First Two Experiences - Entity Contact

[Parabola89]

First of all hello, it's great to be here. I've browsed the forums a fair bit over the years, reading up on the experiences of others and waiting for my time to come. That time happened to be this week
I'm still trying to come to terms with everything that happened to me, I don't feel like the same person anymore, these experiences have affected me deeply and I wanted to share them with people that are understanding and might have some insight into them as well.

My friend had already tried some and had a bad experience with the entities he made contact with. He ended up at what he described as a gate, he met two large figures, one with a bull's head and the other looked a bit like Iron Man apparently, they told him he wasn't allowed to be there. Behind them were what seemed to be a lot of workers, they were making patterns. Eventually he was escorted back to reality by another entity.
So he tried to warn me off from doing it, but I had already let him know that there was no way I was going to back out.
So last sunday morning we went to a place with a view near a local park, it was strange, when we arrived there I turned the corner and took in the view of where I would be having my first experience and I knew that I had seen the place before, I hadn't been there while awake, I had been there in a dream and it felt like a place of great significance to me. My friend told me that he wouldn't be doing it again that day as he felt he had been told not to, so I was on my own.
We both consumed 1 gram of psilocybin mushrooms each and then waited until that started to kick in.
I took the glass pipe with the spice in and got started, I took in as much as possible and held it before taking in some more. My vision started to go, everything started to shake and fall apart, my last vision was of a tree and the outline of it's branches, when I closed my eyes the branches were still visible as light, this then started to transform into patterns and eventually a face (or the outline of one anyway). It was then that it started communicating with me telepathically, it welcomed me and told me it was glad to finally meet me. In the distance behind it I became aware of what seemed like some sort of carnival (best way I could describe it), it asked me to enter but I couldn't, I really wanted to but I was filled with the overwhelming feeling that I was 'too short to go on the rides' (seemed to make sense to me at the time). The face then told me not to worry and started to laugh with me, I couldn't stop laughing. As we were laughing together it was sharing with me the idea over and over again "This is the secret, share this.. This is the secret, share this". I got some more visuals of patterns as I slowly returned to normal and then fairly abruptly I was back completely.
I felt quite overwhelmed, my friend and I decided to take 2 more grams of shrooms and go for a walk, we talked about our experiences and finally sat down at a bench, we looked up and the clouds and realised that they weren't as clear as usual, they looked like slightly pixelated snowflakes conducting an energy grid and they seemed a lot closer that usual.

Our next experience came 2 days later, we decided to go one after the other at his house, him first and then me.
He came back very ecstatic and glad that he tried again. He met one entity that he described as a cross between an elephant and an ant eater with rabbit ears and another large entity off to the side. The 'elephant' seemed very happy to see him and thanked him for coming back, he asked him to follow and then started showing him geometric patterns that he was making. At the end of the trip the entities waved goodbye and asked to him to come back soon.
After he returned we had a long conversation, I showed him books that i'd brought with me on sacred geometry and he tried to identify what he was shown but it started to fade within the first few minutes of him being back.
Then it was my turn, the visuals started with the television and wall in front of me shaking, I instantly regretted doing it and tried to hold onto this world, I felt very alone but realised the only thing I could do was let go and just go with it. As soon as I did I found myself moving down tunnels of light at a fast pace, patterns flying past me, I came to a stop and was looking at patterns forming in front of me. To my left I became aware of a presence, I looked and there was the most amazingly beautiful cat I had ever seen. I introduced myself and it came over to me, it started to interact with me and lick my face, this made me start laughing. I instantly became aware that this felt like a very powerful being, coming to me in an image that I felt comfortable with (I spend a lot of time around cats). It felt like an honour to be in it's presence and felt a deep sense of love, it still makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside just typing it out . It then jumped on me and we rolled around together laughing, it was the strongest and most joyful laughter I have ever felt. Then came a burst of white light and I found the patterns flying past me again, before I knew it I was back. I have never felt so glad to be able to physically touch things around me :lol:
After getting back I spent the afternoon with a glow although I wasn't really able to concentrate on much. In my research I came across the drawings of Louis Wain and it felt strikingly familiar, as close to what I saw as could probably be drawn in this realm of existence. Whatever it was it seemed to be very loving and powerful and I feel like a new man for coming into contact with it, it has removed pretty much all the negative energy that I had in my life before, I haven't felt like this in a long time.

So that's my first two experiences so far, sorry if it's a bit long but once I started writing it all just came out of me. I'm going to give it a few weeks rest before I try again..

 

[Global]

This report made me smile several times

 

[s0ftmunchie]

Welcome Parabola, thank you for sharing your report. It looks like you've had some powerful experiences here, it was a joy to read :d

 

[Parabola89]

Thank you! Glad to hear you've enjoyed them :d
They were both difficult but rewarding experiences, or at least difficult until they both broke down into laughing fits

 

[iAwakenU]

Your experiences sound very much like some of the ones i have had. I've only been in contact with "good" entities so far on my voyages... all making me feel very good, welcome... it has always been a very pure goodness. Or at least felt that way.

You mentioned one saying something like "this is the secret, share this!" this kind of resonates with me as well.. like i said i've had only positive experiences but something in my gut always makes me wonder if they are really good. what if they actually have evil intentions but that is how they get what they want, by having this ability to make souls feel safe and good. I have no proof or real reason to believe this... but for some reason i can never shake that "gut" feeling in the background.

Has anyone else ever thought/felt this? i just feel like we might be being duped or something!
Like maybe they make us feel good, and make us appreciate life here and teach us things... but in return they feed on some of our souls energy or something.

I feel crazy even saying this stuff... but i also think this is a pretty open community that will enjoy the discussion instead of just shutting it down.

maybe i'll make a post asking this specific question on it's own as to not derail this post.

 

[Parabola89]

Not at all, don't worry about it. It's actually something that's very interesting to me too. I had a conversation with my friend about his first experience again the other night and he pretty much said to me that he felt he had reached the gates of some sort of underworld, he reflected on how the entities guarding it told him that he shouldn't be there and was "meant for better things", he said that they didn't really feel good or bad, just powerful and not to be messed with.
The feline entity that I met felt very 'good' in the sense of it being completely loving to me, it has had an amazing effect on my day to day life and has healed a lot of old wounds. So going on gut instinct I would say that it was a good entity, of course I could be being naive but i'd like to believe that after the experience we shared together it felt like an entity I can trust.

 

[iAwakenU]

Yeah i've always felt trust and nothing but good.... i think it's an it can be too good to be true kind of thing, so i'm a little sketched

 

[Global]

Ultimately since we have no conclusive idea as to what actually is going on there; what there is; who these things are and where they come from, etc...it remains possible that even in positive experiences we're being duped. It could be like us under their anesthetic or something of that nature. When it comes down to it, you're taking something of a leap of faith when you take DMT, and to some extent you have to extend your trust to them some of the time because if you keep on bringing paranoia and suspicion to their door, they might not interact with you in the most ideal of ways either; you don't trust them, and they won't trust you. As far as I'm concerned, these entities aren't simple programming with AI kind of intelligence. They react to our emotions, and thoughts and can change the entire course of the experience accordingly in a somewhat intellectual manner. Having said that, some of them simply shouldn't be trusted. Just as in real life with human beings, you'll have to apply and combine reasoning and intuition to determine to whom you owe your trust.

 

[iAwakenU]

Ultimately since we have no conclusive idea as to what actually is going on there; what there is; who these things are and where they come from, etc...it remains possible that even in positive experiences we're being duped. It could be like us under their anesthetic or something of that nature. When it comes down to it, you're taking something of a leap of faith when you take DMT, and to some extent you have to extend your trust to them some of the time because if you keep on bringing paranoia and suspicion to their door, they might not interact with you in the most ideal of ways either; you don't trust them, and they won't trust you. As far as I'm concerned, these entities aren't simple programming with AI kind of intelligence. They react to our emotions, and thoughts and can change the entire course of the experience accordingly in a somewhat intellectual manner. Having said that, some of them simply shouldn't be trusted. Just as in real life with human beings, you'll have to apply and combine reasoning and intuition to determine to whom you owe your trust.

I'd have to say I agree with everything you said

 

[ithappenedat21]

I cannot wait to respond to this tomorrow : )

 

[User1911]

on talking about entities, I seem to have this one that visits me most of the time, he seems to be on some sort of placenta, and in the placenta is his body, and hes able to fly in any directions and twirl around in any speed. Hes always excited to see me, like when you come home and your dog runs to greet you. He shows me things and we laugh. TO me he seems like hes about having fun.

I met one entity, before and he seemed like a cross between a mayan, wearing a samuri helmet sitting crossed legged and he simply hovers, he shows me things. Things that he sees are wrong with the way humans are going. He seems like he is all about knowledge. He comes across as more powerfull then my fun entity and I respect him but I do not fear him.

The one I am scared of, who I see often, appears as a shadow no describale features. Just a shadow that when moving morphs like water. This one I feel is negative. And when I see her coming ( i get the feeling the entity is female for some reason) I tell the fun entity to chase it away and he does.

 

[Candiety]

Your experiences sound very much like some of the ones i have had. I've only been in contact with "good" entities so far on my voyages... all making me feel very good, welcome... it has always been a very pure goodness. Or at least felt that way.

You mentioned one saying something like "this is the secret, share this!" this kind of resonates with me as well.. like i said i've had only positive experiences but something in my gut always makes me wonder if they are really good. what if they actually have evil intentions but that is how they get what they want, by having this ability to make souls feel safe and good. I have no proof or real reason to believe this... but for some reason i can never shake that "gut" feeling in the background.

Has anyone else ever thought/felt this? i just feel like we might be being duped or something!
Like maybe they make us feel good, and make us appreciate life here and teach us things... but in return they feed on some of our souls energy or something.

I feel crazy even saying this stuff... but i also think this is a pretty open community that will enjoy the discussion instead of just shutting it down.

maybe i'll make a post asking this specific question on it's own as to not derail this post.

Yip, I've had those thoughts, as I'm sure most of us have. I've spent many, many moments of time pondering things like this.

And this ties in with the original poster and how I was going to describe what his original post meant to me. The main message seems to be; let go of that fucking fear. Humanity is plagued by it, it's sick; we're sick. And it's all because of fear

Supposing these beings were feeding off our souls or whatever, well there isn't much we can do about it other than let go and accept the fear. I think the way these drugs put these thoughts in our heads all relate to that principle lesson. You have no choice but to let go and hope for a positive outcome.

Personally the people I've met who've taken psychedelics and the thing that we've all helped to create (i.e the global psychedelic scene and its general consensus of peace & love) fill me with positive hope, or even knowledge. These things seem to gradually cause you to download a blueprint to utopia and that's an important point to remember, because if fear governs this world, then you're not going to have any hope of permanently residing in their heavenly worlds.

Having such thoughts is horrible. And while time heals, ultimately the only way to heal regards the choice you make. And basically it all comes down to this, you've taken the red pill, accept it. Earth, that's the blue pill. Fancy any more of them blue pills? I certainly don't. I suggest quite simply not entertaining such thoughts in your mind. Be meditative and concise in your actions, and disregard them. They don't serve you.

Since I've veered slightly off topic I'll tie this in with what I said earlier about it relating to the OP's post. It is a common theme on DMT that you're only allowed into their world if you let go. A lot of what happens is metaphorical and you need to read between the lines to understand.

Your friend was told he wasn't allowed in, and tried to stop you, but you tried to enter anyway (disregarding the fear). The entity was friendly, but then you basically told yourself you weren't allowed in (accepting the fear). Your friend was right to try again.

Keep at it and work on living without fear; I'm sure you'll get into that carnival.

 

[Candiety]

we looked up and the clouds and realised that they weren't as clear as usual, they looked like slightly pixelated snowflakes conducting an energy grid and they seemed a lot closer that usual.

Yip I can totally relate to this as well. Ever since smoking weed I've experienced a red static (known as visual snow) on my vision at a night time. With my first psychedelic experience (with salvia, in the dark) I saw this morph into what I've always dubbed the 'reality grid'.

My friend also pointed out one day whilst lying on our backs in a park that there were small orbs of energy pinging about the blue sky, and after being notified, I could see them too. I've since found out that it's called Blue Field Entoptic Phenomenon (Not to be confused with floaters on your retina).

It's mind blowing enough to think that according to science they are actually white blood cells and you can see them, but I like to think that it's all tied into some kind of energy/reality grid. It certainly seems that way on psychedelics.

Also, I've seen them floating down from the sky before on MDMA on a couple of occasions, and even shown them to my friend buzzing round outside a window. On MDMA they always appear to be some kind of living organisms (so certainly interesting that science calls them 'sprites' ). The time they rained from the sky was WEIRD.

Last thing because I've blathered on quite a bit, but anyway your cat entity/goddess. Anything like this artwork by Luke Brown maybe? It's called Luke Brown - Cat Goddess. Fucking cool either way!

*****My original response to iAwakenU was deleted, so here it is again:

Yip, I've had those thoughts, as I'm sure most of us have. I've spent many, many moments of time pondering things like this.

And this ties in with the original poster and how I was going to describe what his original post meant to me. The main message seems to be; let go of that fucking fear. Humanity is plagued by it, it's sick; we're sick. And it's all because of fear

Supposing these beings were feeding off our souls or whatever, well there isn't much we can do about it other than let go and accept the fear. I think the way these drugs put these thoughts in our heads all relate to that principle lesson. You have no choice but to let go and hope for a positive outcome.

Personally the people I've met who've taken psychedelics and the thing that we've all helped to create (i.e the global psychedelic scene and its general consensus of peace & love) fill me with positive hope, or even knowledge. These things seem to gradually cause you to download a blueprint to utopia and that's an important point to remember, because if fear governs this world, then you're not going to have any hope of permanently residing in their heavenly worlds.

Having such thoughts is horrible. And while time heals, ultimately the only way to heal regards the choice you make. And basically it all comes down to this, you've taken the red pill, accept it. Earth, that's the blue pill. Fancy any more of them blue pills? I certainly don't. I suggest quite simply not entertaining such thoughts in your mind. Be meditative and concise in your actions, and disregard them. They don't serve you.

Since I've veered slightly off topic I'll tie this in with what I said earlier about it relating to the OP's post. It is a common theme on DMT that you're only allowed into their world if you let go. A lot of what happens is metaphorical and you need to read between the lines to understand.

Your friend was told he wasn't allowed in, and tried to stop you, but you tried to enter anyway (disregarding the fear). The entity was friendly, but then you basically told yourself you weren't allowed in (accepting the fear). Your friend was right to try again.

Keep at it and work on living without fear; I'm sure you'll get into that carnival.

 

[Lotus Petals]

Good to finally know what the white dots are! I also always thought they were part of the "reality grid". Makes sense once you've tripped and seen everything turn to a grid. Also, I saw some colored bouncing balls one time when I tripped on something called 'Indian Tobacco'. Not sure what that was.

Sorry I'm not quoting right. Haven't quite figured that out yet.

 

[TheGreenArrow]

In regards to the original post. At the end he'd said that he was put into this space of white light. In my experiences this is a very common theme usually relegating itself to the last quarter of the initial breakthrough.
Anybody else have this same experience? Any chance you'd like to expand/ explain your thoughts on this?