Wow.

I feel for you and commend your courage at writing it up.

Did you weigh your dose?

I know this feeling. I have only felt it once when, in my opinion,

I took too much in one hit... with the right intention and went deeeeep.

I think it is important to remember, this is a tryptamine. It is extremely powerful.

It is only your mind. Many people have done exactly what you have done.

I know how ridiculous this may sound in your position, as

it felt more real than here. I too, in the first few seconds remember the

feeling of being trapped, that it was a trap and they had been waiting

for me to toke to trap me in a box and drop me into the infinite,

to kill me under the carrier wave. All my other trips had been

candy to lure me into the trap. Over time I actually learned

a lot from those aliens that trapped me. That they were not aliens.

And that I actually learned some beneficial aspects and spiritual

practices for my life. It would sound absolutely crazy to most

people, but I am lucky to have open minded friends and companions

who have also had amazingly bizarre experiences with the molecule.

Remember, it is just your brain. It is a very mysterious organ

under the influence of a very mysterious chemical that triggers

mysterious biological functions... this is however conjecture.

The reality is though, you are not possessed and you were not possessed

by anything other than the noggin octopus that sits atop your eyes in a trance.

Remember that. Apart of the experience is feeling and seeing beyond

yourself, but this experience is very much apart of yourself.

You were in fact possessed by only yourself. Your mind is a

very comprehensive mechanism.

I look at these experiences as puzzles. I think once the message

is understood over days, that can be the most difficult part.

Over time however this is what separates this drug from others.

You may find yourself realizing a great many things

about your life and life in general. Like, Tattvamasi,

said: take some time off. Live life, contemplate the

experience but try not to obsess over it. I have seen

positive effects occur in those that I have smoked out,

even those who have had difficult times with subs.

When I was in your position I honestly found comfort in valium

and talking to close friends if it is too difficult to integrate

on your lonesome. If you go back, start small. And work your way

back to your comfort zone. You obviously realize now,

DMT is not something to take carelessly.

I wish you well and a speedy recovery back

to normality.