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Cavemen

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Hello fellow members,

I have been very interested in spirituality and the use of psychedelics to tap into different mental states for quite some time. As a young teenager, I was extremely skeptical of people who claimed to see alien entities, experience higher states of being, etc.

My first experience was with Salvia divinorum at the start of adulthood. This plant showed me that there was more to me than I thought there was. It scared me away for months. I was convinced that what I saw was just as real as everyday life so I continued looking further.

Next, I was given some Psilocybe cubensis mushrooms by a friend. At that point, I had no idea what to take out of the experience. I don't think I could have done it without my friend's wisdom. He gave me many useful hints on integration.

Months later, I did LSD with a few buddies and discovered so much about myself that was always in the back of my mind but was hard to access normally. I learned to integrate these understandings later on.

Another year or two later, I discovered the literature and talks of Terrence Mckenna. At first I thought the guy was completely insane. Now I realize that many of his ideas make perfect sense. After some more practice with Ipomoea tricolor seeds, I learned how to tap into these altered states without any drugs.

I have yet to try DMT, but I think I am ready to tackle this beast. I will wait for the day it finds me. I am beginning to gain a serious interest in other entheogens as well.

I am glad to be a part of something so beautiful.
Thanks for listening.:)
 
Welcome my friend. You will probably benefit from trying spice at least once! I voted for your promotion to full member!
 
Thanks for the love, guys. I really appreciate the helpfulness of the people on this forum. Especially on chat. Humbling group of psychonauts.

I just experienced a syrian rue + morning glory combo a couple days ago. That was one of the most overwhelming times I ever had! Consider it warmup for the ayahuasca I am ingesting this spring!
 
Cavemen, sounds like a fairly smooth progression. Mine is somewhat similar, although I spent more time with LSD than with mushrooms. In total, it's still very much like that, but I have a much deepened interest in mushrooms now. Basically, I'm becoming more and more aware of all the strange forms of wisdom there are out there, the differently oriented information that comes from spaces that aren't spaces. So I will continue experimentation. Honestly, when things give me a sense of real awe, and seem to alchemically boil away some of the negative and superfluous programming, I appreciate and respect. These things strike as me as simply things in or connected to other layers of reality, equally real, only not detectable through the 'instrument' of the non-altered (non-focused or specifically unfocused) consciousness/nervous system. The truly scientific, the truly philosophical, the truly spiritual and religious, all have stake in and would benefit from having real interest in these agents. The term entheogen says it all.

Anyways, I've only had two DMT experiences to date, colorfully (I hope) described in my own intro essay, and they were in the form of changa, which is essentially a type of smokable ayahuasca, only in the sense that there is an MAO inhibiting property in some of the plant mixture to slightly boost the DMT (which has been applied by a solution then evaporated onto the plant mixture, this is originally an Australian innovation--to my understanding--and I understand that using the Acacia tree as the DMT source is a common choice. Consider my explanation of changa very rough and inexpert, but I think you get the idea. It's basically like smoking DMT, but perhaps lasting more like 9-14 minutes (in my experience) rather than the standard 7-9 minutes (I don't have a good basis for comparison). Also there is already an admixture element, so it's not as tricky as smoking (actually, vaporizing) crystal DMT, in fact it's as easy as smoking cannabis, from a procedural standpoint.

Getting back on track, both experiences were amazing and life-changing, and I attribute a large part of that to mentally preparing (reading endlessly, experience stories, non-fiction, etc.) and to urging myself to become increasingly familiar with and comfortable with any other psychedelic experience. Of course, these things are all totally different beasts of different colors, but I think that any pioneering effort towards ego-minimized (or ego-less) exploration of the void (or any other type of parallel 'space') helps regardless of the differences. Although, to put it on a spectrum, LSD is like jalapeno, DMT is like Naga Jolica, the hottest chili pepper there is, well past even habanero. It's way up there, so you're doing right by all your preparations. I also spent more time meditating and really challenging myself, reading stories with both positive overtones and very dark ones as well.

My friend who was my sitter/guide and was a longtime mutual appreciator of psychedelic experiences before that impressed upon me a similar attitude as you've described. Let it find you. Or rather, feel free to put feelers out there, but allow that it will find you at an appropriate time that is ultimately beyond your control. The initial wait is like a monastic retreat before getting your first big dose of secrets. And there is one (probably only one) thing I can tell you with certainty, you will be utterly surprised, utterly taken aback, utterly touched and infused with some knowledge when you do break through. Sometimes the message is a bitter pill, but at the end of the day medicinal, and learning something key about life is worth a bit of a challenge and feels quite extraordinary.

If I had to choose only one word to describe my experiences, I'd go with 'vibration'. Even just reading other experiences and thinking about it gives me a peculiar version of a shiver. Imagine that the giant, deep, resonating AAAAAAAUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMM of a hundred Buddhist monks unfolds itself into a physical 3-dimensional bubble before you that envelops you, and within it exists another dimension of life--seeing it is like being the first scientist to put a droplet of water under a microscope--and through sound and vibration, information that transcends all language and cultural associations is telepathically imparted, but only to those who can learn how to listen the right way.

I'm keen to learn more about Ipomoea tricolor seeds, I shall go net exploring. Thanks for the bio and the curiosity, it's what we all share. We're all searching for the ways to feel the most alive and connected with that around us. We even take risks in order to be able to do it. Rebel shamans, all. I'd continue preparing myself for the eventual and probably inevitable experience(s). Then share. I haven't been able to post anything new for lack of any DMT experiences, but I've had a fantastic run of positive LSD sessions this winter. And I'm still reading a lot about ayahuasca (looking forward to this, waiting for the right chance), shamanism, psychedelics, etc. Also, like you, Terence McKenna was a huge huge influence on me. An utter genius, whose ability to speak in highly intellectual shades and use inflection in such a way that the message transcends the words and people understand him regardless of the how dense he lets his metaphors grow actually is the perfect analogy for the ultra-lingual communication of his self-transforming machine elves, communicating in a kind of living language.

Sounds like you will meet the mother spirit of the earth this spring. She will wrestle something important out of you that will benefit you greatly. I'm looking forward to my progression through these things and to gain knowledge from others. Look forward to hearing more from you.
 
I enjoyed that, illuminatrix.

Changa is definitely something I will look into more.
 
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