Thank you for sharing this powerful and moving account of your  experience. It's especially good to hear of how a skillful ceremony has brought you so much progress.

Regarding your reframing of your troubled childhood, from a personal perspective on what could be the next steps: peeling back the layers of accumulated experience of our forefathers - parents, grandparents, ever back through the generations - we come to see how emotional coldness and other aspects of, shall we say, sub-optimal parenting, all have their roots far down that chain of karma. In my own case, finding out some stuff about my grandparents and great grandparents really made a big difference for me. It's perhaps easy to see how, especially given the history of y/our region, generational trauma plays its role in all of this.

Regarding the ceremony, were there any particular aspects of it that you felt to be most significant in guiding or otherwise manifesting the degree of healing which you've encountered? How might you envisage applying these aspects to future, solo journeys?

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Peace, strength and inspiration to you for the year ahead! Tf