pseudofakee
Rising Star
G'Day to y'all .
I first stumbled here in a hedonistic trance many years ago . I took what I could like a succubus , scouring through extraction TEKS . On the end of an LSD fueled , THC filled year I extracted an ounce of crystal for a friend. Preparing some changa myself , I of course dabbled, yet most of the time I would get hit in the face and black-out ... perhaps circumstances were not quite right .....
Over the course of the next three years I systematically eliminated substances and 'things' of abuse from my sphere of experience . I went from reading Huxley and Watts , to Nagarjuna and the Norbu's . Unfortunately , as it seems, fundamentalism of any type is not my path .
After sharing a cannabis filled pipe with a friend a month or so ago a spark was rekindled, the existential questions and unending polemical dialectics seemed to fade , there was an intensity in freedom from this suffering that was unmatched from sitting down .
I realized I had become attached to the path , I saw the Dharma as the only way to freedom , saw everyone else as deluded ... yet here I am... in the midst of the greatest delusion of all .
I'm sure this is an all too common story , so to save you from any more existential philosophizing I will bring things to an end . I would like to thank everyone whom contributes to places such as these , for that which is beyond words requires many fingers . For me , I am reentering into this domain with the intention to continue my exploration into the unknown , for the alleviation of my own and others suffering .
Much love to you all
I first stumbled here in a hedonistic trance many years ago . I took what I could like a succubus , scouring through extraction TEKS . On the end of an LSD fueled , THC filled year I extracted an ounce of crystal for a friend. Preparing some changa myself , I of course dabbled, yet most of the time I would get hit in the face and black-out ... perhaps circumstances were not quite right .....
Over the course of the next three years I systematically eliminated substances and 'things' of abuse from my sphere of experience . I went from reading Huxley and Watts , to Nagarjuna and the Norbu's . Unfortunately , as it seems, fundamentalism of any type is not my path .
After sharing a cannabis filled pipe with a friend a month or so ago a spark was rekindled, the existential questions and unending polemical dialectics seemed to fade , there was an intensity in freedom from this suffering that was unmatched from sitting down .
I realized I had become attached to the path , I saw the Dharma as the only way to freedom , saw everyone else as deluded ... yet here I am... in the midst of the greatest delusion of all .
I'm sure this is an all too common story , so to save you from any more existential philosophizing I will bring things to an end . I would like to thank everyone whom contributes to places such as these , for that which is beyond words requires many fingers . For me , I am reentering into this domain with the intention to continue my exploration into the unknown , for the alleviation of my own and others suffering .
Much love to you all
