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[catfishjohn]

love is life is hurt the blame the same as the life led in pain for those we save the cost the same as the love we pay for the love we stay for the way were made to move away from the same love that started it all makes us build up the wall tear down the wall say fuck it all not answer the call walk away from the dark night pray to god to restore the light trust in the sight expect end of night coming of dawn staying strong wont let it get me down takes effort to frown numb? not now.. how? detached now.. faith somehow somewhere ill care again free to be me someday maybe oh and i hope it comes soon then now i knew maybe its true its all for you doesnt matter now cant return to cycles how i pray i am right it kinda figures we will fight but trust me truly its all with reason every season every lesson the love ever present okay i say new day same riddle same rhymes but new meanings all changing rearranging till its time to go my own truths to know its alright i deserve the bliss as well as the plight

 

[catfishjohn]

addicted.. yea admittedly
regretfully? not quite see..
quite naturally
forced on me
learned as well as let be
though iv changed see
still working on it
maybe better maybe never
but hope still
still trying
still have will
not dying
not today
must be someway
let it all go
seek to know
and endure without running
without numbing
dont need escape
anyway cant get away
just move along i say
said it all a million ways
its just you and me
alone with my hope
perhaps its meant to be this way
cant really say
the reasons my own i make it
i cant wait anymore
have to embrace it
free at last my futures passed

 

[Perceptual Reality]

Premeditated dictatorship paved the way,
controlled the costs that you pay,
held the key to the cage,
yet we stay slaves to the mage,
hypnosis page to page,
understanding is believing,
peaceful thinking is relieving,
the precedence is the being,
live life like youre dead, die like your alive
for these foolish instincts we strive,
an alternative life we deny,
undermining our own potential shell,
walking hand and hand with the devil towards hell,
our soul we sell for a price,
the end of any spiritual life on earth we entice,
preaching only one color to the skin of christ,
righteous manifestations forsaken,
positivity mistaken,
breech the thought of man, reveal the universe in a grain of sand,
debrand yourself and be independent,
together we fight the negative descendants,
puncture the will of thought to the core of the cause,
paint the structure of depth and time to a pause,
a generation of lost, ascending with a cost,
to break the mental chain to the mother brain,
pendulum of misconception, revolutionary deception,
brought forth by the will of those who mention,
mention obamas not a president, understand that we're not residents
we're slaves to the keepers of time, further shining light to the blind
yet i find myself repeating in my mind:
(Chorus):
"I cannot stumble here, I am safe inside my head.....
When i wake up ill fall again, i'll come back to my mess...."

Something i made a while back.....

Much love & Sincerity,
Perceptual Reality

 

[catfishjohn]

abstinence is the pleasure of waiting till never
when nows passed never lasts
let it go what you dont want to know
try again maybe then ready when knowing zen
oh it takes time to realize
and critics love to criticize
downsized brain fried tongue tied
feeling resigned let it pass give yourself a chance
hope for the moment take heed of omens
trust your instincts without within them
with all of the passages faith in love everlasting
outcast from the rest that pass oh so gracefully
awakened they realize the wrong of their sin
remembering when
forbid temptations heres to waiting
elating evading wading in the water
now the waters on you in you what to do
gonna wait it out
shed my doubt
faith carries me through out
always knowing rarely showing
forces lend their invisible hands
with their support alone i stand
me my own man have some faults of my own
those not shown twist in silent side
though the truth i cant always hide
i am working to mend my ways
i tend myself through the dark days
alone i endure to seek what lifes for