Greetings

[Okasha]

It's my very humble pleasure to meet and become a part of this forum.


I have always been a highly spiritual person and an active meditator, but I guess above all else I have always had a strong sense of curiosity towards the unknown. For this reason I ended up hearing about DMT and ayahuasca and the more I read the more enthralled I become with how much potential a "drug" could have (while still not being naive to the extreme nature of these substances as well). Matter of fact I had heard about it first from friends, who described the drug with a tone of absolute horror that you could completely lose any sense of ego or self. This confused me because I honestly can't imagine anything more beautiful than being able to achieve such a feat since really isn't that the end goal of meditation in the first place?


From this point forward I began to look around in search of this elusive substance but the the few connections I had, all and turned up nothing. Instead, I had been fortunate enough to find LSD and although it was far from what I was looking for I also saw it as an opportunity to get a sense of what I could handle mentally. My trip to say the least, was interesting. I feel that by many people's expectations that it would be considered a bad trip since for the duration of the day my entire body had morphed to become covered in tattoos of Mayan or Incan origin and all the walls around me bubbled with the faces of demons. Everything around me was intensely chaotic however, strangely, I had this immensely resolute sense of peace, as if I were resting within the eye of the storm.

While I have had a few more trips since then, none of them as been as impacting or memorable.

Also, as many of the people on this forum do, if not all, I've come to the conclusion that the only dependable way for me to procure the holy grail of psychoactive drugs (and the safest) was to simply make it for myself. It's a big step for me since I do not have any background in this field, but after being very thorough in reading through this forum I feel confident that if I were to have questions (and I'm sure they will be dozens) that I will be in the best of hands here.

-Okasha

 

[Guyomech]

Welcome Okasha!

I feel strongly that my prior experiences with LSD and mushrooms made it possible for me to make more sense of, and remember more of, the DMT experience. So if that's all you can find for now, and it's from a dependable source, you at least have a way of working on developing a sort of psychedelic foundation, including a sense of comfort in letting go and allowing the ego to temporarily dissolve away.

If you are actively involved in psychedelic culture, even if you are not prepared to extract your own DMT, it might come your way. In my own case, it's always come along as a gift at just the right time. But if you are in a position to do your own extractions, you are absolutely right that there is no better source.

 

[Michal_R]

Hello Okasha,

If your intention is to gather some information on DMT extraction etc., then I think you reached the right place

My personal feeling is that DMT is definitely not for everyone, as it can produce some serious confusion (speaking of my own first encounter with DMT)... but after I read about yours "curiosity towards the unknown", I felt I could relate to your perspective. I personally believe that DMT can definitely offer you access to the "unknown", but - it needs to be stressed - without offering you too many definite or clear answers at the same time...

 

[Okasha]

Thanks for your responses!

So far from what I can tell, it seems as though ayahuasca is more in line with what I hope to achieve and/or experience through DMT. Since, as far as I can tell, without the proper skill or experience DMT can come off as more of a looney tunes whacked out/overly intense experience instead. That being said though, ayahuasca seems to demand much more of a commitment as well. But, I don't have a problem with that since something of this nature is not to be taken lightly.

Where I do get lost though is when it comes to all the different variations in preparations or ingestion methods. I mean, there seems to be an endless combination of slightly different plants to get near similar effects or conflicting advice such as whether to use Syrian Rue or Caapi leave (MAOI vs. RIMA). Or to me the entire predicament of the purge since to me at least from a spiritual perspective the purging process seems to hold some significance in the cleansing process, yet (from what I've heard/read such as what's said here http://www.disregardeverythingisay.com/tagged/ayahuasca+recipe) using egg whites or other methods just about eradicate that step altogether. Basically, lots of little technical things like that.

But, most of these questions are probably better suited in another section of this forum altogether.

-Okasha