Betaphenethylamine
Rising Star
- Merits
- 42
Hello Nexians,
Recently not more than 12 hours ago I experienced something beyond my understanding. It is very calming and relieving to have a community like this who is friendly in sharing these experiences with one another and not quick to criticize. My voyages to hyperspace are occasional. But I never expected what I'm going to share with you all today.
SWIM had prepared a few milliliters of Syrian rue tea that was taken first before the onset of the experience. Another dose of Acacia was drank right after the tea. SWIM was about to try formoaya in all its richness. This was taken at 4 a.m. the first two we then waited an hour for the MAO-Inhibitor to break down to that beautiful enzyme that we all know very well. For a moment I could feel the MAO-Inhibitor doing its job in my body a very strange feeling crept down my spine. The whole time before the experience my mind was at a paranoid state from the many experiences that I read people kept mentioning the purge and possible defecation that got me on my toes. Luckily I only purged once and felt relieved cause I began too feel less nauseous. SWIM did this in the desert near the Colorado river in Arizona. We settled ourselves in, rested then camped next to the cozy fire. My original plan was to visit the Springs but we lost the trail twice and went 2-3 hours off course. The temperature was very cold due to the sand and also how close we were to the river. The ambiance was perfect aside from all the bats and cricket noises it was all very peaceful. After inducing the first two bottles of proportional doses SWIM drank the next large dose of formoaya(Acacia) and bottoms up we go. Now we play the waiting at around 6 a.m. I was completely absorbed by the experience. I felt very uncomfortable because of the cold I stretched a little and felt very strange to my body and the movement's seemed to stick and coil. This is when the nausea settled in very quickly but also very subtle I could hold back from the purge but not for long. I then looked at the floor in front of me and everything went side ways, quickly escalating. Fear, panic, discomfort all came like a tidal wave. At around this point the ants were waking up I could see them crawling out of every crevice towards me even the dead ones with their bodies torn in half they seemed to manage. After a bit I closed my eyes and laying my head at the floor in front of me. What happens next is quite shocking and I'm still trying to figure it all out. A person who has never experienced anything like this would call me insane and diagnose me as a borderline schizophrenic thanks to a community like this one we can avoid those disasters and still remain in a populace that can discuss this with little to none of the judgmental feedback
When I closed my eyes and looked at the floor in front of me a platform / elevator appeared in front of me. I was shot three star systems away from here and ended up kneeling on this platform rising to a place of pure gold nothing but yellow. When I looked up at there world they showed me many geometrical symbols of squares and rectangles coming out of a diamond shape that was unraveled by a golden archetype entity who was very very big made of gold and the face of a Moai from Easter Island. His head or the top of his head was carrying a city of some sort not advanced but very much like a castle and they walked on these big golden sidewalks that was obviously made for things of that size. Moments later I was inducted to their kind and they knighted me one of them. After this I was left to roam around there world I looked up at one of these Moai and asked him for directions to a shaman he just looked at me for a moment then went back to his usual business. At this point I caught a glimpse of what I looked like, I was this little frail boy standing next to an entity whose shins were the only body part I could see. I was wearing a toga and a rope sash around my waist they seemed to resemble Greek culture very much myself and these Moai were wearing Krepis on their feet. And the top of my head wore a crown of plants and leaves. I think it was specifying that I am a visitor and the head peace meant I was from Earth. I think! After a little while the ambiance began to speak they had me lean over both ears and I felt something talking a faint voice in the background sent through the quick buzzing of a fly next to my ears. I could see visually a DNA strand tying itself through my ears. They did this to both my ears. I could see a coil of some sort being pressed into me meanwhile they were speaking through me. Just when I thought it was over they left me to roam in there space. My Ego got the better of me and I was convinced I was lost in hyperspace. Then an angel spoke to me, I said to myself, "I am lost, I am alone, I am abandoned" a woman leaned over me and said, "you are never alone" not anymore at-least I thought to my self. I then asked "If I disobey you do I get punished" she replies, "Punish! no we don't hurt here, we just love" Then like a shroud she held me close. Like the comforting of a mother. I went back to hyperspace only to get a sense of where I am. The entities didn't like the fact that I was questioning where I am. It is obvious I am in the universe, but the question felt more general(X,Y). Few moments later I got lost again brushing aside unfamiliar entities and avoiding vibrations that weren't similar to the Moai people. I was forcefully trying to find these entities on my own. Very quickly I said to myself,"What if I don't have to find them", "what if they find me". The minute I said this I returned to them in an instant this time they had me play with my imagination. My thoughts were very naughty but it didn't seem to matter, moments later an evil entity approached me and wanted to get inside me. It reached into the most inner depth of some part of me I think it was my mind that it was going I could see it slime its way into me. Thankfully those good entities I met earlier gave me an armor to wear. I could hear the chafing of the metal and the loud noise of someone smelting iron and fashioning weapons for war. It was obvious that this armor would protect me. Even in that dark realm my garments shined through. The evil entity took notice and made a rewind of the similar sly moves it pulled before. It still lingered from here for a few moments I was beginning to listen to everything around me at once all noise, all in one happening. Towards the end of my scheduled program I was mainly having fun with the experience; laughing, hearing, breathing, and just being. It was very obvious when you start to lose connection everything becomes more narrow and you feel so rejuvenated. I had been feeling really sick but now I felt better than ever before. I very much looking forward to try it again maybe i'll take mushrooms next time along with it.
Thank you all for reading, please comment I am interested in similar experiences like these. Be it good or evil and beyond.:!:
Recently not more than 12 hours ago I experienced something beyond my understanding. It is very calming and relieving to have a community like this who is friendly in sharing these experiences with one another and not quick to criticize. My voyages to hyperspace are occasional. But I never expected what I'm going to share with you all today.
SWIM had prepared a few milliliters of Syrian rue tea that was taken first before the onset of the experience. Another dose of Acacia was drank right after the tea. SWIM was about to try formoaya in all its richness. This was taken at 4 a.m. the first two we then waited an hour for the MAO-Inhibitor to break down to that beautiful enzyme that we all know very well. For a moment I could feel the MAO-Inhibitor doing its job in my body a very strange feeling crept down my spine. The whole time before the experience my mind was at a paranoid state from the many experiences that I read people kept mentioning the purge and possible defecation that got me on my toes. Luckily I only purged once and felt relieved cause I began too feel less nauseous. SWIM did this in the desert near the Colorado river in Arizona. We settled ourselves in, rested then camped next to the cozy fire. My original plan was to visit the Springs but we lost the trail twice and went 2-3 hours off course. The temperature was very cold due to the sand and also how close we were to the river. The ambiance was perfect aside from all the bats and cricket noises it was all very peaceful. After inducing the first two bottles of proportional doses SWIM drank the next large dose of formoaya(Acacia) and bottoms up we go. Now we play the waiting at around 6 a.m. I was completely absorbed by the experience. I felt very uncomfortable because of the cold I stretched a little and felt very strange to my body and the movement's seemed to stick and coil. This is when the nausea settled in very quickly but also very subtle I could hold back from the purge but not for long. I then looked at the floor in front of me and everything went side ways, quickly escalating. Fear, panic, discomfort all came like a tidal wave. At around this point the ants were waking up I could see them crawling out of every crevice towards me even the dead ones with their bodies torn in half they seemed to manage. After a bit I closed my eyes and laying my head at the floor in front of me. What happens next is quite shocking and I'm still trying to figure it all out. A person who has never experienced anything like this would call me insane and diagnose me as a borderline schizophrenic thanks to a community like this one we can avoid those disasters and still remain in a populace that can discuss this with little to none of the judgmental feedback
When I closed my eyes and looked at the floor in front of me a platform / elevator appeared in front of me. I was shot three star systems away from here and ended up kneeling on this platform rising to a place of pure gold nothing but yellow. When I looked up at there world they showed me many geometrical symbols of squares and rectangles coming out of a diamond shape that was unraveled by a golden archetype entity who was very very big made of gold and the face of a Moai from Easter Island. His head or the top of his head was carrying a city of some sort not advanced but very much like a castle and they walked on these big golden sidewalks that was obviously made for things of that size. Moments later I was inducted to their kind and they knighted me one of them. After this I was left to roam around there world I looked up at one of these Moai and asked him for directions to a shaman he just looked at me for a moment then went back to his usual business. At this point I caught a glimpse of what I looked like, I was this little frail boy standing next to an entity whose shins were the only body part I could see. I was wearing a toga and a rope sash around my waist they seemed to resemble Greek culture very much myself and these Moai were wearing Krepis on their feet. And the top of my head wore a crown of plants and leaves. I think it was specifying that I am a visitor and the head peace meant I was from Earth. I think! After a little while the ambiance began to speak they had me lean over both ears and I felt something talking a faint voice in the background sent through the quick buzzing of a fly next to my ears. I could see visually a DNA strand tying itself through my ears. They did this to both my ears. I could see a coil of some sort being pressed into me meanwhile they were speaking through me. Just when I thought it was over they left me to roam in there space. My Ego got the better of me and I was convinced I was lost in hyperspace. Then an angel spoke to me, I said to myself, "I am lost, I am alone, I am abandoned" a woman leaned over me and said, "you are never alone" not anymore at-least I thought to my self. I then asked "If I disobey you do I get punished" she replies, "Punish! no we don't hurt here, we just love" Then like a shroud she held me close. Like the comforting of a mother. I went back to hyperspace only to get a sense of where I am. The entities didn't like the fact that I was questioning where I am. It is obvious I am in the universe, but the question felt more general(X,Y). Few moments later I got lost again brushing aside unfamiliar entities and avoiding vibrations that weren't similar to the Moai people. I was forcefully trying to find these entities on my own. Very quickly I said to myself,"What if I don't have to find them", "what if they find me". The minute I said this I returned to them in an instant this time they had me play with my imagination. My thoughts were very naughty but it didn't seem to matter, moments later an evil entity approached me and wanted to get inside me. It reached into the most inner depth of some part of me I think it was my mind that it was going I could see it slime its way into me. Thankfully those good entities I met earlier gave me an armor to wear. I could hear the chafing of the metal and the loud noise of someone smelting iron and fashioning weapons for war. It was obvious that this armor would protect me. Even in that dark realm my garments shined through. The evil entity took notice and made a rewind of the similar sly moves it pulled before. It still lingered from here for a few moments I was beginning to listen to everything around me at once all noise, all in one happening. Towards the end of my scheduled program I was mainly having fun with the experience; laughing, hearing, breathing, and just being. It was very obvious when you start to lose connection everything becomes more narrow and you feel so rejuvenated. I had been feeling really sick but now I felt better than ever before. I very much looking forward to try it again maybe i'll take mushrooms next time along with it.
Thank you all for reading, please comment I am interested in similar experiences like these. Be it good or evil and beyond.:!:
.... I can vouch for the whole.... were never alone thing.
