MatthewMcDonald
Rising Star
Hello all, I'm new to this site but definitely have done much reading on the forums. I am new to dmt but not new to psychedelics. Just up until about a year ago I used to use psychedelics for fun and pure entertainment, but now I strictly use them for spiritual guidance and healing. I've reached a certain darkness in my life that I haven't been too fond of. I have only used dmt once prior to this experience. Two nights ago I had the most profound, beautiful moment of my life. I know this should just be an introduction, but how better to introduce myself than to share the most brilliant moment of my life. In which I just so happened to be on dmt.
Now to be honest I don't know the dosage that I took. I do know it was a gift from a very special person in my life and she said it was your average "dose". I smoked it out of a bubbler with no water on top of a little bit of marijuana, for lack of anything better to use. Before I did dose I spent a few minutes meditating, trying to communicate my purpose for taking what I was about to take. Took a small first hit, held it in for a short while then really ripped it the second time. I then held the smoke in for as long as I could, honestly I don't remember exhaling.
What I experienced next was divided into two very distinct sections. As a deep vibration took over all my senses I was then greeted by an entity. As weird as it may sound it was most comparable in looks to the classic alien. Big round head, with deep black piercing eyes. My head immediately turned very strongly to the right. The entity then grasped all of my focus and starred me in the eyes. As this new world was still very new to me I had lots of thoughts running through my brain, almost in a sense of panic. But just as soon as this would happen this entity would stop my mind and reassure me that I needed to focus on what was in front of me. As soon as I was calm again I was told to look to my left where I met another entity, this one was the complete opposite of the other entity. White eyes that went on forever and a very dark complexion. Once again I was thinking too hard and not focusing on what was being presented so this dark being did not let me look away until my mind was clear and ready to listen. My head then turned to look straight forward, where I then found myself looking at an incredible blue light with a black back round. Once again I was not able to look away until "they" felt like I was ready to. This carried on for maybe 10 cycles of my head turning right, left, straight with all the same entities meeting me at their assigned location. Once I came to a point where I could cycle through and keep my mind still through a couple cycles I was then able to look around freely with no restriction on where I could look next. I almost felt like I was in a doctors office being prepared for what was about to come. The meeting with my creator...
What came next is something I will never forget. Before me appeared the largest most brilliant cloud/vortex of energy I could have ever imagined, and still have a hard time comprehending. I was instantly filled with the most blissful love I have ever felt in my life. Immediately I spoke out loud with a greeting of "hello mother". Though this spirit didn't speak to me physically the patterns and shapes it portrayed to me spoke as clear as day. I was now in the presence of the spirit that created me. We talked for a while, as "Mother" comforted me I became reassured that I had a greater purpose and I had many loved ones looking over me. I came to tears and couldn't stop thanking this being out loud, "thank you mother, I love you so much, thank you for your light." Once I thought I couldn't feel any more love or compassion the design in this flow of energy changed. The visuals still remained very similar but the presence I felt changed drastically. I felt like I was in a room full of everyone and everything good I have ever felt in my life and all the energy was looking at me with a sense of support, understanding, and the greatest love ever. I again instantly broke down into tears and replied "I miss you guys". These were spirits that I used to know before I came to earth. They all missed me so much and assured me that I was loved and looked after. We had a few laughs and slowly "Mother" started to slowly fading away, constantly sending off all the love in the universe. Then once I was ready to let go we exchanged a last I love you and I was back.
I haven't been able to tell many people I know about this because they are not on this kind of level yet and I don't think they would give me the time of day. I just had to share this revelation in my life. As I said I was in a really dark place earlier this week and this experience gave me comfort of knowing I have a path, and I have more power than I know watching over me. Seriously the most amazing, exciting moment of my life meeting my "mother" and all my old friends I haven't seen in a lifetime. Much love and light to all.
Now to be honest I don't know the dosage that I took. I do know it was a gift from a very special person in my life and she said it was your average "dose". I smoked it out of a bubbler with no water on top of a little bit of marijuana, for lack of anything better to use. Before I did dose I spent a few minutes meditating, trying to communicate my purpose for taking what I was about to take. Took a small first hit, held it in for a short while then really ripped it the second time. I then held the smoke in for as long as I could, honestly I don't remember exhaling.
What I experienced next was divided into two very distinct sections. As a deep vibration took over all my senses I was then greeted by an entity. As weird as it may sound it was most comparable in looks to the classic alien. Big round head, with deep black piercing eyes. My head immediately turned very strongly to the right. The entity then grasped all of my focus and starred me in the eyes. As this new world was still very new to me I had lots of thoughts running through my brain, almost in a sense of panic. But just as soon as this would happen this entity would stop my mind and reassure me that I needed to focus on what was in front of me. As soon as I was calm again I was told to look to my left where I met another entity, this one was the complete opposite of the other entity. White eyes that went on forever and a very dark complexion. Once again I was thinking too hard and not focusing on what was being presented so this dark being did not let me look away until my mind was clear and ready to listen. My head then turned to look straight forward, where I then found myself looking at an incredible blue light with a black back round. Once again I was not able to look away until "they" felt like I was ready to. This carried on for maybe 10 cycles of my head turning right, left, straight with all the same entities meeting me at their assigned location. Once I came to a point where I could cycle through and keep my mind still through a couple cycles I was then able to look around freely with no restriction on where I could look next. I almost felt like I was in a doctors office being prepared for what was about to come. The meeting with my creator...
What came next is something I will never forget. Before me appeared the largest most brilliant cloud/vortex of energy I could have ever imagined, and still have a hard time comprehending. I was instantly filled with the most blissful love I have ever felt in my life. Immediately I spoke out loud with a greeting of "hello mother". Though this spirit didn't speak to me physically the patterns and shapes it portrayed to me spoke as clear as day. I was now in the presence of the spirit that created me. We talked for a while, as "Mother" comforted me I became reassured that I had a greater purpose and I had many loved ones looking over me. I came to tears and couldn't stop thanking this being out loud, "thank you mother, I love you so much, thank you for your light." Once I thought I couldn't feel any more love or compassion the design in this flow of energy changed. The visuals still remained very similar but the presence I felt changed drastically. I felt like I was in a room full of everyone and everything good I have ever felt in my life and all the energy was looking at me with a sense of support, understanding, and the greatest love ever. I again instantly broke down into tears and replied "I miss you guys". These were spirits that I used to know before I came to earth. They all missed me so much and assured me that I was loved and looked after. We had a few laughs and slowly "Mother" started to slowly fading away, constantly sending off all the love in the universe. Then once I was ready to let go we exchanged a last I love you and I was back.
I haven't been able to tell many people I know about this because they are not on this kind of level yet and I don't think they would give me the time of day. I just had to share this revelation in my life. As I said I was in a really dark place earlier this week and this experience gave me comfort of knowing I have a path, and I have more power than I know watching over me. Seriously the most amazing, exciting moment of my life meeting my "mother" and all my old friends I haven't seen in a lifetime. Much love and light to all.
