first proper trip jitters

[unansweredquestions]

well im fairly familiar with other states of conciousness, hardly the niel armstrong of the pyschonauts; more that im aware that i cant expect what could come.

well though iv enjoyed pyschadelics, are always feared the longevity of a heavy trip, keeping me from ever venturing too deeply into LSD or even mushrooms. soon my exams are done, im set for university. i really feel nows the time. and after all my research, wanting to understand what i can about DMT; i feel nervous.
should i be scared?

my last trip, i took a wrong turn; mixed alot of unknown pills with lsd in the wrong setting. by all means, it messed me up for a while. i now feel im back to myself, i like sobriety! and im scared to go back to befor. though im sure my problem was with the stimulant abuse, its left me weary.

i know noone here can make a decision for me, but i trust alot of your advice; alot of you have your head together and are responsible. any advice, tips, encouragement or otherwise is welcome.

its been a while, good day nexus

 

[Wanderer]

I'm in your same boat -- I have used very little psychedelics with the exception of weird things like insufflated Zaleplon (the weirdest experience -- imagine seeing thousands of eyeballs come out of the wall and not giving the slightest care about it) and a subvisual dose of shrooms (which started with a panic attack, but I managed to calm myself down, after which it was beautiful). I also experimented with DXM once, but I had a terrible panic attack which caused such high BP that it did some damage to my kidneys (I think). I have yet to try any sizable dose of DMT.

All of my panic attacks (in addition to most other people's) are caused mostly from resisting the flow of life. Whether it be the fear of insanity, the fear of vomiting, open spaces, or a fear of simply having a panic attack or letting go, it's the fear and resistance that causes the feedback cycle which amplifies it.

The key is to be totally willing and able to let go of ego for a while, and thus all extension of ego -- the body, the mind, thoughts, beliefs, etc. Psychedelics tend to force ego-loss or ego-loosening at high doses, and if a person isn't ready, it's often interpreted as a "bad trip". They are so attached to this false egoic self that the thought of it going away is akin to death. For this reason, the Buddhists refer to enlightenment as the "little death" or the death before death. Indeed, most spiritual masters describe awareness of reality stripped of its illusory duality, a state of experience under which most people have lived under for their lives in memory. It can be shocking and outright frightening to let go of the self that one has spent their entire lives investing meaning into.

So my advice is this -- don't resist, welcome everything, don't judge or label the experience, and then let go of it all. Let go of everything and just be the experience. Spinning skulls shooting out blood in every direction isn't inherently "scary" or "bad", those are just meaningless polar references used by the ego. If you let go of the need to explain it, interpret it, or understand it, there cannot be fear or anxiety.

Now obviously it's incredibly difficult to let go completely. If it were easy, we'd all be enlightened. I suppose the key is to just be willing to let go, even if you are unable to at the time. I think compounds like DMT make it easier, or much harder, depending on your intention.

And last of all, don't go in with expectations. Things that aren't congruous with expectations often induce a dissonance, which can amplify into something even less desirable.

And make sure the room is full of good vibes. A nice window to view the trees, natural lighting, incense, etc.

Best of luck!

-- Wanderer

 

[stevowitz]

dedicate a night to just the spice, treat it with respect.

make a ritual out of it. you will be rewarded.

your mindset before the trip makes all the difference. guaranteed

 

[Spock's Brain]

Take a very small hit to feel the effects are familiar, and then just go full bore.

 

[landfishd]

That's what I've been doing the last couple of times. I just can't get myself to go for it and take one big one. I kinda have to ease into it. This also helps because I find anything less than a breakthrough to be a little bit annoying and not very pleasurable, though the afterglow is great. I just don't like the pre breakthrough feeling. So when I take this pre mini hit to get ready and I start to feel the effects it pushes me to take more and then I'm there. Granted this method you will use more spice but this doesn't really bother me, one can always extract again!