This right here explains my frame of mind almost to a T.  All I know for sure is by doing certain things certain results may follow (as per a certain Crowley quote) and sometimes I can't even come close to predicting the results/experience.  I like to ponder multiple potential explanations without every fully excepting one specific interpretation.  I may lean heavily one way on things of course.  For example when I woke up this morning I feel confident that I am continuing this lineage that has been "me" and haven't had false memories planted in my brain .  I am an agnostic through and through and really can't ever see describing myself ever as full on Atheist or Deist.  However I reserve the right to change my mind in the future!