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My upbringing ultimately made me fearful and skeptical. I had to struggle to find some courage. I'm ashamed of how timid i've been.

Chirality? I don't know enough about chemistry to even pose the appropriate question, let alone speculate upon the answer.

because i was unsure of the purity of this batch(it was pinkish white as apposed to amber), i initially loaded her up with 20-25mgs. i still think there's a disparity in our abilities to get large concentrated hits, but she's a seasoned pot smoker, as am i, so i dunno. after she smoked the bowl clean, she immediately informed me that this wasn't going to hit the spot, so i, as quickly as i could, prepared another bowl for her with 75-85mgs of the pinkish crystalline powder, and handed her the bowl and lighter.

i examined the bowl afterward (by attempting to smoke any remaining residue, with no effects), and assumed that she had gotten the lion's share of the spice, with some, of course, being consumed by the flame. apparently she kept her eyes open during this trip as i have on both my breakthroughs, but i was unaware of this when she was in hyperspace because i deliberately positioned myself out of her line of sight in the room. i also tried to keep as silent as possible, letting her have her time.

i'll leave it to her to describe her experience on this forum is she ever happens to be so moved. the whole of the experience has been orders of magnitude more profound for me than it has for her, and i attribute that to my being willfully closed for so long, while her path has not had this theme.

"it's different for everyone".

thank you. it's real. it has changed my behavior and the way i consider my actions when dealing with other people, animals, my own emotions. i want to be a better person. i see how i have been so wrapped up in myself, which, i suppose, is part of the process. this joy wants me to do whatever i can to create more joy, for me, for the people i love, for total strangers. i'm a musician, and never before have i felt more of a sense of this talent i have being a gift i have to share.

it's a whole new world.

i'm looking at the teks, but the only chemistry experience i have is making butane honey oil from mj, which is the simplest thing ever. i'm confident that none of the teks are beyond my ability to execute, but i'm interested in one that wouldn't require my gf to go through too much anxiety. manufacturing a schedule 1 substance in your home is no laughing matter.

i have a 100mg dose that i'm waiting to take. i still have some integration to do. the experience and it's accompanying emotions are just beneath the surface of every moment of my day. i even experienced sleep paralysis for the first time in years this morning, and for the first time in a lifetime of episodes of sleep paralysis, the entity i was aware of wasn't malevolent at all. i can remember zero details.

thanks all.

<blockquote data-quote="Shiva H. Vishnu" data-source="post: 3383243" data-attributes="member: 6544">My upbringing ultimately made me fearful and skeptical. I had to struggle to find some courage. I&#039;m ashamed of how timid i&#039;ve been.Chirality? I don&#039;t know enough about chemistry to even pose the appropriate question, let alone speculate upon the answer.because i was unsure of the purity of this batch(it was pinkish white as apposed to amber), i initially loaded her up with 20-25mgs. i still think there&#039;s a disparity in our abilities to get large concentrated hits, but she&#039;s a seasoned pot smoker, as am i, so i dunno. after she smoked the bowl clean, she immediately informed me that this wasn&#039;t going to hit the spot, so i, as quickly as i could, prepared another bowl for her with 75-85mgs of the pinkish crystalline powder, and handed her the bowl and lighter.i examined the bowl afterward (by attempting to smoke any remaining residue, with no effects), and assumed that she had gotten the lion&#039;s share of the spice, with some, of course, being consumed by the flame. apparently she kept her eyes open during this trip as i have on both my breakthroughs, but i was unaware of this when she was in hyperspace because i deliberately positioned myself out of her line of sight in the room. i also tried to keep as silent as possible, letting her have her time.i&#039;ll leave it to her to describe her experience on this forum is she ever happens to be so moved. the whole of the experience has been orders of magnitude more profound for me than it has for her, and i attribute that to my being willfully closed for so long, while her path has not had this theme.&quot;it&#039;s different for everyone&quot;.thank you. it&#039;s real. it has changed my behavior and the way i consider my actions when dealing with other people, animals, my own emotions. i want to be a better person. i see how i have been so wrapped up in myself, which, i suppose, is part of the process. this joy wants me to do whatever i can to create more joy, for me, for the people i love, for total strangers. i&#039;m a musician, and never before have i felt more of a sense of this talent i have being a gift i have to share.it&#039;s a whole new world.i&#039;m looking at the teks, but the only chemistry experience i have is making butane honey oil from mj, which is the simplest thing ever. i&#039;m confident that none of the teks are beyond my ability to execute, but i&#039;m interested in one that wouldn&#039;t require my gf to go through too much anxiety. manufacturing a schedule 1 substance in your home is no laughing matter.i have a 100mg dose that i&#039;m waiting to take. i still have some integration to do. the experience and it&#039;s accompanying emotions are just beneath the surface of every moment of my day. i even experienced sleep paralysis for the first time in years this morning, and for the first time in a lifetime of episodes of sleep paralysis, the entity i was aware of wasn&#039;t malevolent at all. i can remember zero details.thanks all.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="Shiva H. Vishnu, post: 3383243, member: 6544"] My upbringing ultimately made me fearful and skeptical. I had to struggle to find some courage. I'm ashamed of how timid i've been. Chirality? I don't know enough about chemistry to even pose the appropriate question, let alone speculate upon the answer. because i was unsure of the purity of this batch(it was pinkish white as apposed to amber), i initially loaded her up with 20-25mgs. i still think there's a disparity in our abilities to get large concentrated hits, but she's a seasoned pot smoker, as am i, so i dunno. after she smoked the bowl clean, she immediately informed me that this wasn't going to hit the spot, so i, as quickly as i could, prepared another bowl for her with 75-85mgs of the pinkish crystalline powder, and handed her the bowl and lighter. i examined the bowl afterward (by attempting to smoke any remaining residue, with no effects), and assumed that she had gotten the lion's share of the spice, with some, of course, being consumed by the flame. apparently she kept her eyes open during this trip as i have on both my breakthroughs, but i was unaware of this when she was in hyperspace because i deliberately positioned myself out of her line of sight in the room. i also tried to keep as silent as possible, letting her have her time. i'll leave it to her to describe her experience on this forum is she ever happens to be so moved. the whole of the experience has been orders of magnitude more profound for me than it has for her, and i attribute that to my being willfully closed for so long, while her path has not had this theme. "it's different for everyone". thank you. it's real. it has changed my behavior and the way i consider my actions when dealing with other people, animals, my own emotions. i want to be a better person. i see how i have been so wrapped up in myself, which, i suppose, is part of the process. this joy wants me to do whatever i can to create more joy, for me, for the people i love, for total strangers. i'm a musician, and never before have i felt more of a sense of this talent i have being a gift i have to share. it's a whole new world. i'm looking at the teks, but the only chemistry experience i have is making butane honey oil from mj, which is the simplest thing ever. i'm confident that none of the teks are beyond my ability to execute, but i'm interested in one that wouldn't require my gf to go through too much anxiety. manufacturing a schedule 1 substance in your home is no laughing matter. i have a 100mg dose that i'm waiting to take. i still have some integration to do. the experience and it's accompanying emotions are just beneath the surface of every moment of my day. i even experienced sleep paralysis for the first time in years this morning, and for the first time in a lifetime of episodes of sleep paralysis, the entity i was aware of wasn't malevolent at all. i can remember zero details. thanks all. [/QUOTE]