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Rising Star
Hi. I did an STB using the Nexus, thanks.
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I was scared for the longest time, then I just did it.
Sorry about the horrible formatting I don't know how to fix it.
Longer read.
Basically I did it twice. First time was nice mellow and I thought I had it all figured out.. then BAM.
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Today I learned I have a soul. This is remarkable to say, because I've always been pretty skeptical about religion. Disowned it. Became a follower of science and it's measurements. Today I went to the spirit world. I've never felt this "spirit" before. [I do, it's just me, the spirit of me. It's separate from my physical body]
First I smoked about 20mg of DMT slowly using tobacco as a top layer, slowly.. letting it burn on it's own accord.... took two big slow hits. Man.. some nice closed eye imagery. Nice. Looked around. Everything looked unnaturally flat and cartoonish. Hmm this is nothing close to a breakthrough, in fact I've been here before.
Took off the top layer of tobacco. Decided to torch the screens. Not torch, but heat up hotter than the tobacco was doing it. Took two big hits. Held. Release.
Started walking into the living room. Hrm.
I guess it's just toloranc...eeeeeee I feel like I'm being sucked into some sort of wormhole. I shut my eyes immediately and lay down on the floor.
All of a sudden I went through tunnel. I realized everything is dark here. I see this red structure. Dark red. All of a sudden there is this woman character. She's wearing a mask like the riddler or something. She was dressed in black with a red mask and dancing around these red structures.
Beautiful. I removed my hands from my eyes still keeping them closed and everything lit up. I saw beautiful colors and I was sucked out of this dark place into the light. The whole time I am aware of my body and breathing.
I saw.. Everything. by Everything I mean Galaxies. Galaxies and galaxies. All spiraling in this gigantic fractals. [Kind of like a starfish] I thought they were galaxies at first, but no, they were all different universes. They made up this big big beautiful fractal structure. I realized that this thing was infinite in complexity.
Our brains have folds, we're talking about fractals. Our brain has folds, but entirety of existence is just this one big beautiful thing being folded into this giant fractalized thing comprised of universes. This giant thing, glowing, radiating love. It's fractalized into what looks like INFINITE universes. Just like the brain folds to hold more information, this thing was fractalizing and curling up to hold more existence, more EXPERIENCE. More capacity to feel and experience. It was radiating "love". I thought I would be scared, but it was wondrous. I had this realization and I started crying. Because it was such a beautiful thing. The most Beautiful thing I've ever seen and or realized in my life.
Then my vision went out and warped into this thing that I can only explain by Alex Grey's "Cosmic Christ". Or like the end of that Xavier movie.
8:15 to 8:30.. like when the camera comes out of the gem in the guy's forehead.
This is what this gigantic thing looked like personified I guess. It was such a beautiful picture. It was the most beautiful and happy experience in my life. I just felt so much love flowing through my body.. the river of existence is love.
Science has discovered things such as black holes, but really we are just discovering how the universe is wound and folded on itself.
There's no reason to be scared about anything. There is cosmic love everywhere. We are all part of something infinite and beautiful.
Wow. Amazing.
I thought that was what DMT was about. Nice, calm. Seemed about 30 minutes had gone by. I wanted to know more... but I thought I already had all the answers and understanding.
So I said another little prayer along the lines of "Please show me knowledge and wisdom", and loaded up 25mg instead of 20.
Little did I know that an intergalactic high frequency resonating Buddha was about to skull fuck me and ejaculate the entire universe into my brain.
Well. Decided only to use a tiny bit of tobacco. Preloaded the screens by slightly melting the DMT. TOOK A GIGANTIC HIT. Maybe two, I forget. Held it, wow, this burned like a motherfucker.
SNAP. SHOTGUN BLAST TO MY EXISTENCE. Existence.
Confused. Vision blurring, my very EXISTENCE rearranging itself so I was simultaneously experiencing now, a second into the future, and a second in the past all interwoven in my visual frame at once. I was existing simultaneously in different places in time.
It felt like my existence was being scratched by a cosmic DJ. Listen to this, and picture a constant tone to be constant regular existence. This is what I felt.
The head space was like the sound, weird galactic and being scrubbed all over the place.
I was being smeared across time.
I immediately became terrified, stood up, disoriented, scared, looked down, there was no floor, it was golden Buddhas face in a face of terror like the sad drama mask thing.
Sat back down. I started crawling aimlessly on the floor. I decided to close my eyes. I saw a rainbow ball of energy so blindingly bright and intense and beautiful piercing my existence. When I saw the colored ball I thought if I kept my eyes shut the colored ball would envelope me and shatter my existence (Oh god it was so bright. Brighter than anything.)
I felt like I was about to get RIPPED through a wormhole.I opened my eyes I stood up and was immediately disorientated. I looked at the floor. I saw Buddha again. It's face was my face. Mirrored in real time as I made this weird facial expression it did too.
I looked at it it was scared. It was me., and I realized that I needed to calm down.
A voice.. I don't know if it was me saying it to myself or what but it said MEDITATE. RELAX. NOW. I immediately sat on the floor Indian style with urgency.
As I was gazing into this big golden Buddha that was constantly everywhere, things started to mellow out and be calm. I don't know exactly what happened but I instantly felt at peace.
The next events that happened were extremely intense and soul shattering. The most stuff went on, but I remember the least. It's hazy.
I decided to lie down. Millions of things in my visual field were going on but I can't remember. All so intricate and beautiful. I looked at the ceiling, still thinking (WHAT THE FUCK?!?).. heart beating fast and adrenaline surging.
The most intense part:
The ceiling.. I have one of those bumpy chalky ceilings. Not for long. SNAP!! SNAPPPP!!!! It was Buddha, kinda in a weird statue of liberty pose.Holding a torch. A beacon. The whole time I felt surging with electricity. Alien hieroglyphics started laying out on the ceiling superimposing themselves onto Buddha (think the matrix, but not running up and down, with hieroglyphics). I thought I was being fed information from the future. It was amazing and awe inspiring. Buddha suddenly changed. Still Buddha, but in a different pose.
When I say "changed", I mean the molecules on the ceiling fucking took up and rearranged right in front of my eyes.
Al of a sudden the side portraits of what i thought were famous revolutionary thinkers started tiling over my vision. Rainbow in background but faces shadows. I saw Einstein, Ancient Egyptian thinkers, Newton, Leary. Like this kinda:
The knowledge of the entire human race seemed to pour into my head.
There was so many things going on. I thought (Oh my god, load universe into cannon and fire directly into my brain. WHAT THE FUCK. (What the fuck was a continuous thought.) Then it started fading, FINALLY, I could make out the shape of my ceiling.. it's real form. But rivers of rainbow colors were running between the bumps on the ceiling. Almost electric and shimmering, snaking everywhere. Then, it was gone. What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.
This wasn't like LSD or 2C-E "Visuals". The Buddha seemed as lifelike as I can ever explain, and as real as it gets .I felt like I was vibrating and resonating at a higher clock speed, a higher frequency. Like my brain kicked into overdrive.
Did I break through the second time?
I signed up to post this, thanks.
I was scared for the longest time, then I just did it.
Sorry about the horrible formatting I don't know how to fix it.
Longer read.
Basically I did it twice. First time was nice mellow and I thought I had it all figured out.. then BAM.
-----------------------------------------------------
Today I learned I have a soul. This is remarkable to say, because I've always been pretty skeptical about religion. Disowned it. Became a follower of science and it's measurements. Today I went to the spirit world. I've never felt this "spirit" before. [I do, it's just me, the spirit of me. It's separate from my physical body]
First I smoked about 20mg of DMT slowly using tobacco as a top layer, slowly.. letting it burn on it's own accord.... took two big slow hits. Man.. some nice closed eye imagery. Nice. Looked around. Everything looked unnaturally flat and cartoonish. Hmm this is nothing close to a breakthrough, in fact I've been here before.
Took off the top layer of tobacco. Decided to torch the screens. Not torch, but heat up hotter than the tobacco was doing it. Took two big hits. Held. Release.
Started walking into the living room. Hrm.
I guess it's just toloranc...eeeeeee I feel like I'm being sucked into some sort of wormhole. I shut my eyes immediately and lay down on the floor.
All of a sudden I went through tunnel. I realized everything is dark here. I see this red structure. Dark red. All of a sudden there is this woman character. She's wearing a mask like the riddler or something. She was dressed in black with a red mask and dancing around these red structures.
Beautiful. I removed my hands from my eyes still keeping them closed and everything lit up. I saw beautiful colors and I was sucked out of this dark place into the light. The whole time I am aware of my body and breathing.
I saw.. Everything. by Everything I mean Galaxies. Galaxies and galaxies. All spiraling in this gigantic fractals. [Kind of like a starfish] I thought they were galaxies at first, but no, they were all different universes. They made up this big big beautiful fractal structure. I realized that this thing was infinite in complexity.
Our brains have folds, we're talking about fractals. Our brain has folds, but entirety of existence is just this one big beautiful thing being folded into this giant fractalized thing comprised of universes. This giant thing, glowing, radiating love. It's fractalized into what looks like INFINITE universes. Just like the brain folds to hold more information, this thing was fractalizing and curling up to hold more existence, more EXPERIENCE. More capacity to feel and experience. It was radiating "love". I thought I would be scared, but it was wondrous. I had this realization and I started crying. Because it was such a beautiful thing. The most Beautiful thing I've ever seen and or realized in my life.
Then my vision went out and warped into this thing that I can only explain by Alex Grey's "Cosmic Christ". Or like the end of that Xavier movie.
This is what this gigantic thing looked like personified I guess. It was such a beautiful picture. It was the most beautiful and happy experience in my life. I just felt so much love flowing through my body.. the river of existence is love.
Science has discovered things such as black holes, but really we are just discovering how the universe is wound and folded on itself.
There's no reason to be scared about anything. There is cosmic love everywhere. We are all part of something infinite and beautiful.
Wow. Amazing.
I thought that was what DMT was about. Nice, calm. Seemed about 30 minutes had gone by. I wanted to know more... but I thought I already had all the answers and understanding.
So I said another little prayer along the lines of "Please show me knowledge and wisdom", and loaded up 25mg instead of 20.
Little did I know that an intergalactic high frequency resonating Buddha was about to skull fuck me and ejaculate the entire universe into my brain.
Well. Decided only to use a tiny bit of tobacco. Preloaded the screens by slightly melting the DMT. TOOK A GIGANTIC HIT. Maybe two, I forget. Held it, wow, this burned like a motherfucker.
SNAP. SHOTGUN BLAST TO MY EXISTENCE. Existence.
Confused. Vision blurring, my very EXISTENCE rearranging itself so I was simultaneously experiencing now, a second into the future, and a second in the past all interwoven in my visual frame at once. I was existing simultaneously in different places in time.
It felt like my existence was being scratched by a cosmic DJ. Listen to this, and picture a constant tone to be constant regular existence. This is what I felt.
The head space was like the sound, weird galactic and being scrubbed all over the place.
I was being smeared across time.
I immediately became terrified, stood up, disoriented, scared, looked down, there was no floor, it was golden Buddhas face in a face of terror like the sad drama mask thing.
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Sat back down. I started crawling aimlessly on the floor. I decided to close my eyes. I saw a rainbow ball of energy so blindingly bright and intense and beautiful piercing my existence. When I saw the colored ball I thought if I kept my eyes shut the colored ball would envelope me and shatter my existence (Oh god it was so bright. Brighter than anything.)
I felt like I was about to get RIPPED through a wormhole.I opened my eyes I stood up and was immediately disorientated. I looked at the floor. I saw Buddha again. It's face was my face. Mirrored in real time as I made this weird facial expression it did too.
I looked at it it was scared. It was me., and I realized that I needed to calm down.
A voice.. I don't know if it was me saying it to myself or what but it said MEDITATE. RELAX. NOW. I immediately sat on the floor Indian style with urgency.
As I was gazing into this big golden Buddha that was constantly everywhere, things started to mellow out and be calm. I don't know exactly what happened but I instantly felt at peace.
The next events that happened were extremely intense and soul shattering. The most stuff went on, but I remember the least. It's hazy.
I decided to lie down. Millions of things in my visual field were going on but I can't remember. All so intricate and beautiful. I looked at the ceiling, still thinking (WHAT THE FUCK?!?).. heart beating fast and adrenaline surging.
The most intense part:
The ceiling.. I have one of those bumpy chalky ceilings. Not for long. SNAP!! SNAPPPP!!!! It was Buddha, kinda in a weird statue of liberty pose.Holding a torch. A beacon. The whole time I felt surging with electricity. Alien hieroglyphics started laying out on the ceiling superimposing themselves onto Buddha (think the matrix, but not running up and down, with hieroglyphics). I thought I was being fed information from the future. It was amazing and awe inspiring. Buddha suddenly changed. Still Buddha, but in a different pose.
When I say "changed", I mean the molecules on the ceiling fucking took up and rearranged right in front of my eyes.
Al of a sudden the side portraits of what i thought were famous revolutionary thinkers started tiling over my vision. Rainbow in background but faces shadows. I saw Einstein, Ancient Egyptian thinkers, Newton, Leary. Like this kinda:
The knowledge of the entire human race seemed to pour into my head.
There was so many things going on. I thought (Oh my god, load universe into cannon and fire directly into my brain. WHAT THE FUCK. (What the fuck was a continuous thought.) Then it started fading, FINALLY, I could make out the shape of my ceiling.. it's real form. But rivers of rainbow colors were running between the bumps on the ceiling. Almost electric and shimmering, snaking everywhere. Then, it was gone. What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.
This wasn't like LSD or 2C-E "Visuals". The Buddha seemed as lifelike as I can ever explain, and as real as it gets .I felt like I was vibrating and resonating at a higher clock speed, a higher frequency. Like my brain kicked into overdrive.
Did I break through the second time?
Sounds like an awesome journey, very similar to the one SWIM had last night :shock: