Satsukiyami
Satsu =]
Namaste my beloved Nexians!
I'd like to start by saying Thank You so much for all the knowledge you guys have given me! The lessons I've learned here have become invaluable in my spiritual journey.
Now then a little about me. You can call me Satsu, I'm not technically a new member as I've been a member of these forums for a good few months now. Haven't made to many posts in the forums but if you hang out in the chats much you might see me in there asking questions or chopping it up with my fellow Nexians. Entheogenic University is definitely a very proper term for this lovely place of collective knowledge! The Chat part of these forums to me has been like being able to get Live Help from experienced teachers and fellow travelers. The community here really is quite helpful and the vibe is magnificent! I often try and help by sharing what knowledge and experiences I have in the chats, but I've been wanting to take a more active roll in the community as my knowledge of ethnobotanicals slowly starts to grow. I'm currently working on a little recovery tek (Not sure if its worthy of being called a Tek but I figure I'll post my experience) involving Acacia Confusa and recovering from an STB Extraction. That's most likely going to be my first bit of contribution to the nexus. Another thing that really has me excited is the The Nexian Magazine! I absolutely want to try my best to contribute to this in any possible way! I think an E-zine would be a GREAT addition to the nexus and would help keep us all up to date with current events and new discoveries! Nothing like a fun project to help knit a tighter community in my opinion =]
Anyways It seems I've gone off on a bit of a ramble with that last mega paragraph hahaha. Allow me to share my experiences with you.
-Enter Story Mode- (lol)
Many many moons ago... In a place far far away... I was but a lost gamer pc nerd. I was in Lake tahoe isolated away from friends and family... certain circumstances had landed me there and I wasn't doing crap with my life... Many days were lost on countless hours of video games... I had made a group of friends in my gamer communities with like minds and skills.. We jumped around many free to play mmo's meeting more and more interesting gamers...
It was around this time that it had become apparent that I needed to change the way things were going in my life so I would often go on hikes to the wilderness to reflect while enjoying the Amazing scenery lake tahoe had to provide... My favorite spot being a short hike up this trail to this huge rock that over looked the city and the lake. For some reason every time I had gone there I was blessed with a magnificent sight. About 20 or so feet above me I could watch clouds form from nothingness. Being so close to this magnificent event I was able to see the rays of sunlight striking the water molecules to create a majestic looking display of rainbow fires inside of a cloud being born. It was always such a touching sight that warmed my heart and I always left feeling amazing and charged with positive energy! Little did I know witnessing such a beautiful event would actual become the birthing point for my spiritual journey.
Now I wasn't completely shut off to spirituality... Having religion shoved down my throat from a very young age had caused me to push away from the main religious institutions but I always believed in a higher power, Source!.. Through my high school years I had read and read and read about all kinds of different metaphysical topics... witchcraft, wicca practices, numerology, divination, angels, Crystal healing, Energy work, etc.. One thing I had read in a book that I kept with me in my beliefs of the higher powers went something along the lines of.... "Imagine a Lake on top of a mountain (source), naturally the water from the top of this mountain flows downwards creating rivers, streams and creeks. Providing life to the mountain so life can flourish. Each of those rivers, streams and creeks represent different ways of believing in the same thing. No matter which way you look at it everyone is practicing the same thing, Calling to a higher power.. Following the streams and rivers to Source."
Now back to reality, I was technically stuck in Lake Tahoe so I didn't exactly know how to go about creating a change in my life I simply knew that a change was necessary... Being stuck I continued with my games... My group of gamers had decided it was time to leave our current game and conquer something new on the interwebs (yes, yes, I know I'm a nerd lol). We had decided to move onto a Private server for the game Aion... It was here in the heat of battles and pwning that I had met the person that originally taught me how to extract dreams from plants and tap into the consciousness of our the planet (DMT in my most honest opinion is like the key to the consciousness of the planet, as its in just about every living thing). I absolutely LOVE learning new things and this was something Magnificent to me! I soaked in what I could learn like a sponge!
-->> Fast Forward -->>
I had convinced my parents to let me come back home to Vegas on the grounds that I immediately enroll back into school and get a job. I absolutely refused to get back to vegas so I complied with their requests. I got a job at the corner store down the street from my house which was the spot of many fond and annoying memories and I enrolled into a computer tech school and things were looking good.... Then came the downward spiral... Eventually I had gotten laid off from my work due to my bosses not complying with business codes or something like that. On top of that I had gotten expelled from school due to attendance... The straw that broke the camels back being my folks and I getting into it over me smoking cannabis every so often as they're very traditional conservative people. So they had taken away my car and refused to give me rides anywhere (This included my school). An inevitable cause of this effect being my expulsion from school. This caused my parents to get more aggravated with me which lead to an Ultimatum: Either quit weed or leave....
Having saved up a good bit of money and meeting so many amazing friends in my community at my corner store job along with being stubborn and having a Very Strong belief that there is no wrong in smoking my herbs I naturally responded with. "Well that sucks, I Love you guys.. Deuces". With that began my ventures into independence. I moved in with one of my close friends and so began the intense roller coaster ride of 2012.
-> Fast Forward to Summer ->
A series of unfortunate events had left me almost homeless due to a lot of things that were out of my control. At this point I was just going where the current took me and I appreciate every bit of that journey for the lessons it had taught me. Moving from place to place wasn't something I was new to. I hadn't been in the same place for more then a few months in over 11 years. Amongst my circles of friends I started to hear about an eccentric fellow that called himself a shaman and would take people on spiritual journeys. (though he was far from those things. More of someone who had just slightly figured some things out and was really good at preaching, but still had A Lot of practicing to do) and would often speak of things I was already practicing. Shambhala being one of the places he claimed to be able to go on spiritual journeys too he instantly became someone I was somewhat interested in meeting as it was a place I'd been calling to in my mind for some time.
A strange turn of events had thrown me in with this so-called Shaman (Lets call him JJ) in an event that had made us both lose our places to stay. So we traveled around together. Walking around talking about our views and such. Hotel hopping day to day. We had gotten pretty close and through determination and hard work we were able to pull ourselves together and get a new place to stay with another one of my very close friends (Lets call him Flex). A place we could call our own.
-> Fast Forward ->
JJ being the supposed shaman he was had access to quite an array of hallucinogens which he called his tools for accessing the spirit world. One day he had come home with DMT. Something new that neither of us had tried before but were very very interested in trying after hearing and reading many of the deeply spiritual experiences from the spice. We had enough for 3 bowls.
JJ, Flex and I took a seat on the couch with our preferred smoking aparati loaded up and got ready. None of us new what to expect. Figuring it would be something like shrooms we figured we'd have a joint trip together... We counted down from 3, sparked up simultaneously and all of us blasted of... Though none of us went to the same place.
I shot through the ceiling up and up and up through a vortex of light and color till I ended up in a blindly majestic place of Love Light and Color. It's still hard for me to describe what this place looked like.. When I talk about the divine beauty of this place it practically brings tears of joy to my eyes. What did stick with me from that experience was the most beautiful music I've ever heard in my life! This music that calls to the very essence of my being and fills me with such benevolent energy and amazing vibrations is something that will definitely have me tearing eyed every time I think or speak of that beautiful melody. (To this day the music still calls to me during meditation.)As we all started slowly coming back to reality I remember saying as I was coming down "Ooooh my goddd do you guys hear this music!?"... We talked about each of our journeys and reflected on the visions we were given. JJ told me that the place I went to was Shabhala which made me quite happy and fulfilled.
"Duuude we need more of this! And we need to prepare ourselves more for the visions with meditation!" That's when I told him about the person I had met in the game many many moons ago that taught me how to make DMT. Being taught so long ago I had to find a place to touch up on the process. That's what lead me to this Magnificent place of education and learning! And so it began.....
Mimosa Hostilis was the first plant matter I got to work with and I am forever thankful for it was the one of the most forgiving teachers I've had so far (of the 3 extractions under my belt the other 2 being Chaliponga [Inconclusive] and my most recent one Acacia Confusa [Being prepared to test as I type this]) This gave us the most enlightening month of our lives filled with amazing visions, mystical sunrises and sunsets, and beautiful experiences.. JJ was convinced I was also a Shaman and acknowledged me as such.
From that moment I've embraced that calling whole-heartedly and try and expand on my knowledge of healing plants and light working as much as I can. Though I still only consider myself a Shaman in training. I will do what I can to do as much as I can for others through the use of natural remedies and healing techniques while opening minds and hearts to a loving peaceful way of life. Me and JJ have gone our separate ways due to some unfortunately chaotic events but still keep in contact and enjoy times in nature on occasion though its not like it was before.
Since then I've become ordained under the Universal Life Church (which accepts all religions and practices), Started practicing Nichiren Buddhism and chanting (Thanks to a lovely Angel that showed me the way), have taken an active stance in the bettering myself by toning the Mind Body and Spirit, and try and help lead through examples and sharing as much knowledge as I can. My overall quality of life has become significantly better through my journeys and experiences which have taught me so many invaluable lessons. I can't even begin to fully express the gratitude I have for the mystical ways of the universe for teaching me so much.. But I can definitely try by sharing my journeys and experiences with others =]
In a few months I'm going to be moving out of the country to the Philippines to pursue my education. I plan on mastering in business and taking any kinds of health and nutrition classes I can while I'm out there, but the biggest reason I want to go there is because one of my family members there has a plantation where he grows all kinds of healing herbs and plants that they use to make natural medicines. The Shaman in training in me wants to learn as much as I can about all the healing plants out there and possibly help create new cures. One thing I'd really like to work with is the Soursop fruit which is widely available out there. According to my research Soursop has the ability to kill cancer 100x better then chemo and its a natural remedy!! I seriously feel the need to turn it into some kind of natural pure drink that I can ship to friends and family back here in the states to help those that could benefit from this healing fruit. I truly feel like this is a major part of my calling.
Anyways.. It seems I had word vomited significantly more then I thought I would, but that's pretty much the synopsis of my story and how I came to be where I am.
Thank you very much for taking the time to read my story. Hope you enjoyed it!
Peace Love & Infinite Blessings my friends!
I'd like to start by saying Thank You so much for all the knowledge you guys have given me! The lessons I've learned here have become invaluable in my spiritual journey.
Now then a little about me. You can call me Satsu, I'm not technically a new member as I've been a member of these forums for a good few months now. Haven't made to many posts in the forums but if you hang out in the chats much you might see me in there asking questions or chopping it up with my fellow Nexians. Entheogenic University is definitely a very proper term for this lovely place of collective knowledge! The Chat part of these forums to me has been like being able to get Live Help from experienced teachers and fellow travelers. The community here really is quite helpful and the vibe is magnificent! I often try and help by sharing what knowledge and experiences I have in the chats, but I've been wanting to take a more active roll in the community as my knowledge of ethnobotanicals slowly starts to grow. I'm currently working on a little recovery tek (Not sure if its worthy of being called a Tek but I figure I'll post my experience) involving Acacia Confusa and recovering from an STB Extraction. That's most likely going to be my first bit of contribution to the nexus. Another thing that really has me excited is the The Nexian Magazine! I absolutely want to try my best to contribute to this in any possible way! I think an E-zine would be a GREAT addition to the nexus and would help keep us all up to date with current events and new discoveries! Nothing like a fun project to help knit a tighter community in my opinion =]
Anyways It seems I've gone off on a bit of a ramble with that last mega paragraph hahaha. Allow me to share my experiences with you.
-Enter Story Mode- (lol)
Many many moons ago... In a place far far away... I was but a lost gamer pc nerd. I was in Lake tahoe isolated away from friends and family... certain circumstances had landed me there and I wasn't doing crap with my life... Many days were lost on countless hours of video games... I had made a group of friends in my gamer communities with like minds and skills.. We jumped around many free to play mmo's meeting more and more interesting gamers...
It was around this time that it had become apparent that I needed to change the way things were going in my life so I would often go on hikes to the wilderness to reflect while enjoying the Amazing scenery lake tahoe had to provide... My favorite spot being a short hike up this trail to this huge rock that over looked the city and the lake. For some reason every time I had gone there I was blessed with a magnificent sight. About 20 or so feet above me I could watch clouds form from nothingness. Being so close to this magnificent event I was able to see the rays of sunlight striking the water molecules to create a majestic looking display of rainbow fires inside of a cloud being born. It was always such a touching sight that warmed my heart and I always left feeling amazing and charged with positive energy! Little did I know witnessing such a beautiful event would actual become the birthing point for my spiritual journey.
Now I wasn't completely shut off to spirituality... Having religion shoved down my throat from a very young age had caused me to push away from the main religious institutions but I always believed in a higher power, Source!.. Through my high school years I had read and read and read about all kinds of different metaphysical topics... witchcraft, wicca practices, numerology, divination, angels, Crystal healing, Energy work, etc.. One thing I had read in a book that I kept with me in my beliefs of the higher powers went something along the lines of.... "Imagine a Lake on top of a mountain (source), naturally the water from the top of this mountain flows downwards creating rivers, streams and creeks. Providing life to the mountain so life can flourish. Each of those rivers, streams and creeks represent different ways of believing in the same thing. No matter which way you look at it everyone is practicing the same thing, Calling to a higher power.. Following the streams and rivers to Source."
Now back to reality, I was technically stuck in Lake Tahoe so I didn't exactly know how to go about creating a change in my life I simply knew that a change was necessary... Being stuck I continued with my games... My group of gamers had decided it was time to leave our current game and conquer something new on the interwebs (yes, yes, I know I'm a nerd lol). We had decided to move onto a Private server for the game Aion... It was here in the heat of battles and pwning that I had met the person that originally taught me how to extract dreams from plants and tap into the consciousness of our the planet (DMT in my most honest opinion is like the key to the consciousness of the planet, as its in just about every living thing). I absolutely LOVE learning new things and this was something Magnificent to me! I soaked in what I could learn like a sponge!
-->> Fast Forward -->>
I had convinced my parents to let me come back home to Vegas on the grounds that I immediately enroll back into school and get a job. I absolutely refused to get back to vegas so I complied with their requests. I got a job at the corner store down the street from my house which was the spot of many fond and annoying memories and I enrolled into a computer tech school and things were looking good.... Then came the downward spiral... Eventually I had gotten laid off from my work due to my bosses not complying with business codes or something like that. On top of that I had gotten expelled from school due to attendance... The straw that broke the camels back being my folks and I getting into it over me smoking cannabis every so often as they're very traditional conservative people. So they had taken away my car and refused to give me rides anywhere (This included my school). An inevitable cause of this effect being my expulsion from school. This caused my parents to get more aggravated with me which lead to an Ultimatum: Either quit weed or leave....
Having saved up a good bit of money and meeting so many amazing friends in my community at my corner store job along with being stubborn and having a Very Strong belief that there is no wrong in smoking my herbs I naturally responded with. "Well that sucks, I Love you guys.. Deuces". With that began my ventures into independence. I moved in with one of my close friends and so began the intense roller coaster ride of 2012.
-> Fast Forward to Summer ->
A series of unfortunate events had left me almost homeless due to a lot of things that were out of my control. At this point I was just going where the current took me and I appreciate every bit of that journey for the lessons it had taught me. Moving from place to place wasn't something I was new to. I hadn't been in the same place for more then a few months in over 11 years. Amongst my circles of friends I started to hear about an eccentric fellow that called himself a shaman and would take people on spiritual journeys. (though he was far from those things. More of someone who had just slightly figured some things out and was really good at preaching, but still had A Lot of practicing to do) and would often speak of things I was already practicing. Shambhala being one of the places he claimed to be able to go on spiritual journeys too he instantly became someone I was somewhat interested in meeting as it was a place I'd been calling to in my mind for some time.
A strange turn of events had thrown me in with this so-called Shaman (Lets call him JJ) in an event that had made us both lose our places to stay. So we traveled around together. Walking around talking about our views and such. Hotel hopping day to day. We had gotten pretty close and through determination and hard work we were able to pull ourselves together and get a new place to stay with another one of my very close friends (Lets call him Flex). A place we could call our own.
-> Fast Forward ->
JJ being the supposed shaman he was had access to quite an array of hallucinogens which he called his tools for accessing the spirit world. One day he had come home with DMT. Something new that neither of us had tried before but were very very interested in trying after hearing and reading many of the deeply spiritual experiences from the spice. We had enough for 3 bowls.
JJ, Flex and I took a seat on the couch with our preferred smoking aparati loaded up and got ready. None of us new what to expect. Figuring it would be something like shrooms we figured we'd have a joint trip together... We counted down from 3, sparked up simultaneously and all of us blasted of... Though none of us went to the same place.
I shot through the ceiling up and up and up through a vortex of light and color till I ended up in a blindly majestic place of Love Light and Color. It's still hard for me to describe what this place looked like.. When I talk about the divine beauty of this place it practically brings tears of joy to my eyes. What did stick with me from that experience was the most beautiful music I've ever heard in my life! This music that calls to the very essence of my being and fills me with such benevolent energy and amazing vibrations is something that will definitely have me tearing eyed every time I think or speak of that beautiful melody. (To this day the music still calls to me during meditation.)As we all started slowly coming back to reality I remember saying as I was coming down "Ooooh my goddd do you guys hear this music!?"... We talked about each of our journeys and reflected on the visions we were given. JJ told me that the place I went to was Shabhala which made me quite happy and fulfilled.
"Duuude we need more of this! And we need to prepare ourselves more for the visions with meditation!" That's when I told him about the person I had met in the game many many moons ago that taught me how to make DMT. Being taught so long ago I had to find a place to touch up on the process. That's what lead me to this Magnificent place of education and learning! And so it began.....
Mimosa Hostilis was the first plant matter I got to work with and I am forever thankful for it was the one of the most forgiving teachers I've had so far (of the 3 extractions under my belt the other 2 being Chaliponga [Inconclusive] and my most recent one Acacia Confusa [Being prepared to test as I type this]) This gave us the most enlightening month of our lives filled with amazing visions, mystical sunrises and sunsets, and beautiful experiences.. JJ was convinced I was also a Shaman and acknowledged me as such.
From that moment I've embraced that calling whole-heartedly and try and expand on my knowledge of healing plants and light working as much as I can. Though I still only consider myself a Shaman in training. I will do what I can to do as much as I can for others through the use of natural remedies and healing techniques while opening minds and hearts to a loving peaceful way of life. Me and JJ have gone our separate ways due to some unfortunately chaotic events but still keep in contact and enjoy times in nature on occasion though its not like it was before.
Since then I've become ordained under the Universal Life Church (which accepts all religions and practices), Started practicing Nichiren Buddhism and chanting (Thanks to a lovely Angel that showed me the way), have taken an active stance in the bettering myself by toning the Mind Body and Spirit, and try and help lead through examples and sharing as much knowledge as I can. My overall quality of life has become significantly better through my journeys and experiences which have taught me so many invaluable lessons. I can't even begin to fully express the gratitude I have for the mystical ways of the universe for teaching me so much.. But I can definitely try by sharing my journeys and experiences with others =]
In a few months I'm going to be moving out of the country to the Philippines to pursue my education. I plan on mastering in business and taking any kinds of health and nutrition classes I can while I'm out there, but the biggest reason I want to go there is because one of my family members there has a plantation where he grows all kinds of healing herbs and plants that they use to make natural medicines. The Shaman in training in me wants to learn as much as I can about all the healing plants out there and possibly help create new cures. One thing I'd really like to work with is the Soursop fruit which is widely available out there. According to my research Soursop has the ability to kill cancer 100x better then chemo and its a natural remedy!! I seriously feel the need to turn it into some kind of natural pure drink that I can ship to friends and family back here in the states to help those that could benefit from this healing fruit. I truly feel like this is a major part of my calling.
Anyways.. It seems I had word vomited significantly more then I thought I would, but that's pretty much the synopsis of my story and how I came to be where I am.
Thank you very much for taking the time to read my story. Hope you enjoyed it!
Peace Love & Infinite Blessings my friends!
