open'nheart
Rising Star
iv recently become an observer of these forums and i feel its been a great resource for me thus far.
my expirience with this molecule (via the plants) is limited, but we have met. i spent last winter in south america and while i was there participated in a handful of ayahuasca ceremonies. this was an increadibly beautiful and nurturing time period for me to put it lightly. though one of my last visits with ayahuasca took me to a very difficult but ultimatly very beneficial place. the pre-drinking hesitation and anxiety was somthing i knew prior, but after that night it built upto a degree i could only bring myself to face one last time before i flew back to the states. that was over a year ago, iv always meant to go there again but am apprehensive to drink solo. lately iv become quite intrigued and drawn to the idea of smoking dmt (iv no expirience smoking). hoping to taste that space again. im curious about the similarities and differences of drinking vs. smoking (what better way to understand?!) theres somthing about all of this that i resonate with.
thus far iv been re-introducing myself slowly. i havent picked up a mg scale yet (hopefully will in the next few days), so dose is impossible to gage. all i know is right now i feel id rather go too little than too much. the thought of smoking is very exciting, but when the oppurtunity comes i find myself skiirting around a bit. right now the fear is a big part of this whole process for me, the critic in my head is telling me im not prepared or that the time could be better.... iv sat down 3 times now and each time this critics voice won out..."hmmmm just a small toke then for now". minimal effects expirienced thus far, but i think you'll be hearing from me in the future.
just wanted to say hello and express gratitue for this community that is nexus. id like to be able to tell you about a break through sometime soon.:d
my expirience with this molecule (via the plants) is limited, but we have met. i spent last winter in south america and while i was there participated in a handful of ayahuasca ceremonies. this was an increadibly beautiful and nurturing time period for me to put it lightly. though one of my last visits with ayahuasca took me to a very difficult but ultimatly very beneficial place. the pre-drinking hesitation and anxiety was somthing i knew prior, but after that night it built upto a degree i could only bring myself to face one last time before i flew back to the states. that was over a year ago, iv always meant to go there again but am apprehensive to drink solo. lately iv become quite intrigued and drawn to the idea of smoking dmt (iv no expirience smoking). hoping to taste that space again. im curious about the similarities and differences of drinking vs. smoking (what better way to understand?!) theres somthing about all of this that i resonate with.
thus far iv been re-introducing myself slowly. i havent picked up a mg scale yet (hopefully will in the next few days), so dose is impossible to gage. all i know is right now i feel id rather go too little than too much. the thought of smoking is very exciting, but when the oppurtunity comes i find myself skiirting around a bit. right now the fear is a big part of this whole process for me, the critic in my head is telling me im not prepared or that the time could be better.... iv sat down 3 times now and each time this critics voice won out..."hmmmm just a small toke then for now". minimal effects expirienced thus far, but i think you'll be hearing from me in the future.
just wanted to say hello and express gratitue for this community that is nexus. id like to be able to tell you about a break through sometime soon.:d
