Carrierwave
Rising Star
Hello Nexians,
My name is Chris but I'll go by Carrierwave here. I tend to reach for easy usernames on forums, although a forum of this caliber does warrant more effort. The more generic the better however, leaves people with less of a 'concept of a person' to argue with vehemently. If I called myself "Gamonth" or something it seems more like a person, and less like a thing such as "Bowl of Grapes." I digress, rather boringly, and don't expect people to argue with me, so irrelevant as well. No disrespect intended to the carrierwave.
My first memories hearing about DMT were when I was still in Highschool, a friend related to me "Did you know there is a compound that causes you to die, float out of your body, but you return once the trip is over?" He didn't say which substance it was, but learning about DMT later I realized what he must have been talking about. Granted there are plenty of substances that could induce an OBE.
Fast forward two years and I somehow end up with a new copy of Rick Stassman's book DMT: The Spirit Molecule. I can't remember why I bought the book, but I do remember carrying it around highschool unnoticed until one day.
(schoolmate I've never seen before B-lines toward me)
"Hey DMT, cool. I've taken Ayahuasca... in the jungle." (creepy arrogant/self-congratulatory way-too-long-of-a smile)
"Yeaaah... Cool...."
I waited to see if he had anything else to say, and he didn't. Very odd and I still remember it. His elitism is what struck me the most. I am vehemently opposed to elitism, and I gave up a career path in applied physics primarily because of the sheer arrogance and elitism that surrounded the entire scope of the learning process.
Back to the point, DMT sat on the back burner of my mind for roughly five years when all of the sudden in the past month it came back with a fury, a clear obsession that I now spend all my free time consumed in. When I first was being linked to the DMT Nexus it was down, and I assumed forever. Since then browsing around the information here it is a literal library on DMT. Much respect to everyone who has built this.
I've descended down many rabbit holes... DMT being the ultimate. I've read some Carlos Castaneda, Tibetan Buddhism, Rosicrucian books, lucid dreaming, hypnosis, and found my way to 9/11 Truth and settled down. Never went into Annunaki/Tiamat/Reptoid/2012/Moon-made-of-cheese fantasy land. I appreciate their desire to seek, but personally I am too agnostic to bother building a world view on things I cannot experience.
I've always wanted to be a Chemist, always had an interest in the depths of my mind, the idea that Castaneda presents of consciously traveling through alien worlds is remarkable. I also like the idea of exposing my psyche to sheer terror in the event that it may occur. Those experiences have been the best and worst of my life, and I revel in their learning potential. Insert some kind of "from the hottest fires comes the strongest steel" phrase.
I've had several sober experience of merely walking through a hallway, being completely struck with my own mortality and realization that I am alive hurling through space on a planetoid, and knowing full well "There is another side." Attempts to will my mind to travel there were unsuccessful, and I thought very clearly on these occasions "It isn't time yet" and gave up without any disappointment.
I hope to produce influential, beautiful work and purvey the attitude of humility and compassion.
My name is Chris but I'll go by Carrierwave here. I tend to reach for easy usernames on forums, although a forum of this caliber does warrant more effort. The more generic the better however, leaves people with less of a 'concept of a person' to argue with vehemently. If I called myself "Gamonth" or something it seems more like a person, and less like a thing such as "Bowl of Grapes." I digress, rather boringly, and don't expect people to argue with me, so irrelevant as well. No disrespect intended to the carrierwave.
My first memories hearing about DMT were when I was still in Highschool, a friend related to me "Did you know there is a compound that causes you to die, float out of your body, but you return once the trip is over?" He didn't say which substance it was, but learning about DMT later I realized what he must have been talking about. Granted there are plenty of substances that could induce an OBE.
Fast forward two years and I somehow end up with a new copy of Rick Stassman's book DMT: The Spirit Molecule. I can't remember why I bought the book, but I do remember carrying it around highschool unnoticed until one day.
(schoolmate I've never seen before B-lines toward me)
"Hey DMT, cool. I've taken Ayahuasca... in the jungle." (creepy arrogant/self-congratulatory way-too-long-of-a smile)
"Yeaaah... Cool...."
I waited to see if he had anything else to say, and he didn't. Very odd and I still remember it. His elitism is what struck me the most. I am vehemently opposed to elitism, and I gave up a career path in applied physics primarily because of the sheer arrogance and elitism that surrounded the entire scope of the learning process.
Back to the point, DMT sat on the back burner of my mind for roughly five years when all of the sudden in the past month it came back with a fury, a clear obsession that I now spend all my free time consumed in. When I first was being linked to the DMT Nexus it was down, and I assumed forever. Since then browsing around the information here it is a literal library on DMT. Much respect to everyone who has built this.
I've descended down many rabbit holes... DMT being the ultimate. I've read some Carlos Castaneda, Tibetan Buddhism, Rosicrucian books, lucid dreaming, hypnosis, and found my way to 9/11 Truth and settled down. Never went into Annunaki/Tiamat/Reptoid/2012/Moon-made-of-cheese fantasy land. I appreciate their desire to seek, but personally I am too agnostic to bother building a world view on things I cannot experience.
I've always wanted to be a Chemist, always had an interest in the depths of my mind, the idea that Castaneda presents of consciously traveling through alien worlds is remarkable. I also like the idea of exposing my psyche to sheer terror in the event that it may occur. Those experiences have been the best and worst of my life, and I revel in their learning potential. Insert some kind of "from the hottest fires comes the strongest steel" phrase.
I've had several sober experience of merely walking through a hallway, being completely struck with my own mortality and realization that I am alive hurling through space on a planetoid, and knowing full well "There is another side." Attempts to will my mind to travel there were unsuccessful, and I thought very clearly on these occasions "It isn't time yet" and gave up without any disappointment.
I hope to produce influential, beautiful work and purvey the attitude of humility and compassion.
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