me open my eyes (which i now think was a mistake) and that sort of sucked me out of whatever I was in, it aborted the deep lock I had on the initial vision, and I think by seeing my own living room it grounded me very momentarily back in reality almost, because when I closed my eyes again I connected with the fact that it was me, so I had lost that initial feeling of not being a person.
I was now away from the first vision and In a second space, still seeing intense psychedelic patterns moving rapidly but was also really strongly aware of the disembodied sensation of my hands resting on my legs, and a bead of sweat on my brow, a slightly runny nose – all these sensations/movements were being magnified into the psychedelic world. (im also pretty sure i was drooling slightly)
In The space I was in (a hall? a room?) I was looking at something, and I really couldn’t work out what it was. It could have been a structure (i also said to the sitter immediately after the trip that it could have been a whale so who knows) – Its just so hard to define an object when its made out of spinning shapes and moving fractals, and its in front of a background which is also made up of spinning shapes and moving fractals...Resting on a floor which is also made up of spinning shapes & moving fractals.
So i was studying it, trying to define an edge, and it was being made so hard in the fact that wherever my gaze focused on, the fractals on that part would intensify and zoom, warping things – when i tried to look at another part, the same thing would happen, everything would kaleidoscope around my focus point making it impossible to discern what was in front of me.
Soon another noise in my living room made me open my eyes again, and I could feel it wearing off. I kept my eyes open this time, and i was still getting visuals and the room/carpet was wavy and moving in ripples. I tried to explain what had just happened to me to the sitter but I couldnt really articulate any of it properly. I just remember talking about not being human. Then within minutes I was completely back to normal.
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Im not totally sure that I achieved a full breakthrough. I mean I saw/felt some pretty wild stuff,and I do now know and remember what It’s like not to be a human, or have a body, and that in itself is a wild sentence – so something did come out of it. But ive read online that if you take a proper breakthrough dose, you wont be able to tell if your eyes are open or closed – as hyperspace will appear the same no matter what, and I was very aware of my eyes being open or closed on my trip so does that mean that I didn’t breakthrough? Something definitely wasn’t right If i got pulled out of it so easily by a noise in the room. I think not holding that very last toke in for way over 10seconds was my problem possibly? Either that or my inhalation method still isnt down, because with using 70mg you would think I wouldnt have to question whether I had a breakthrough or not.
Some people talk of listening to music whilst taking DMT but I cant imagine it – silence seems necessary to me.
Go in for the 3rd bong hit which i managed to take, nearly coughed the last one but managed to hold it in for as long as i could – reckon this time it was shorter than I wanted tho (maybe 7seconds) as i was getting the urge to close my eyes. The sitter must have taken the bong back and sat down on the couch to roll a joint for himself as i sat cross legged on the floor - and as soon as i closed my eyes intense psychedelic shapes and patterns started appearing, i remember exhaling that last hit – i think the onset of the shapes made me exhale sooner than i wanted.
Pretty much immediately the shapes intensified to the point where i thought i was traveling forward, fast. I heard a noise in my ears, like they were popping at altitude and it stretched on for a while as i was being uplifted through this space.
The next few things happened really fast:I stopped moving forward, and was aware of a great expanse. The colour pink was everywhere, and there was a huge black ball swirling in the centre of the space. The very second I laid eyes on the black ball I started to forget I was a person. I went through all these strong feeling of not being human, I remember almost Jovially saying(/thinking) my full name one last time because I knew I was letting it go, I was nothing. I then went through a series of feeling and emotions about not being me, or being dead even. I knew I wasnt dead, but I was very accepting of this new state of nothing. Again like i said all this happened really fast, It seems longer now that Im writing about it but at the time It was just like a full speed train of thoughts/emotions & feelings.
I then was aware of a noise, a rustling, it made me open my eyes (which i now think was a mistake) and that sort of sucked me out of whatever I was in, it aborted the deep lock I had on the initial vision, and I think by seeing my own living room it grounded me very momentarily back in reality almost, because when I closed my eyes again I connected with the fact that it was me, so I had lost that initial feeling of not being a person.
I was now away from the first vision and In a second space, still seeing intense psychedelic patterns moving rapidly but was also really strongly aware of the disembodied sensation of my hands resting on my legs, and a bead of sweat on my brow, a slightly runny nose – all these sensations/movements were being magnified into the psychedelic world. (im also pretty sure i was drooling slightly)
In The space I was in (a hall? a room?) I was looking at something, and I really couldn’t work out what it was. It could have been a structure (i also said to the sitter immediately after the trip that it could have been a whale so who knows) – Its just so hard to define an object when its made out of spinning shapes and moving fractals, and its in front of a background which is also made up of spinning shapes and moving fractals...Resting on a floor which is also made up of spinning shapes & moving fractals.
So i was studying it, trying to define an edge, and it was being made so hard in the fact that wherever my gaze focused on, the fractals on that part would intensify and zoom, warping things – when i tried to look at another part, the same thing would happen, everything would kaleidoscope around my focus point making it impossible to discern what was in front of me.
Soon another noise in my living room made me open my eyes again, and I could feel it wearing off. I kept my eyes open this time, and i was still getting visuals and the room/carpet was wavy and moving in ripples. I tried to explain what had just happened to me to the sitter but I couldnt really articulate any of it properly. I just remember talking about not being human. Then within minutes I was completely back to normal.
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Im not totally sure that I achieved a full breakthrough. I mean I saw/felt some pretty wild stuff,and I do now know and remember what It’s like not to be a human, or have a body, and that in itself is a wild sentence – so something did come out of it. But ive read online that if you take a proper breakthrough dose, you wont be able to tell if your eyes are open or closed – as hyperspace will appear the same no matter what, and I was very aware of my eyes being open or closed on my trip so does that mean that I didn’t breakthrough? Something definitely wasn’t right If i got pulled out of it so easily by a noise in the room. I think not holding that very last toke in for way over 10seconds was my problem possibly? Either that or my inhalation method still isnt down, because with using 70mg you would think I wouldnt have to question whether I had a breakthrough or not.
Some people talk of listening to music whilst taking DMT but I cant imagine it – silence seems necessary to me.
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