DosileFlynn
Rising Star
I don’t know what has drawn me to this particular corner of the internet, maybe it is my newfound interest in spirituality and mental wellbeing… but I certainly have a sense that this is a great place full of wonderful spirits that have a philanthropic nature. I guess I am seeking out help in some way sort out the problems that I have currently in my life. I want to better myself and ascend above the hurdles that I am currently faced with.
A little bit of background information: I am a 22 year old student who studies a law/economics degree at a not so prestigious university. I believe I have had a difficult life up to this point. As a child I was born without an Achilles tendon in my ankle and had to undergo many surgeries at a very young age to correct the problem which was totally fixed after maybe 4-5 large surgeries. I was adopted, into what some would say is a broken family. Growing up my mother was an alcoholic, and my father a workaholic. I never really saw my parents as parents and I believe I raised myself. The one person I did look up to was my brother, who was also adopted. He was amazing. Don’t get me wrong I was not a neglected child, and I did enjoy a happy childhood, as I grew older my mother got onto the right path and my father has always been a great influence on me.
Looking back on my younger years I view my prior self as a toy soldier with a chip on his shoulder. It was me against the world. I didn’t see my family as family and in my early teenage years I began to see my friends as the family I had chosen. I would spend my whole weekends out and not come home until Sunday afternoon. I got involved in drug taking and developed some habits which I have only recently in the past few years broken. And I am ashamed to admit it but I had stolen from people around me, taken advantage of people and generally conducted myself in a manner with which I had no conscience or atonement.
I am glad to report that I have turned over a new leaf having embarked on a path of redemption and am honestly doing my best to better myself now. As I’ve grew older I realized that friends come and go, but family will always be there for you. I realized how much my family truly sacrificed for me – especially my father, who is now terminally ill. It is crippling to see his progression and gradual fading away. I know it is inevitable that he will pass on from this life and into the next at some point, and it is my duty from here on in to cushion that transition as much as is possible.
I spoke of the hurdles I wish to ascend previously, and I believe that these are for me to help myself conquer and surpass my social anxiety and problems I see within myself. I wish to become a more spiritual person, and am interested in learning how to meditate and be a more calm and accepting being. Similarly I wish to learn from some of the more experienced people in this community as to how I can utilize the power in psychedelics to enjoy and induce profound and enriching spiritual experiences. I am intrigued by the notion of the healing properties that these compounds can bestow on an individual and am similarly intrigued by how they can be a facilitator for soul searching. I must admit I am not yet ready to experience the higher echelon experiences such as dmt, ayahuasca and iboga; and don’t know if I ever will be or could if the opportunity presented itself. But none the less I wish to learn how to explore utilize these tools to better myself.
i look forward to participating in this community.
A little bit of background information: I am a 22 year old student who studies a law/economics degree at a not so prestigious university. I believe I have had a difficult life up to this point. As a child I was born without an Achilles tendon in my ankle and had to undergo many surgeries at a very young age to correct the problem which was totally fixed after maybe 4-5 large surgeries. I was adopted, into what some would say is a broken family. Growing up my mother was an alcoholic, and my father a workaholic. I never really saw my parents as parents and I believe I raised myself. The one person I did look up to was my brother, who was also adopted. He was amazing. Don’t get me wrong I was not a neglected child, and I did enjoy a happy childhood, as I grew older my mother got onto the right path and my father has always been a great influence on me.
Looking back on my younger years I view my prior self as a toy soldier with a chip on his shoulder. It was me against the world. I didn’t see my family as family and in my early teenage years I began to see my friends as the family I had chosen. I would spend my whole weekends out and not come home until Sunday afternoon. I got involved in drug taking and developed some habits which I have only recently in the past few years broken. And I am ashamed to admit it but I had stolen from people around me, taken advantage of people and generally conducted myself in a manner with which I had no conscience or atonement.
I am glad to report that I have turned over a new leaf having embarked on a path of redemption and am honestly doing my best to better myself now. As I’ve grew older I realized that friends come and go, but family will always be there for you. I realized how much my family truly sacrificed for me – especially my father, who is now terminally ill. It is crippling to see his progression and gradual fading away. I know it is inevitable that he will pass on from this life and into the next at some point, and it is my duty from here on in to cushion that transition as much as is possible.
I spoke of the hurdles I wish to ascend previously, and I believe that these are for me to help myself conquer and surpass my social anxiety and problems I see within myself. I wish to become a more spiritual person, and am interested in learning how to meditate and be a more calm and accepting being. Similarly I wish to learn from some of the more experienced people in this community as to how I can utilize the power in psychedelics to enjoy and induce profound and enriching spiritual experiences. I am intrigued by the notion of the healing properties that these compounds can bestow on an individual and am similarly intrigued by how they can be a facilitator for soul searching. I must admit I am not yet ready to experience the higher echelon experiences such as dmt, ayahuasca and iboga; and don’t know if I ever will be or could if the opportunity presented itself. But none the less I wish to learn how to explore utilize these tools to better myself.
i look forward to participating in this community.
