I have no trouble letting go, that's not it. I have a fear of flying, airports are fear factories, they freak me out. I find the whole process of getting on a plane so stressful that by the time I'm in the seat, and before the plane has taken off, I am outta there, I am asleep. I let goooo....

DMT is not the same, but it has similarities. I meditate before I take off. I almost fall asleep, in fact, I kind if nap in my chair, with my loaded head-canon next to me. Then when I am calm and breezy, take off.

What freaked me out was the difference in character. There had been a common thread through all my introductory launches, jester-techno-garden-hyper-colour-widget-land. Then, out of the light it all turned very very dark, pitch black, nothing. I had no choice but to surrender, that was not an issue. I simply shit myself when my entire existence was turned to black in a sinister vacuum of nothingness.