Hey enoon, I totally understand. I was born and raised a christian man, and the urge iv had my whole life has been to expand the mind and see other than what the church want me to see. I also, in my own research, I came to the realization, but in the king james version of the bible, it does say that taking anything to alter your body or soul is a sin, and you can say "well god put them there. why cant we use them?" well, if you look further, what other plant did god create? the tree of knowledge, (forbiden fruit). But if thats the case, than me taking acid or smoking dmt is no different than your preacher taking an aspirin because his head hurts... fact of the matter is, we are all sinners no matter what religion were from, and if you have faith than thats all you need... I have faith, but I can no longer go to church. I feel when there that all I get is bad stares and wierd looks because everyone seems to just know that I take drugs.. but, all of them take drugs to help them sleep, and do deal with pain, as long as they can buy it over an american counter than its not a problem.. well they are wrong, in there own religion..